+ veinticinco

he never posts pictures of us online.

he's always afraid that the fans will be mean to me, and that i'll see the comments. though he has addressed it a few times in interviews, they never stop. its like my emotional pain only feeds them.

now its like he's guarding a ghost, someone who doesn't exist.

i don't go out--by choice--unless its with him.

i haven't even met his friends yet, because he's been afraid that it would only make the haters meaner.

tae only lives to protect me now, and it kills me.

i wish i were stronger.

but i'm not.

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so this week i'm only going to school one day. and that makes me feel so good because school is such a burden. i wish i could just stay home forever, and somehow still earn money. but most things in life aren't so simple.

anyway, i hope you're enjoying the story. 

i'm going to post one or two more updates for today. we're already officially half done with this book.

-clary