I feel like I don't deserve all the great friends I've made, or the things people do for me. sure, some people have put me through some shit, but that's a different story. I actually deserved that.

I'm sorry: for being a constant bitch, for treating everyone like shit. I apologize for still being here.

it's all my fault. everything. is. my fault.

Gosh, how can I be such a fool? you don't need me.

I'm some fat ugly bitch who just needs to die already. why am I still here? what's my purpose?

I don't get the point of anything anymore...because there is none.

you think I deserve to be happy? I sure as hell don't.

that's the end of me. goodbye. I will try to leave soon.