i can feel their eyes on me when i tell them about my past

they pity me

that's not what i want

i never want that

yes ive been through things but i don't want pity

pity is something that makes me want to push away

im okay with sympathy and people i trust hugging me letting me know it's okay

more often than not i get the same pitying eyes

they make me feel like i should keep my mouth shut

i don't want to share my past with them or let them be a part of my future

please don't pity me

that's the one thing i ask.