Dear James ,

Well , I never thought i would be writing this down for you or for anyone to ever read but here we are.

I know we dated for 3 years , but I've spent the last two regretting everyday of those 3. Regretting I ever let you back in my life. Regretting I ever let you touch me , grab my hand, pull me in.

You say you want to kiss me but I know that's just a ploy. I loved you and all you did was break it.

You said you loved me but you got very good at faking it.

You think we're just friends but friends don't look at friends that way. You admitted to leading me on then told me you loved someone . Can you even imagine how broken that makes someone feel?!

When I went all the way out to see you, you couldn't even come and see me. And then when I did - you decided to drop that bombshell.

So don't call me kid . Don't call me baby.

Look at this idiotic mess you've made me .

You thought maybe i would be okay with being a side chick. But NO! You had too many side chicks before so I already know the havoc it would wreck . And now whenever I see you, you are flirtatious and everyone sees it.

You are wild and everyone knows it.

You spread lies and I had to deal with it.

So don't try to think I'll be okay with you again. I'll always be there for you but somedays it makes me just want to scream . Scream in pain, in anger, in sadness , sob until I can't sob anymore. Until all the breath is taken from my lungs. I have tried so hard to be good to you to be good for you. And James i can't anymore . But to keep from breaking your heart I will never show you this. I pray to god I never will show you this.

I can't wait to get away to college , maybe then youll forget me and leave me alone for once and for all. You bring up the fact that we might be 12th cousins even if I have asked you to stop and at this point I can't say no anymore. I'm not accepting it I'm just folding because I can't anymore.

You say because we dated we have a "special unique relationship. "

No. It's one sided . I give you my all , you give me nothing at all and then wonder why I left.

Have fun trying to get one girl at a time. Keep it up and even august will leave you.

Sincerely, Betty.