C.4: Confessions, Sometimes they Bring Good Results

"Hey.. Uh breakfast is ready."I placed the tray on top of the table and picked up my food.

Ash glanced at me for a few second before shifting his gaze back at his pokeballs.

"Finally... You two messed up my morning. At least this is the only good thing that happened this morning... Breakfast."Iris groans, taking a bite of the caesar's salad.

"Ash?"I called. I had my food on my hands but I didn't bother taking a bite of it... I just can't think straight with Ash like that. It's just... Not normal...

And it's most probably my fault that he's like that anyway.

"Mm?"He mumbled, not even taking his time to look at me and talk to me in a proper way.

"Aren't you gonna eat..?"I asked worriedly. With things like this... How can I ever enjoy his last 2 months here in Unova?

"I'm not hungry."

Ah. That's... Surprising. At times like this he would be the first one to pick up a food and stuff it in his mouth. But then...

"Y...you're not? You haven't eaten anything this morning..."I accidentally dropped my fork the moment I finished my sentence.

I guess I was focused on thinking about why Ash doesnt wanna eat. Arghh. This is my fault after all! I wish I just kept myself quiet and innocent rather than ask questions...

"I said i'm not hungry. Okay."He was serious. His voice was filled with grief. Anger. It was scary and unusual. Ash isn't really like this often. He really is mad at me...

"Ash you have to eat."I placed my food(that I haven't even eaten yet.) on the bed and approached Ash.

"I said i'm not hungry! Cilan stop forcing me!"Ash hissed, staring at me with fury in his eyes.

"Then stop forcing me to tell you what a kiss really means!"I retaliated.

"I already told you if you don't wanna say what it means to me then don't!"

"I know you're bothered by that and I know that you'll still force me even if you say that."

"WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL ME WHAT IT MEANS! IT'S AS SIMPLE AS THAT! WE'RE FIGHTING HERE BECAUSE OF THAT ONE THING!"Ash was breathing heavily. Tension was building up between the two of us.

Iris was just staring at us, in awe and surprised that were both screaming at each other.

"Pika..."Pikachu was scared. I could say this is the worst morning ever.

"I CAN'T... Tell you."My anger subsided. All my strength were drained because of this one... Boy.

"Tch."Ash rolls his eyes."Don't talk to me. Unless you want to answer my question."

"Ash... I..."I have to tell him. Cilan... T...there's nothing wrong with telling him. Besides... Serena's away... He can't possibly have feeling for her with him here in Unova...

Love... He doesn't know what love means so why would he feel it for Serena or I if he doesn't know what it means?

The room remained silent for 5 seconds... I wouldn't be surprised if we end up like before... Wherein Iris and Ash were mad at each other for a day.

"Lalala..."Iris was trying to break the awkward silence. Nice try.

"Ash I..."I hold his hand and pulled him outside the room. I can't take Iris hearing what i'm about to do... And say.

"L..let go of me!"Ash shouts, trying to break free from my grip.

"I'm gonna tell you what this means."I pinned him on the wall, staring at him for a few seconds before our lips touch once more.

"Tch..."Ash looks away, his eyes were filled with tears...

Why... Why are you crying...

"I feel so... Left out... Every time you do that I feel nothing... But I know deep inside there's something more to it..."Ash looks down, curling his fist into a ball,"I know I feel nothing... But every time you do that my heart beats fast... I don't know why... So i disregard that feeling... Cilan.. Explain it to me..."

His tears kept streaming down his cheeks,"I don't know... Anything... How can I be a Pokemon Master if this one thing... I don't know..."He buried his face on my chest.

It hurts Ash... Seeing you like that..."Ash."

"Cilan... Tell it to me now..."Ash buried his face more."I'm confuse."

I sit down by the floor, lifting Ash's face to face mine."When a person do that... It means... That person love the person he or she kissed."

"Does that mean Serena and you Loves me?"Ash said, raising his eyebrow in confusion."But... Serena never told me she loves me."

"And neither did I."I choked.

Holy....

"I... I love you as a... A A FRIEND... Ahahaha... Ha...ha..."I looked away, covering my mouth with my palm.

"I understand now."Ash's eyes widened, pulling my hands away from my mouth,"A PERSON ONLY KISS THE OTHER IF HE OR SHE LOVES HIM MORE THAN ANYONE IN THIS WORLD."

He wasn't that naive. I'm wrong. My tasting is wrong.

This is the end of me.

Oh no. Oh no. Oh no no no no.

"Don't lie to me Cilan! You have a crush on me I knew it! And so does Serena!"What?! HOW DID HE REALIZE THAT SO SOON!

"No! I DON'T!"

"You two have the same body language! The way you two talk to me, help me or... Anything! Now I know!"Ash groans, he was now leaning against the wall.

"Ash! I don't!"I insisted. My face is burning red... I can't hide it anymore.

"But Cilan you can't love me."Ash pouts,"I'm a boy. Come on. That's wrong."

I knew this would happen. I hate confessions...

"But sometimes the wrong situation feels great."Ash smiles.

...What?

"Now don't give me that face. Cilan. The moment I met you I know there was something. I just disregard that feeling."Ash grins, his smile getting more and more... Cuter."Cilan."

"What..."I looked down, biting my bottom lip.

"I love you."

W...wa... What.. WHAT?!

Im just dreaming come on. Wake up Cilan. He couldn't love me. This is all just a dream. Yeah! A dream! A ONE HELL OF A DREAM!!!

Oh dear Arceus this can't be happening.

"Hey. I said I love you! Reply something!"Ash was snapping his fingers in front of my face.

"Ash."

"Rep—"

I pinned him to the wall once again, having his lips resting on mine... It was soft...  I couldn't resist...

The person I have a crush on loves me back... I don't know... What to say.

At first I thought it'll be worst... At first I thought i'll be left out once I confessed my feelings... But I was wrong. I was scared. I thought I will be all alone once I did that...

But maybe telling him this wasn't a bad decision.

Or is it?

I don't know.. I'm just happy that he loved me back... I couldn't ask for more...

For the least... I just hope this day would never end...

"Ash is this really true? Am I not dreaming?"I pout, staring at him with my eyes sparkling in joy.

"Yeah. Want me to pinch you or something."He replied sarcastically.

Things happen so fast... Just a night and 7 hours... I knew everything and that everything felt great.

"Ash. Now that you know... What about Serena?"I looked down, tucking my hands in my pocket.

"Serena... I don't know... I still haven't decided yet."

You can't decide anything once you love someone Ash! Ugh. I guess he still doesn't understand.

"Mngh..."I pout,"Oh... I forgot.. We haven't eaten yet."

"Huh?"Ash's stomach growled. It was really loud so I could hear it clearly. "you're right! Let's head back inside and eat."

We stood up, wiping our clothes from all the dirt on the ground.

Hmm.. Is this all true...

I still can't believe this is really true. But...

We can't be together. I'll only... And will always treat him... As Ash... My crush... And the person I will protect always...

I will never... Treat him as my prisoner... And If he ends up loving someone better than me... Like Serena, I will not stop him... Rather... I'll support him.

Even in his wedding day.

"Come on Cilan!"He hold my hand and pulled me inside the room.

"Where have you guys been?"Iris asked,"Seems like you two are getting along now... What a kid."

"Iris if you don't stop saying that phrase I would be force to..."Ash stops, the moment Iris smirks and glare at him.

"You would be force to what..? You can't do anything unless... You beat me in a race."Iris giggled.

"Oh please.... Now if you would excuse us we're gonna eat. I don't have time to argue with a kid like you."Ash smirks back. Stuffing his mouth with food... As usual. I guess he's back to his old and normal self.

It's as if nothing happened earlier... Like the kisses were just a normal thing to happen between us... For the least...

"Cilan come on let's eat!"Ash insisted, pulling me beside him.

"A..ah... Okay.."i'm still tensed... I feel so weak with him... Especially now.

"Cilan. I understand what you're feeling now but please be comfortable with me... We have been friends for a long time why aren't you comfortable with me sitting beside you~? Besides... We sat alone in a ferriswheel didn't we?..."Ash gave me a grin that I will never forget even in my sleep.

...

"Boy it's getting hot in here... I think i'm just gonna... Eat..."I gulped. Taking my spoon and fork with my hands shaking in anxiousness.

Grr Ash. You're my weakness.

From the corner of my eye, I can see him staring at me with a smile. He's so innocent... Yet he still managed to love me back without forcing himself to do so...

Oh Ash... You make me forget all my plans... And dreams... Sigh...