So I had a panic attack today. I was not fun. It started happing just after a test that I knew I did badly in so I as I was walking to my next class let's just say my thoughts were not nice they keep repeating and reminding me of three lovely words.

Stupid.

Useless.

Worthless.

Over and over and over again. So when I got into class I sat down not many people were there but then they came and oh the noice I couldn't take it. So when the teacher came in and started the lesson I was shaking and breathing rapidly and I could register anything and so my friend asked me if I was okay I shook my head no cause I could talk I so she asked if I needed the teach I shook my head yes so I got sent out of classes to calm down but I couldn't. So the teacher came out and my friend got the office lady i tried explaining my situation but I could hardly breath properly. Then they got my head teacher for my house and my sister and I went to the office. I tried explaining it there when I calmed down and the after I when to recess and art then went home. So now since that happened they are going to notify my teachers about this and they will probably never look at me the same. I didn't want this to happen and it fucking did. But you know I'm trying to look up because I have my birthday party tomorrow and I'm excited for it I'm having my best friends over it's going to be fun. My actual birthday is on Monday, it's Saturday tomorrow so it sucks it's on a Monday cause mondays suck but yeah. Sorry to be a downer.

V out