I never want to look out at the world and see everyone being happy without me, whilst I feel trapped behind a barrier, never able to be a part of anything. I feel alone constantly. There is a horrifying voice in my mind that whispers terrible things to me in the dark corners of my mind. It digs hollows in the unseen crevices, the small spaces where the light cannot touch. It utters lies. They are ones that people not so weak as I would be able to deflect easily, but as for me- well it breaks me more than anyone could ever know. It tells me that I need it, that it will protect me, and out of desperation, I believe it. I let it slowly tear me apart and drag me down, clinging on to the desperate hope that it will protect me from being hurt.

I cannot trust anymore. I have been manipulated, betrayed, and abandoned too many times to count. Everyone I have ever opened up to has stabbed me in the back. The worst part is that nobody has ever apologized for what they did. Most of them even forgot what happened completely. Those people have cut at me with their steely knives and left me alone and broken on the floor. Some wounds heal, but these left scars that will last my entire life. I'm not even sure that I want to keep going on anymore.