I saw someone announce something on their board I'm honestly thinking right about what are my triggers for things.... I think I've figured it out.....

You see some of you know I can switch quickly from being good to being horrible..... My triggers have changed a bit but I know what they are.... what make me depressed immediately without warning and that is friends leaving.....

You see I'm not actually truly myself when I'm social in real life.... so, I am social but I'm  only social with the energized, happy, weird and kind side of myself..... I've never show that many depression symptoms with my friends..... mostly because I can't communicate my depression with people by talking, I only communicate best when writing..... so, it's the reason I'm lonely.... I have all these friends in real life but they never see me cry.... and the first time anyone saw that was with my first real friend that I didn't have until 10th grade..... and the only reason I had ever truly talked to her was because she contacted me on here and she read the truth... so it made things easy.... but when I lost her I knew that was end of my irl best friends.... so I get connect to y'all easily because I can actually speak to you by writing and I think what I like the most about online friends is they don't judge you by your looks and I've never judge anyone by their looks I've only ever cared about their personality....... but I am triggered into depression when a friend I call best friend
-ignores me
-leaves wattpad since I have no other apps except TikTok

And I also am triggered when good friends have suicidal thoughts which is stupid yet sadly true....

Anyways just know that I love you all! And I am here if you need!