This chapter is for playful killer. The biggest shipper of Carter and Eva I have ever seen.

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All I saw was black. It surrounded me from everywhere, making me feel like I am nothing. Am I nothing? I tried to move and then realised I couldn't feel my body, I can't even see it. Where am I? What happened?

Then I heard a voice.

"Hey buddy"

I know this voice, I've heard it before. Who is it?

"Its good to see you"

Dad?

I felt someone grab my hand softly and instantly knew it was my father, I remember his touch from the very first time he held me.

His hands were shaking a little. I tried to move or scream or do anything so he could know I can hear him. That I was here but nothing came out of me.

"I missed you"

I want to see his face.

I try to remember what happened? Where am I? And how did I got here?

"You know I need your help, everything would be a mess without you, is a mess without you" he said, his voice cracking.

And then it all came back to me. Being kidnapped, drugs, Abel, getting shot by Rick. I don't remember where I was hit, I only remember Abel saying Carter was here.

"I don't know how to braid Millie's hair and you know how bad I am at english, I can't help the twins with their homework and I don't know Millie's favourite tv shows, she throws a fit if she doesn't see them. And I don't know twins favourite snacks, I don't even know my favourite snacks that's what you were suppose to remember-"

He was crying now, I could feel his tears falling on my hand as he kissed it softly.

"I need you back Eva"

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I can hear someone talking at a distance, who is it? I try to concertrate on the voice, to find out who it is.

"Who do you think you are huh? First disappearing like that and now that your finally back you won't even open your eyes and look at me."

Ally! She was pacing, I can hear the scrambling of her feet. Her anger visible in her voice.

"You can't be like this Eva, okay? You have to wake up, there are so many people here who want to see you awake and healthy, who want to talk to you"

I felt her sit next to me as the bed dipped down due to her weight.

"Don't you think about me? How hard it is for me to spend even a minute without you? Your being selfish, you can't be selfish Eva that's not something you do"

She was crying, her voice breaking, pain lacing her every single word.

"Do you even know how I spend these two weeks? Locked in my room because I didn't wanted to go to school without you or shopping or anything, I can't do anything without you it has been like this for years why are you trying to change it now?"

"I miss you so much, please open your eyes, please come back to me, to us"

I felt her grab both of my arms, shaking me.

"You don't want to come back for me fine! But think about your family, your dad Eva, he is not okay and your mom, she's losing it, the twins don't laugh anymore and....and.....and me?"

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"Hi pal"

Mason.

"Its been four days now, I think its time you come back"

His voice was soft like when he nursed an injured animal he found on the road.

"Things aren't really great here without you"

I wanted to reach out for him, wanted to tell him that I want to come back, that I don't know how, that I don't like this state I'm in right now.

"Your parents need you, they'll be broken for life if you won't come back. And Ally, God! She is going crazy, its hard for anyone to handle her, and-"

He stopped talking and there was a long pause. After a few minutes I realised he was crying, his sniffles barely audible.

"I miss you and I...I'm sorry for everything, I was such a bad friend to you in the last couple of months. I was a jerk and I wish I wasn't. I wish I had looked out for you, I left you all alone and....."

"Eva please come back"

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"I'm filing for custody" I heard my mom's voice.

"You can't do that" this was my dad.

"I am doing that" she replied in her shrilly voice.

There was a torturing silence.

"Think about it rationally, you have work, you can't be with them all the time. I stay at home I can take care of them"

"I am the one who has been taking care of them since the moment you left us." Said my father in a controlled anger.

"You can say whatever you want but I am doing this"

"You think you could have changed this? That Eva wouldn't have gone to this party if she was living with you?

"I don't know okay? All I know is that my daughter has been lying on a hospital bed for a week now and is not waking up."

She was crying, I could tell without even looking at her.

"Eva is going to be eighteen next month, no court is going to force her to live with you" said dad.

"Then I will take the twins and Millie" shot back my mother.

"YOU WILL NOT TAKE AWAY MY KIDS FROM ME" Shouted my father.

This is the first time I have heard my father shout at my mother.

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"Hey Eva, its Drake"

I tried to open my eyes, nothing. I tried to move my hand, again nothing.

"I think you have been gone a long time and should come back now"

How do I tell him that I want to come back, that I want to see everyone one of them, hug them.

"There are two people here who are losing it without you and I can't handle them. If this continues then I might be beside you in this hospital" he said with a laugh.

I like his attempt to make a joke, it made me feel better, made me feel real. Every other person who has come here has just cried.

"Ally is not okay, I am worried about her and the only way she could be fine is if you come back"

There was a pause, he took in a deep breath.

"Forget Ally, I might manage her somehow but Carter-"

Even after all this I could feel my heart beating in my chest, the way it always does when I hear his name. And then a thought struck me.

Why hasn't Carter come visited me? Or maybe he has and I wasn't awake at that time.

"Eva Carter needs you more than anyone in this world. You....you haven't seen him, it hurts me so much to see him like this, he is hurting."

"Listen, I know it may seemed like Carter doesn't care but don't believe that. He is broken deep inside because of this, he blames himself for all that happened and he's punishing himself, making himself suffer"

"I beg you Eva please open your eyes, come back to him. I can't afford to lose my friend"

There was a ringing in the background. I heard shuffling and then Drake spoke.

"Carter, where the hell are you?" He said.

"Paul wants to see you so you should-" started Drake but was cut off.

"Carter William you do realise that you are a free man right now because of Paul. You killed seven men that day, if it wasn't for Paul you'll be in prison right now so I suggest you go see him right now."

Seven men? Carter killed seven men that day? Is Rick one of them? I hope he is and Abel.

"And one more thing, come visit Eva"

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"Hello Eva" I heard a voice.

It seemed fimiliar but I didn't recognise it.

"Its me Veronica, Carter's mom"

Veronica? Carter's mom? What is she doing here?

"I came to see you and....and request you to please wake up."

I felt a light brush again my forehead.

"Carter, he is really getting affected by this, by your absence. You know he doesn't talk much with anyone, keeps all of it in but I know you mean alot to him"

"He is hurting deep inside and I know that's why he hasn't come visited you. He can't stand to see you like this, nobody can dear"

So he didn't come. He didn't even come to see me.

"Eva please come back"

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I felt the bed shifted on either side of me.

"Hey Eva" said the twins in unison.

It felt so good to hear their voice. I just wanted to get up and hug them. I miss them so much. I want to see them so badly.

"We brought flowers for you, nobody know which ones are your favourite, not even Ally. They all brought roses." Said Daniel.

"But you like those little white flowers that smell good" said Alex.

"Yesterday dad just brought two donuts for us, he always used to bring three. Me and Alex forced him to go back and bring the third one" said Daniel.

I could feel them lying next to me on either side.

"Just because you can't eat them now doesn't mean you won't like to have them later"

Why can't I just wake up? I try again, using as much force I can to open my eyes or more my feet. What is wrong with me? If I'm not dead then why can't I wake up?

"We don't go to the park anymore, its lonely there without you" said Alex.

"Dad doesn't talk anymore"

"And mom doesn't laugh"

"Millie just keeps on crying"

"And we...we both miss you"

I felt them sit up again.

"Eva I'll do my homework"

"I'll take my bath without objection"

"And I'll give you my desert if you want"

"Eva, please wake up" they said together.

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"Eva....hey"

Carter! He's here, he came!

"Um....how...I..."

I felt a chair being dragged near me. There was a pause that followed. Complete silence, the kind that is always surrounding Carter.

"I don't like this room, its window opens in an alley. I asked your father if we could shift to another room with a better view but he...he doesn't really listen" he said.

His voice being the same constant as it always have been. I could see he was trying to dodge it, the emotions in his voice, maybe that's why he was talking about something as pointless as a hospital room.

"The school....everyone misses you at school"

What about you? Do you miss me?

"You know your missing out alot, the finals are coming close you should....you should come back"

I might have imagined it but I felt voice cracking up at the end. He took a deep breath and then I felt him, the slight touch of his hand. He gently picked it up and held it between his. It fit perfectly. The warmth of his hands the same one I remember.

"I wanted to...to say something to you"

Pause.

"I...I am so sorry, this...all of this is because of me."

I was sure now his strong, consistant voice was cracking. Breaking slightly at every edge.

"I never wanted this to happen, I never wanted you to get caught up in all of this. In my sick twisted world"

He lightly rubbed his thumb on my hand.

"I am sorry for making fun of you, ignoring you, I am sorry for walking away from you that day. I am sorry for knowing you so late."

"Why couldn't we have met before? Just a few years before, none of this would have happened...I...I wouldn't have gotten into the things that I am in now. We...we would have been happy...together"

There was a pause again. It seemed like he didn't have the strength to keep talking and I didn't have to keep listening. I could feel the darkness coming back but I didn't wanted to be unconcious just yet I felt liked there was more it, that there is something else he has to say. He should have something else to say.

"There is something that I want to tell you" he said finally.

"Something I should have told you long ago."

His voice was becoming distance now.

"I...I don't know why I suck at feelings" he said with a soft laugh.

"When I first met you, you were something completely different, you were nothing like me or the people I knew maybe that's why I started to get curious about you. You had this way of making me feel."

"I...I started memorizing you, how you laughed, how you huffed when your irritated, how your eyes shined in the light of the moon that day, how your always forgiving and kind."

"And I started to notice something else, a change in me. How my heart it started to beat when I saw you, how I felt agitated if I didn't see you. How I was happy when I was next to you"

The blackness was surronding me I knew at any minute I would be gone.

"At first I rebelled it, those feelings, that truth that use to look me right in the eye at night. I was mean towards you, didn't wanted to accept that I was- I didn't know I was-"

"I want to tell you something, that..."

His voice was a distant hum now but I still managed to hear him. Of course I managed to hear him.

"I love you." He said and softly kissed my hand, a tear falling on my hand.

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FINALLY!! THE MOMENT EVERYONE WAS WAITING FOR. CARTER SAID IT!!! HE DID!!!
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