six months later

i hate it here, i hate everyone and myself. how could i have been so stupid to think i could've actually had a happy ending here? happily ever after doesn't exist. it doesn't exist on the isle and it doesn't exist here. i fucking hate auradon and i just want to go back to the isle. yeah i know, how could i hate it after everything that's happened. i just want to rip this stupid fucking cheer outfit off of me and drop dead. i became the thing i promised to never become. some snobby preppy asshat.

i became friends with the cool kids, my status in the school went up and then everyone wanted to be my friend. yeah i got to kiss princey but look at me now! i'm single and depressed. we were happy for what? five days? i don't know what happened, or where i went wrong. he left me for mal. he left me for mal! how? how did i fuck this up? where did i go wrong?

the week after his coronation all we did was kiss, and kiss, and kiss, and even more kissing. my lips were so swollen by the end of the week. and for what? so he can leave one morning, come back like i didn't exist and then declare that mal is his girlfriend. what sucks is he's always all flirty with me in private, but in the halls it's like i didn't exist. that shit hurted. i shouldn't feel bad, we never became anything official! he was just using me.

after that, to try to cheer me up, audrey invited me to see the cheer tryouts. she thought seeing people fail would cheer me up, and in a way it did. however, i learned the routine and tried out. as a joke. it was just a joke. these fuckers accepted me into the team and here i am now, watching the fencing team work out. it felt so weird, when we first got here i was quick to fit in. now i feel out of place and the others fit in better than ever did.

as i said, we're currently watching the fencing team do their thing. jane is all excited because she knows something we don't, what is it? i don't know and i don't care. whoever was going against jay obviously knew what they were doing as jay seemed to be struggling a bit. wait that's a girl under the mask, no guy is that scrawny.

"it's lonnie!" oh shit it was. lonnie had taken off the mask and revealed who she was. everyone was surprised and impressed, but i don't have the energy to feel proud of her. i just clapped along as the other girls cheered for her, jane being the most excited.

"yes! that's my girl!" oh right, jane and lonnie were a couple. how great for them, everyone seems to be in a happy relationship except me. lonnie and jane, jay and carlos, who else is there? all of auradon seems to be in a happy relationship. why can't that be me? "you know, since ben had to leave to go do all that king stuff." ugh why must he be brought up? he shall remain nameless until further notice.

"i'm getting out of here, i'll see you later." i said to audrey who was too busy with the girls to notice. i didn't mind though, out of everyone she deserves to be happy. with everything that's going on in her life, being here surrounded by people that care for her is what she needs. i decided to head over to my room as princey was probably with mal right about now. he's always with her, having her shove cookies in his mouth in public. it's gross, like get a room. a room that isn't mine.

once in my room i turned the tv on and sat down, hopefully this could get my mind off of this whole mess. except it didn't, every fucking channel was broadcasting princey and mal's relationship. i'm so tired of it! mal and ben this, mal and ben that. the king and his future queen. the most envied girl in auradon. his one true love. that should be me! i was going to risk my life for that witch and what does she do? she steals the only person i've ever had actual feelings for.

out of anger and desperation i threw the remote control at the tv, which i instantly regretted. i'm angry okay? i have every right to be! i thought i could get over this fucker in six months but i haven't. in these six months i have fallen deeper and deeper, and it hurts. it hurts knowing that he just used me. i thought it was me! i haven't been eating and i'm losing sleep. all because i'm not good enough for that little shit.

i looked at the mirror in front of me before throwing the nearest thing to me at it. i looked around the room as the glass fell before i began throwing things left and right. picture frames on princey and mal hit the walls left and right, i threw the stuff off of his desk to the floor and ripped papers that seemed important. i just want to go home, be with mother and people that don't need me to be perfect to actually care for me.

i looked around the room and realized what i had done. i completely trashed it. i should get out of here before princey gets here. maybe i should go and do something fairy godmother would deem evil and have me shipped out to the isle. i grabbed my phone and my jacket before running out. i'm such a fucking mess, how did i let myself get here?

i ran straight to evie's room, hopefully she had something for me to wear. i'm tired of these clothes, these clothes that make me look like a fucking auradon normie. i pounded on her door, hopefully she couldn't tell i looked like a mess. i don't know how she's able to put up with this. how does she cope watching princey and mal be all lovey dovey in front of her?

"val! hey what's up?" she makes it seem so easy. "do you have anything i could like wear? i feel like i can't breath in this." if my face didn't give it away, my voice sure did. i sounded so broken, but she didn't seem to notice. which was good of course. "of course, come in in." i walked in and thankfully mal wasn't here. i used to not like her, now i just hate her. i can't stand being in the same room as her.

"just sit down and i'll be right back, i just need some materials and i'll have some new clothes for you whipped up in no time." evie sat me down on her bed and pinched my cheek before leaving. i looked around and saw another picture of mal and princey. i went to put it face down when my burn mark began to well burn. something was making it hurt. i looked on the night stand and saw a book that caught my attention.

mal's spell book, she still had it with her. i guess it wouldn't hurt to look through it. i picked it up and my burn stopped burning. i opened it and looked through it, there's so many spells. maybe some of these could come in handy... i shouldn't, but i will. i took out my phone and took pictures of everything i might need. you never know when.. blond hair spell might come in handy? wait what is this spell? it says it'll erase certain things from people... is that why evie hasn't once mentioned her feelings for mal? is there a counter spell for it?

i heard the door opening and quickly put the book back, i think i have enough to get me by. maybe i could use the memory eraser one to get rid of my feelings. evie was back with her material and she began working in no time. she really commits herself to making clothes doesn't she? i walked over and watched her work her magic.

"so evie, how are things? between you and mal that is." evie didn't even look up to think before answering. "great, i'm so happy for my best friend. i'm just glad i get to be here for her and support her through anything. she's like the sister i never had." i'm sorry what? the evie i knew would never say that. the evie i knew would complain about this. evie admitted her feelings for mal to me so many times, what happened?

"so you're not jealous?" she laughed at that. "of course not. why would i?" so mal did use that spell on her! that's so sick, how could you even do that to your best friend. i thought she and evie were like in love with each other, she was always so overprotective and jealous. that's just sick.

"all done." what? that was quick. "i already had some designs in the works for you, i just needed some extra stuff. here, why don't you go change into this so you can breath again. save this one for tomorrow, and give me your cheer clothes. i'll add some stuff to make it feel more you, and i'll hand deliver them tonight. go on now, go change." evie pushed me into her bathroom and closed the door once she had me inside. well okay. i changed quickly, having that cheer outfit in really made me feel so ugh.

i looked at myself in the mirror and finally saw isle valentin. the spikes, the dark colors, the ripped pants. this is me. i missed me. i walked out and evie clapped her hands as i gave her a little spin. "you are amazing. thank you so much eves." she extended her hand out for the cheer outfit and i gladly handed it over.

"well i must get back to mal's cotillion dress, after all it won't finish itself up. do you need anything else val?" she asked as she walked back to her little design area. "no, i'm good thank you. i guess i'll see you later. good luck with the witches gown." evie laughed and walked me to the door. "i'll see you later val." with that i walked out, i guess it's time to head back. maybe i should clean up the room before princey came back.

as i walked back, i questioned whether i should give auradon another chance or find a way off of this place. oh no, the lights were on. princeys back. i'll apologize and promise to clean everything up myself. okay, just turn the knob and you'll be fine. you can do it val. i opened the door and walked in. it won't be so bad right?

"what the fuck?"