So... If you didn't read my post on my message board, it's been a rough few days for me...

And before you go saying that I'm looking for sympathy, please know that that's not the case at all... I'm just overwhelmed and need a place to vent.

So, today we had to put my pup Spike down after he had severe spinal injuries that he couldn't recover from.

I've never felt so heartbroken... I was in the same room when the doctor gave him the final shot and I was petting him as he left.

I've been through a lot of crap in my life, but that was the worst thing I've ever been through.

I stayed strong for my family, only shedding a few silent tears and now that I'm alone, I'm realizing how much it hurts when you're not focusing on anyone but yourself.

Again, I'm not writing this for sympathy, I'm doing this because I have a lot on my mind.

I got Spike as a present for my 10th birthday 5 years ago and I was so excited. I had always wanted a puppy and on that day I was so ecstatic when I got what I had wished for.

He was about 8 weeks old when I first got him and he couldn't even walk straight - he just wobbled around like a toddler trying to walk for the first time.

And now, five years later, I'm in this situation. It's one I never thought I'd be in.

I appreciate all the love I've gotten. Thank you guys so much.

Love you guys❤️