most nights i dread falling asleep because i know i'll have nightmares

it doesn't happen every night but it happens enough for me to be cautious about sleep

the nightmares are pretty much the same every single night

there's real life people who abused me in them

they hurt me again and again and again

more often than not they end up killing me

it terrifies me to no end

their words repeat in my head

all the things they said

all the things they did

i will lay awake in bed after a nightmare my body covered in sweat

it never ends for me when it comes to the nightmares

but i wish it would

god i wish it would