There are two sides in our mind. The optimistic, and the pessimistic. Sa akin kasi, madalas talaga akong maapektuhan ng pessimistic side ko. The one that always dictate me to feel down, hopeless, and dreamless.

Yung tipong hindi ka niya bibigyan ng chance na makita yung positive side ng isang sitwasyon ng kinahaharap mong problema. Something that will always give you reason to give up.

Go on with the flow and let yourself face the consequences of where the flow will bring you. Kahit na ang ending nito e, alam na, failure. That's the pessimistic side of mine. The one who doesn't care what would happen next.

Just give up. That it's easier to surrender than go and fight for the achievement. And sad to say, most of the time. This side of mine always win in my perspective.

Because of this, I have failed many things. I haven't tried many things that I wish I could have tried, but because of this pessimistic side of me, the chance had never seen the sky.

But what about the other side?

I don't like the optimistic side of myself. It's somehow, competitive. In a way na kapag nakakita ako ng kakilala ko na successful, I will be fueled by great intent to become a better person. To try and do my best to outrun those people I know 'personally', and be like them.

Iba kasi kapag hindi mo personally kilala ang isang tao, you don't relate with them in a way na wala kang memory to remember having them. You don't know their story as how you know those people around you personally.

Kaya kapag nakita mong nakakaangat sila, there's a fire that will spark inside of you to be at your best at all times. To change the situation and turn the tables on.

That this world is not just pure survival of the fittest but a challenge to your fellow kinds. A competition for whose the best that could win that throne.

The throne which I can say, contentment.

If you live life with content, it's a life that was lived.

Kaya kahit masyadong negative parehas ang dalawang mindset ko, it will help me decide what path should I go. Hay, sana naman mabawasan na rin ang mga problema ano?

Para naman kahit papaano, hayahay ang buhay.