It's annoying, how you can count on some things to happen every single day but other things, things you sorely need, might show up later than needed or even not at all. School is guaranteed to wear me down every single day, my emotions are guaranteed to go on the fritz at least once a day, but stability is not. Variables, changing parts of my life, are the parts that I want most desperately. Sometimes it's the need for emotional stability, sometimes the need for your old, best friend in the whole world, or just the need for a familiar, comforting feeling. Maybe a blanket you've had for a long time, or a ring you wear and touch on your finger all the time, or some other long-loved thing, but they all assist you in some way or another.

I apologize for my infrequent posting and for my random timings, they kind of happen based on the notifications I get for one of the two I care for on here. Yes, that's M. I want to reach out so bad sometimes, to message and say I'm here to listen or to call and say "talk to me about your day today", or just to say something stupid like I always did. Then again, I don't exactly want to be my old self. That's the reason I lost the person I cared about most in this world in the first place. I may be with someone else, but my close friend still has a special place in my heart and that will not be removed. I hope they see this, too, so they can get some comfort in their down times or times of need. 

In other news, I've been very busy of late. I'm in two choirs (Select and A Cappella), running my own club, helping take care of the nephews and niece (I don't know if you ever saw the niece, M, she's not past 1 1/2 yet), still working at my job, and lots and lots of extra homework since I was absent from school for around two weeks getting my wisdom teeth out. Plus in the future, I have a German trip, a Choir trip, graduation, a two-week medieval camping trip, and more. I'm swamped and it's exhausting, but I'm pulling through.

Anywho, I think that's all I'll be saying this time. For anyone who's read all the way to here, thank you so so much and votes are appreciated as well. I hope you readers have a good rest of your day or night, and I'll talk to you all later.