! Warning! Self deprecating

Have you ever felt so relaxed and at peace that you would just wish it would never end. Sometimes I feel so connected with the earth and feel so happy when it's just me and the wind.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough for anyone even myself, that I'm weak and useless. When I cry I feel empty like I'm releasing all the feelings I had and then I'm left with nothing.

I don't think highly of myself, I don't have a very big self esteem I don't want to do great things I just want to be an average person living life. But at the same time I don't want that. Most of the time how I'm feeling right now is how I thought I always felt, just sad and incomplete and well weak. I don't think I'm resilient or special.

But I do have a dream.

I just want to go into the trees and feel at home with them because I do nature is my home and right now I can't go to it.  All my life once I saw the valley beneath my house I've always wanted to go there but I've never had to courage to do it,

I will one day though.

- V out.