Sometimes I really hate being me.... I hate being single and even looking in the mirror sometimes.

I look around me and I see all the artificial girls dating guys that are the same or deserve better. But to see someone in love and happy makes me feel.... Well just sad.

I'm an athlete. A young one in fact. And so I feel like a guys isn't going to like my body because I'm too muscular or too strong. I know that sounds dumb but it's true, it's just the way I think.

I feel like my looks are mediocre at best and my personality is too cold and dry. I'm not funny or kind... And that's what guys look for in a girl right?

I've always thought that I would never get married just because I'm just not a worthy girl. I always think that not one person will love me because I'm too emotional and not charming or funny or witty....

I don't know why I'm thinking like this because I haven't been in this state of mind for a while...

Sorry if that rant was depressing, but I just don't have any other way of getting it out RN...

But that's all I have right now. I'll be home from Kentucky later today so until next time my loves... I'm out!