When the sun lights up that little smile
He grabs my hand and says my name
His words stumble and repeat 
Until they come out proudly untame

And when his eyes sparkle with joy
When I enter from the open door 
Sometimes he runs to me,
Sometimes I stay ignored

Moments of happiness come and go
Dark and light, up and down, every day
Seesaw, heed and loss, back and fro
A rollercoaster ride goes as it may

I follow his face, his chest, his heartbeat
Baby's breath grows when he sleeps
Caress his slightly dirty bare feet
Turmoil sinks into the deep

He rolls over my arm, smiles a speck
I kiss the sleepy hand in mine
Delicate arms wrap around my neck
A megadose of sunshine

Silence and fears, sickness and tears
Chase hope and banish defeat
And through the clouds I wish one day
That we will properly meet