No beautiful  smile on the face.
Just that distance expression it gives.

Movements are few.
Talking feels like something new.

Thoughts flashing in the head.
That bring the memories that makes you wanna breakdown in tears.

Sometimes its hard to keep in but the feelings  burst the river bank on your  face and runs down your cubby cheeks .

So many things you wish you can say but no one would ever understand your pain .