Ray had always been their for me. We have been through so much together, that it gets hard talking about our journey together. He was always their if I need a shoulder to cry on or just talk about my day. He made me forget the ugly truth of the world, instead on the good things in life. Ray is the type of person that had a roller coaster past. There was many ups and downs, nights without electricity or water, and the next he had his vehicle paid for and everything he could imagine done for him. It was not the person who he was, it was the person he wanted to be with, his parents. Ray's parents got a divorce a few years after getting married, and him being the only son, he needed his father, but his mom was controlling.

That is when Ray was around me, we forgot about everything else and did what made us happy, with whatever it may be. Until one day Ray was off the radar again. After the first break up, Ray met another girl. He said he was using her for a place to stay. He had a camper with no land at the time, while working at his first big job. I did not understand or agree with it, but he would always talk to me and meet up with me. It felt amazing being about to leave work and meet up with him. It was barely a year before we first met, and I thought I already had lost him again. For a second time, ray had left me and continued with him own life. I always think to myself, is he thinking about me?

*Ray's Point Of View*

Lexi and I have not spoke in a few weeks, we was meeting up every night. She took my mind off of reality and what really goes on. I do not even know what I'm doing right now. I have no where's to go, and I'm staying with some girl I do not even want to be with. Only good thing in this life, is work and Lexi. Things are complicated at the moment, so I just stopped talking to her. I changed my number and moved in with my friend Sam, from work. This is going to be the same life style at my aunt's house, I think to myself.

"Wassup man?" I ask pulling my camper into the yard.

"Not much man, just pull it around back. Dinner will be ready in ten," Sam replied, sitting on the porch.

I soon get my camper trailer situated like I want it, and I go next door to eat dinner. Being there with that dude and his family, is not what I expected. His place was a mess and the kids definitely do not listen. The food was alright but, I just hoped I did not have to stay here for long. My new job is challenging if you will say, a hard working job at that. We will work from 5:30 AM to 5:30 PM. That was twelve hours a day, with only a thirty minute break, and let me tell you, we worked our butts off constantly.

My daily routine was work my butt off, come home, and sleep. I did his repeatedly for months and months. About five months I did this, and almost every day after work I would think about her. I have not been with anyone else since and I cannot get her out of my mind. She is a drug I cannot escape. My mind wonders off about her, if only I knew what she was doing. What she was thinking about? Who was she with? Did she even miss me? Wherever you are Lexi, I hope that your okay.

*Lexi Point Of View*

           My parents are disappointed in me, today I called in for work, and the manager just told me to stay home and not come back. They told me this because, this was my final absent I could use. Once you miss too many days, they fire you. So now I do not have a job to pay my insurance, and today I will go look for a job. A few hours after I woke up the next day, on Saturday, I woke up got dressed, and I went job hunting. They are plenty of places to apply at just hope they accept me. I drive around in my vehicle for hours, going door to door, applying for positions at jobs. I went to almost all the little shops around my town. Whether I applied in store, online, or I filled it out later, I just grabbed them all.

              I bring some applications home to show my parents, that I did in fact went to a few places. I filled the forms out and bring them back almost instantly. My parents were disappointed, but they were happy I was trying. They eventually understood and helped to pay one payment for my car, until I got a job. My limit was one month before I needed a job. Now would be my time to focus in school.

My life felt as if it was falling apart. I lost ray and now my job, what was next? I began to grow very depressed, I started talking to a profession about my issues. I went to the doctor and got put on antidepressant. Medicine is a silly thing to take, unless you really need it. I was not depressed, I was lonely and sad. It made me depressed, everything around me was gone. I did not have no friends to talk to, no job to make money, no ray to love, and I was going insane. The next night I spent the night at my grandparents house. They lived closer to my school and I could drive their. I knew my grandparents had some strong medicine they took for their pain of working. So I grabbed a handful of some, and put them in my school bag. The next day, I woke up, and took them. When I arrived at school, everything was a blur. I wondered around until someone grabbed me. They asked what was going on and I told them everything not knowing what I said. They walked me to my next class and left. Then, the next class and next. Finally I got to fourth or fifth hour. I was drugged out of my mind, and I had no control of anything. I wondered off to another class and then my heart sunk.

"Lexi Miller, to the office now!" Was on the intercom across the entire school. I realized I was outside, and my bag was in another class room. I finally woke up from day dreaming, I raced to my class, and the teacher told my they took my bag. I rushed to the office to find the principal and an officer in the office. They search my bag and me until the found the source. They questioned me and called my parents. A few moments later my mom, popped up out of nowhere, and she was furious. She put me in the car and that is all that I remember from that. I must have feel asleep on the way home and hit my head because, when I realized what was going on, my dad was handing me a cigarette, telling me to calm down. I looked down and my legs and hands were shaking uncontrollably. I puffed on the cigarette and exhaled, I looked at my dad, and took another puff. I knew then, I had made the biggest mistake ever. I was suspended for three days, and the fourth day would be my meeting to discuss my punishment. My parents was torn and shocked, they blamed theirselves and me for my actions. Everyone kept their distance from me and hid their medicine. Today was the day I realized that I needed to pick my life back up, I was a monster.

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