Traumatic Memories

How will I heal my broken self?
I’m lost and I’m feeling dead inside
but I keep pretending that I’m okay.
It’s happening again, I couldn’t deny it.

Memories of the past keep flashing in my mind.
I don’t wanna remember it — it’s hurting me.
I can see the images from that hurtful past,
and I can feel the emotions I’ve felt before.

Traumas repeatedly relive in my mind everyday
and at night when I sleep, the nightmares resurface.
The sounds from the past are re-echoing in my mind,
I wish I could shut it down — it’s too loud.

Traumatic memories are haunting me again.
I’m being tortured by the pain of yesterday.
I’m living in the past for it’s happening all over again.
I can see the past and it feels like I’m watching a movie.

I want to live in the present, in the reality
but how will I if memories live everyday?
I’m traumatize for I always get flashbacks
but it’s quite okay for it’s part of my life.