So back when Thomas got diagnosed. I kept a diary online, the website was OhLife, and it was the best website ever for keeping an online diary. It unfortunately has shut down now. But I was good back then at keeping a record of what happened on this diary and found it to be more reliable than a paper and pen diary.

But I have my entry on the day before Thomas got diagnosed.

As well as my entry on the day Thomas got diagnosed with cancer.

Now when I did keep a diary, my entries were between long, or short.

But my life was average, before Thomas got diagnosed.

2013-08-13 (The Day Before Thomas Got Diagnosed- A Normal School Day)

Today i got up and made a pencil case out of a cereal box. It was a success. I love art! then i went to school and played cards. In homeroom i told maddy "I am upset with what you did yesterday." when she sat next to me. Like usual she stormed off upset, serves her right, with taht kind of reaction you know she obviously did something wrong.

I do also feel like mentioning that diary seems super cliche. But it's a real entry. I can't believe it. Then the next day's entry.

2013-08-14 (The Day Thomas got diagnosed with Cancer. The EKKA Holiday)

Tom went in to Cardiac arrest 2 minutes after i awoke up this morning. I heard him the say: "Mum, i cant breath.... i'm going to die" Then mum screamed at me "Caitlin Get Mish he cant breath" i ran up to Mishes house and banged on the door like wild fire and told them he couldn't breath. by the time i made my way back down to the house, Tom was pale, i could see the blue veins in his face, unconscious. He wasn't breathing. Mish ran in as mum was trying to resuscitate him. I went to the stairs and comforted Alex and Lauren, trying to tell them it was going to be alright.

"He's breathing" Mum said. There was relief. But his breathing was very dark, and painfully hollow. The ambulance pulled up a few minutes later. I volunteered to go to the hospital with mum but Tim went instead and i was left at home with Grandma, Scott, Alex and Lauren, all of us anxious to hear the next news. Tom had in fact died, Mish brought him back to life. That echoed in my head. If i didn't run up to Mish when i did, he would of died right there. What if i had already left for school? He would be dead, no one would be able to get help for him for Mish. I'm scared, what if he had gone into cardiac arrest at night, no one would of ever known what had happened.  Its a very scary thought. I went to Gma's house with Scott then back again. We played Minecraft, watched Tv, played on our computers, and waited for the next amount of news to topple us over, and for us to confront. After my shower. Gma told me that the evidence was pointing toward Cancer.

2013-08-15 (The Day after Thomas's collapse)

Thomas has Lymphoblastic Lymphoma Leakemia, they are continuing tests to find out more information. I was at home all day, playing minecraft, and facebooking, eating chips and attempting to do homework We have been really worried. He has an 85% survival rate, so i am not that worried, he's tough and i know he will pull through. Grace is getting really annoying. last night she kept on asking questions athat i had already asked, and making my repeat myself repeat myself. She asked questions after i had told her everything that i knew and after i had told her that i didnt know she repeated them. Then had a go at me for being rude. O.O i didnt get her. Emily and Grace are still very supportive though. I got up at 5:36 this morning, my biological clock woke me up, it was annoying. I got out of bed in the dark and then the door opened and Tim came out. He told me that he was about to wake me up anyway, as he went to the hospital to pick mum up. And he wanted me to be awake for Lauren. They were back before Lauren was up, but i was so tired and falling over myself. I am so tired. I also watched the power puff girls and went to get chips for Lauren, and myself. I have had fun with Racheal all day too.

2014-02-08 (The day Thomas died; the last entry in my dairy, ever)

Today Thomas passed away at 9:36 pm. It hurts.