+ treinta y seis

after dinner we went straight to our bedroom, i provided him comfort with more than just my words. his lips found every inch of my skin in the darkness. always in the dark because i was terrified that he would see me, and become disgusted with my body.

but he was always gentle, and this wasn't the exception.

we cuddled afterwards and i waited until he dozed off. i got out of bed and got dressed, taking my packed bags out of the closet. everything was ready for my departure.

before leaving the room--and his life--for good, i kissed him on the lips muttering, "i'm sorry, tae. i love you."

then i left him behind.

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i love the way this sentiment of leaving someone was described in the kdrama moon lovers. how instead of just saying they "left" someone, in the english translation, they described it as "throwing someone away". i think that is what describes that feeling.

that feeling that you have discarded someone. it must be painful.

or to be discarded.

-clary