...damn. I fucked up the fuck ups of all fuck ups.
I didn't update the story.

Well.. may as well say something.

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Have you ever been in a D.D.Y. moment? Well, if you have- Welcome to the club. I been through what you been through.

But if you hadn't, I'll explain.
D.D.Y. , which is a Acronym for "Drama Destroys You" , is basically the impact of the drama. Or, idk, how the drama affects a person. Lemme give you an example from someone else.

A user- lets call him Bruce0w0 for now- was doing something very terrible, which is doing taboo Ageplay rps with various people. His friends, hating this sort of thing, blocked him, and they all exposed him, spreading word of Bruce0w0's terrible actions. In the process, Bruce0w0 noticed the drama (through alt account or through friend), and he felt hurt. The drama has ruined his reputation, even though he deserves it, and he is still wishing for a way to change.. the drama got him to feel bad for himself, for the rest of his life...

That's the gist of it. Not so sure if this is a good example, so allow me to give you a good example- this time, from the current me. Like, the me right now. I'm about to tell y'all of a recent drama i went through some weeks ago. I know this example may gonna ruin y'all minds, send y'all to the hospital where doctors barge in with bleach, so if you are reading this, you are allowed to insult me, to block me, or to expose me, but acknowledge that I am currently trying to get better. I'll explain what i do After i explained my example, alright?

...anyway..

So, you see, 2 years ago, back when i first joined Wattpad, I think, I was interacting with this user named.. fuck, can't say their name. Okay, lets call this user ThiccCat for now. Anyway, i was interacting with ThiccCat when they began their journey, and I was friends with him for a while. Until I have given him a link to a video of Horse Mating. Before y'all gonna yell at me, or ask me why, imma explain that one. See, back then, I was in some sort of Animal Mating Video craze. Getting... Ahem.. "crazy" to the video of irl animal mating, like Teenagers to sussy characters. I wasn't aware that people who gets, ahem, "crazy" by seeing irl animal mating is a sign of zoophilia back then, and even now, I wasn't aware of it until the beginning of the drama. Anyway, back to the story-
I have given ThiccCat the link, along with me saying, and I quote, "I made myself (not saying the H word) watching this-", which scarred him for his entire life. But then, that was not the first time I have fucked up. On the discord world, one of my friends, who we would call TheItalianIllusionist, told me that they have a dog, which triggered my Z side and made me ask variety of questions, such as- "Who is your dog's first lover?", "Have you got yourself in a dog mating craze?", and some non-z questions. Anyway, yeah. Two fuck ups. And that happened in the past, which was now brought up to this year. Many days ago, like many many, like around the beginning of this month, ThiccCat and TheItalianIllusionist teamed up, gather evidence, made a server for themselves and exposed me, inviting everyone they know. I have lost so many friends that day, along with me being banned from a server, because I have become someone I didn't want to become..

So yeah. That's my example. It's real, and true, but it's an example. That drama hurt me worse, because losing friends and been hated on by 3 people- soon to be more- is the one thing that hits the hardest. And before y'all decide to spread the word, No, i am trying to change. I'm not going to become one like Hypnotist Sappho. No, I'm going to get rid of that interest, like people to drugs. I'm gonna do therapy, rehab, fuckin- anything to get rid of that interest, just to get the people I have lost back.

Anyway, the Drama totally destroyed me, but it did inspired me to try being a better person. So, I give myself 2 months, at best, to get rid of the interest, and improve. But if I fail, I may have to give myself 2 years to improve. 4 years if I have to. I will get rid of that interest.. by any means necessary.

Anyway... Yeah. That's all. This is AzureScales/TheZetaFlares signing off!