ten years ago

hongjoong sat on his desk as the moonlight illuminated through the window next to his bed. he wrote on his diary, about the boy he liked, the boy in his class he had an ever-lasting love for.

he always knew he liked boys-- and he didn't really have an opinion on it. he considering it to be okay, even though literally everyone he knew of was straight. he wondered if something was wrong with him when he first had feelings for a boy, because why not a girl?

regardless, his heart jumped at every sight of this boy, and god, did he make hongjoong feel like the most special guy ever.

the brunette placed his face in his tiny hands and giggled at the thought of the other boy, he felt like his entire body would heat up at thr thought of him.

the clock struck two, the bell on the church nearby ringing as it always did every single hour. just as hongjoong decided it was time to go to bed, the sound of a familiar motorcycle echoed through his ears. he knew exactly who this belonged to.

he pushed his chair away and skipped towards his window, unveiling the closed curtains to find that motorcycle parked in front of his home, and his oh so handsome boyfriend leaning against it with his arms crossed. hongjoong couldn't help but let out a gasp at the sight, his sweater paws hovering against his mouth.

the teenager signaled for hongjoong to come down stairs, a smile tugging across his lips. and boy, did the male dash. he quickly slipped into his thermal jacket to prevent him from dying in the cold along with his snow boots and massive scarf that almost covered his entire face.

he silently walked downstairs, making sure to make the least noise possible, a little giggle threatening to leave his throat.

"hey joongie," the taller boy greeted before he placed a soft kiss against hongjoong's lips. he pulled away as quickly as possible, knowing that hongjoong felt uncomfortable with it.

minhyuk. a boy in his class hongjoong was absolutely smitten for.

"what are you doing here?? it's two in the morning!!" the younger whisper screamed, an angry pout scattered across his face as his arms crossed in front of his chest.

minhyuk grinned, his eyes sparkling with love as he gazed at his boyfriend. hongjoong was joking, of course but minhyuk wasn't complaining, the younger looked absolutely adorable like this.

"i couldn't sleep," he whispered as he pulled hongjoong into a hug, burying his face into his chest.

"why?? did something happen?" hongjoong asked, concerned about his lover.

"i just couldn't stop thinking about you, so i came to see you. is that a crime now?"

the younger dramatically gasped and smacked minhyuk's chest, a little giggle leaving his mouth.

"it should be a crime! it's so late!" hongjoong exclaimed, his cheeks puffed in mock annoyance. he tugged his scarf higher to cover his blushing face from the cold winter air.

"not a crime if it's you, joongie. i missed you," the older replied as hongjoong rolled his eyes at the response, earning a coo from his boyfriend.

minhyuk's warm hands found hongjoong's warm, mitten clad ones, intertwining his hands into the younger's.

"but you saw me earlier today, just a few hours ago at school!"

"not enough, it felt like forever," minhyuk said as he gave hongjoong's hand a squeeze and scooted closer to him.

hongjoong blushed, a shade of red tinting his already flushed cheeks.

"shut up! you're such a sap," he commented before standing on his tip toes to place a kiss on the male's lips.

"only for you, my love."

hongjoong gazed at his boyfriend, staring at his beautiful face which he could stare at all day and not get bored. his eyes were a warm brown-- looking into them made hongjoong feel like he was getting a comforting hug in the cool winter night, his tan skin glistened against the moonlight as his fingers tenderly brushed over hongjoong's hand. everything about this boy was amazing, he couldn't express it in words.

he treated hongjoong like a king, like he was the only boy that his boyfriend thought was handsome and beautiful.

"you're so handsome, joongie. god, save me, what did i do in my past life to get such a beautiful boyfriend?"

and yet again, hongjoong blushed like a tomato. he swore he felt like he would explode.

the older leaned forward and placed his lips against hongjoong's soft, plump ones. minhyuk's hands trailed up hongjoong's body before he cupped the boy's cheeks with his hands as he gently caressed one of them with his thumb.

a sharp, angry voice cut through the thick air like a knife. and he knew exactly who it was. both the boys froze. hongjoong immediately pushed minhyuk, moving away from him.

"inside. now," his mom snarled, completely ignoring the apologies from minhyuk.

hongjoong knew what was coming towards him, and he wasn't anticipating it. he learned that it was wrong of him to like boys, and he wasn't supposed to be the way he was; so he changed.

he changed to be the boy the society wanted him to be, until he wasn't.

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