Life is full of ups and downs. One moment you could be running and having fun, the next your leg is broken and your whole life is changed. One moment you could be very depressed in class, then the person you have a crush on goes out of their way and says hi, suddenly making your day brighter. Ups and downs come around all the time. Small ups could lead to big downs but eventually, it will go back up. Same goes for the other way around. You could be having the best day in your life, but then little thing after little thing weighs you down until your perfect day ended in a nightmare. Maybe it's your friend being overly rude that day and not caring that your feelings are hurt. Maybe you fall and bang your shin and the rest of the day it hurts to walk. maybe the person you like starts hanging out with someone else, falling for them so hard it's obvious to you and your heart is crushed. Or... maybe your friend gives you a special present that day for no reason besides that they felt like it. Maybe you make a new friend, or an old friend starts talking to you again. Maybe someone invites you to the football game that weekend, or to come to the movies with a few other friends. Life changes all the time. Good and bad, happy and unhappy, ups and downs.

Sometimes people can't even tell if you're happy or sad at that moment. Most people can't for me because apparently, I have a resting face of "Fuck off." I only have a couple people I might call friends but that is stretching the word a bit. They have never contacted me first outside of school, we've never gone and done anything, or even hung out. I'm hung out with one person. Ever. That person, I will call Coal. Coal has hung out with me a few times before. Both of us have gone to each other's houses. Both sets of parents are familiar with us are okay with us hanging out. Does anyone remember M, the person I talked about a long time ago? M and I like each other and have for a long time, and M gets jealous of Coal. Admittedly I sort of like Coal, but not much. M probably figures this anyway, but I don't think Coal has ever had any sort of interest in me besides as a friend and helpful person to talk with. Coal does talk dirty sometimes but purely as a joke. I don't think anyone could ever like me sexually, anyway. That doesn't matter though, what I am talking about are ups and downs.

As some of you know, I have experienced a lot of life already. Moving many times, taking care of kids (not mine), having a job, college soon, etc. I've gotten a detention for correcting my English teacher on her English, stolen my father's car at one point, and broke my brother's head open. None of that is false, I have done all of those at some point in my life. People rarely ever talk to me without me contacting them first because I am not important in anyone's life. There are only maybe two exceptions to the previous sentence: M and Coal. Honestly, they are some of the most important people in my life. M is much more so though. Without M, I think I would be lost.

I've sort of lost where I was going with this, so I guess I'm going to end it here. Thanks for taking time to read this, and have a good day everyone.