Today was the first day of four volleyball practices/tryouts

btw this will be uncensored bc I don't feel like using asterisks to cover my words of rage.

K?

K.

When we were practicing overhand serving, which is so much harder than it should be, all the other girls were getting the ball over the net about 3 out of 5 times. I was getting it zero out of all times.

The coach was helping them, but I didn't get help once. AM I FUCKING INVISIBLE

SERIOUSLY THIS SHITTY COACH ISN'T EVEN LOOKING AT ME

JUST LIKE "OH LOOK A FLOATING FUCKING VOLLEYBALL SEEMS REALLY FUCKING LEGIT"

BITCH

And then we get into lines for a drill, and two or three girls just went in front of me WHILE I WAS IN THE FUCKING LINE

HEY BITCH I EXIST SO HOW ABOUT YOU OPEN YOUR DAMN EYES

MAYBE I'M NOT "PRETTY" OR FUCKING GOOD AT SPORTS, BUT THAT GIVES YOU NO RIGHT TO PRETEND I DON'T FUCKING EXIST

And practically no one talked to me the whole time. HEY, I GET THAT I HAVE AN ABRASIVE PERSONALITY AND I'M A BITCH, BUT CAN YOU NOT? CAN YOU TALK TO ME

I FUCKING EXIST

RIGHT?

OR AM I WRONG?

WILL THEY FUCKING NOTICE ME IF I TEAR MY SKIN

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT THOSE BITCHES THINK, BUT I'D LIKE FOR THEM TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY FUCKING EXISTENCE

AT LEAST PRETEND YOU LIKE ME IF YOU HAVE ENOUGH FUCKING ENERGY TO HIT THE DAMN VOLLEYBALL

And then when we were practicing serving I was going to get a ball on the floor. Another girl was going to the same one, and as soon as she saw me, she backed away. Uh, am I scary? I'm sorry I intimidate you.

But seriously, how am I fucking scary? I look like every normal girl. Long hair, etc.

Is it wrong for me to not have the same personality?

Is that what's fucking wrong with me? Jesus, bitch, calm down. I won't hurt you unless you make me really mad. What's worse is that I thought we were on good terms.

Was she trying to be nice? I don't fucking care, take the ball. I'll find another. Anything to make her happy. Whatever...

Fucking. Bitch.

Okay

Rage over