I am a huge anime fan, but recently the shows that I used to watch for fun have become more of a coping mechanism than anything. I've been drowning my consciousness in those worlds, trying to pretend that I was anyone but myself.
I desperately want to go to those worlds, to get another chance at life. This world has ruined me, and I don't think I can handle existing here any longer.

It's silly, but a part of me thinks that if I lived in those worlds, maybe I would feel less lonely, that maybe I could love myself like the characters seem to love each other. I want someone to love me so that I don't have to.

Sorry, I don't know how to end this.

Bye