Wow okay hi. So, the first chapter of this story was published back in September of 2020!

It's been over a year and reading stuff I wrote back then...well it feels like it was written eons ago.

I was incredibly confused about my identity and my mental health and basically a lot of things back then.

-x-

So, hi cishet nyx from september 2020, it's nyx from december 2021 here to tell you: you're gay.

Lmao alright alright. You found your identity and you're openly out online which is incredible but also a little terrifying since you're still closeted to your family.

You're planning to tell your brother on your birthday in 12 days! We can only hope it goes well.

Your mental health...it's gotten progressively worse. But, you're getting help and you're doing alright.

School's rough. It's hard to keep up online. We did go in person for a month or so, so that was really nice! Meeting your friends again and everything. (PS: our economics teacher and english teacher are our favourites)

You want to do sociology with an english minor in college, and humanities in 11th.

You're doing alright. Not amazing, but alright. 

I love you.

Nyx/Caelus <3

-x-

this isn't really for anybody. I logged onto wattpad for the first time in forever and found this book. I read some of the stuff i wrote so i wanted to write a little something talking to my past self. I hope they know that even though they weren't perfect, and they still aren't, i love them very much.

-x-