Victor's Pov

I frantically pushed passed the crowd of people ignoring their calls and questions, I needed to find Yuuri. My heart pounded painfully against my chest as Yuuri's pained face stuck to my mind, I could still feel his ribs against my fingers. Why...why was Yuuri so skinny?

I gritted my teeth, most of all why hadn't I noticed in the first place? I frantically looked around once I finally pushed through the huge crowd frowning when I longer spotted Yuuri. I knew Makkachin could find him though, I had to run back to the hot springs. "Hey stupid! Where the hell are you going!?" Yurio ran after me with an angry frown. "Yurio I really can't argue right now," I said in a hurried tone. "Where's the piggy?" He asked. "I..." Would it be alright if I told him the truth?

I looked at him with a grim look, his face softened into a look of worry. "It's Yuuri, he's not okay," I stated shakily. "He ran off and I don't know where he might be." Tears blurred my vision, Yurio gritted his teeth and shoved me. "Go! Hurry and go find him!" He demanded angrily. "Hurry!" I could hear a hint of desperation and fear in his voice.

I nodded at him giving him a weak smile before running off, I took deep shaky breaths in fear that I would faint due to all my panicking. Once I reached the hot springs I sprinted to the door and threw it open instantly calling for Makkachin who ran toward me. I patted his head and looked at him. "Makkachin Yuuri is missing I need you to find him please." I probably sounded ridiculous right now but Makkachin grew attached to Yuuri almost instantly when we arrived, heck he even slept with him!

I grasped onto his collar and was pulled by him, he ran outside excitedly dragging me along with him.  "Find Yuuri Makkachin!" I released him allowing him to run off. I followed after him my legs were screaming with pain but the pain in my heart was greater, the sun beat down on me the harsh rays weakened me even more, but I pushed on with my inner strengths.

As we passed the bridge the beach fully came to view the air was intoxicated with the smell of the ocean, the sandy land was empty, no one was seen. The wind here was still pretty cold which surely explained the pains in my chest. Makkachin barked and headed toward the beach, I could see a figure lying on the ground from afar. My heart instantly dropped.

The closer I got the more fear I felt, a flock of seagulls distracted Makkachin he chased them leaving me to run to the figure. I noticed their features, slim with short black hair. There was my Yuuri. I fell to my knees, his eyes were closed but his chest rose and fell steadily I sighed loudly and gasped for breath.

He awoke with a start his eyes went wide. "V-Victor!?" He frantically sat up, I grabbed ahold of his wrist and pulled him into a tight hug. He was so frail and his skin was cold. "Yuuri, please don't run away anymore." I pleaded and buried my face in the crook of his neck. He shivered and wrapped his arms around me with tensed movements.

My hands traveled up his hips and then to his chest, his breath hitched. "Yuuri why would you do this to yourself?" I asked. "Victor I.." He trailed off and hugged me tighter. "...let's just go home," I mumbled, he wrapped his legs around my waist as I lifted him up from the ground. "I'm sorry Victor.." He whimpered guiltily. I stayed silent and called for Makkachin who happily ran to my side and barked at Yuuri. "You did a great job Makkachin," I said with a glum smile, Yuuri shifted uncomfortably in my arms. "I can walk on my own." He stammered anxiously. I held him tighter.

"There's no way I'm letting you go, I almost lost you before, I'm not going to lose you again," I stated firmly. "Yurio was worried about you, I don't know what you did but it's like he's attached to you now, just like Makkachin." I stayed silent for a while and then added. "I'm attached to you too." He stayed quiet after. It was a bit difficult to walk through the sand, it filled in my shoes and was a bit uncomfortable.

Makkachin walked by my side with his tongue sticking out the side of his mouth, Yuuri seemed uncomfortable his body was tense. My heart was even heavier than before, it hurt so much.

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Eventually, we made it back to the springs, I set Yuuri down who then rushed inside only to be stopped by his mother who greeted us at the door. Makkachin ran in after shaking the sand from his fur and I followed after leaving my shoes and socks outside not wanting to bring any sand in the house.

I grabbed Yuuri before he could run to his room and dragged him toward my room, as we both passed the living room Yurio was sitting on the floor listening to a conversation that Yuuri's father was talking about. His eyes lit up when he saw us, he jumped to his feet and ran toward us almost in relief. "Da-Victor! What took you so long!?" A light blush colored his pale cheeks, he was dressed in his tiger printed pajamas, he looked adorable and...wait...did he almost call me dad!?

I shook my head quickly remembering that I still needed to talk with Yuuri, he looked at him who was deathly silent staring at the ground and opened his mouth about to say something until I interrupted him by placing my finger against his lips. He scowled at me in annoyance but wearily backed away when I gave him a small frown.

I felt bad but he seemed to understand what was going on and trudged back to the living room where Yuuri's father was laughing at the TV. I sighed and dragged Yuuri to my room and lightly pushed him in before myself closing the door behind me. I stayed at my spot frozen and Yuuri kept his back to me. "Yuuri.," I called out his name, it rolled off my tongue like smooth honey leaving a great feeling on my lips, but right now it left a sour taste in my mouth.

He flinched at my voice and slowly turned to meet my eyes, his were wide and filled with fear, he shakily turned fully to meet my gaze with a bit of false passion. I could see right through him.

Yuuri's pov.

I swallowed thickly fearing that if I opened my mouth I would choke on all my lies, even if I could come up with lies my heart wouldn't feel any lighter. I stared at Victor who stood at the door possibly to make sure I didn't leave. I just needed to tell him everything, I mean we are a couple and couples are always close and share this kind of things right?

I was scared though I was scared that he would leave me if he found out why I did such a thing to myself. "Yuuri how about a deal?" He spoke with a shaky voice. "A deal? What kind of deal?" I asked curiously. "If you tell me why you...you know..." He frowned. "I'll tell you one of my secrets. One that I've never told anyone." I perked at the mention of his secrets and gave him a weary look.  "Do you promise?" I asked in a barely audible tone.

He walked toward me and made me sit at the edge of his bed. "I promise, that's how much I care and love you." My heart swelled with something warm and comforting, but was this some sort of blackmail? Was it really worth it? I took a breath and closed my eyes for a bit recollecting my thoughts before bringing my attention back to Victor. This was going to be a long explanation so I pulled him on the bed with me and swallowed for my dry throat.

I held his hand and began. "It was about right after my last Grand Prix final, I was still attending college back then. Before the final, I was given news that my dog died.." I still remembered the day I left him, he was my best friend. "So I got depressed and stressed out I began to binge eat, of course, my anxiety didn't exactly help out with that which explains why I got the last place and completely lost." The memory wasn't a good one.

Victor stared longingly at me he listened to my every word. "Everyone at my college made fun of me reminding me of my failure and teased me for my weight." I rested my hand on my hollow stomach. "They eventually got to me, I was still depressed too so...it was scary at first, I couldn't stop throwing up.." I shuddered to remember how much my throat burned.

I forced myself to calm down for I had started to breathe shakily. "I hated doing it at first...but I hated the way I was even more." Victor tightened his grip on my hand in reassurance. "It's been almost two years now, I'm surprised I've lived this long." I mumbled glumly, Victor suddenly pulled me into a tight hug pulling me close to him, my head rested against his chest I could hear his heart pounding rapidly "Yuuri please don't think that way." His voice was trembling.

I heard quiet sniffles, was he crying!? I pulled away from the embrace with all the strength I had within me and looked at Victor who was quietly laughing as he tried to wipe away the many tears that dripped down his cheeks. "Don't." I grabbed his hands and stopped him from wiping away his tears. He gave me a confused look mixed with sadness and grief. "You're crying because of me? Why?" I asked.  "Yuuri do you not understand yet!?" He shouted as more of his tears fell.

I shook my head reluctantly, he gave a shaky laugh. "It's because I love you! When you're in pain I'm in pain too, when you suffer so do I." A pang shot through my chest, people say that there is nobody perfect in this world. Well, I'm looking at the closest thing we got to perfect. I choked back my own tears. "Oh, Victor.." I allowed him to pull me into the embrace once again. "I understand now," I stated.

I really did, all this time I hated myself and nobody said a word, I always thought because no one really cared but I came to realize is because I always pushed them away and by doing so I only hurt them more. My family and friends, Victor and even Yurio were affected by my actions. "Since we're together now I'm going to do everything I can to help you through this Yuuri." He mumbled in my hair, it tickled a little.

I smiled. "Thank you Victor.." I let a single tear slip down my cheek. "Thank you for coming into my life, I don't know where I'd be without you." In all honesty, I didn't even want to think about what would've happened if I never met Victor. A life without Victor would be no life at all for me. "I think it's safe to say that I feel the same." He chuckled lightly, now was my chance to ask him about his secret, but seeing how tired and worn he looked I decided to wait.

We just stared at each other after draining ourselves, Victor smiled lazily at me and stroked my cheek with the back of his hand and I rested my hand against his tear-stained cheek. In a way, we were both exactly alike, because he was a crybaby just like me, and you know what? I think I am in total love with this man. With this person who cried because of me, someone who truly loved and cared about me, someone who ran all throughout Hasetsu just to find me.

I honestly don't deserve this, but I'm happy I got it. Victor was dozing off I giggled at his droopy eyes and kissed the top of his head. "Have good dreams okay?" I whispered quietly into his ear, he mumbled something that I couldn't understand and buried his face in the crook of my neck sending his warm breath down my neck. His warmth was comforting and inviting, his embrace made me feel safe like no one or nothing could hurt me.

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In the morning when I awoke I was met with Victor's sleeping face, he looked so adorable. I heard a small whine coming from the foot of the bed thinking that it was probably Makkachin I carefully slid out of Victor's embrace and crawled to the edge, I gasped at the sight.

There was a bundle of blankets and pillows piled in a nest like bed Makkachin was sound asleep...along with Yurio. He was curled in a small ball he looked like an actual cat with his pajamas, he was breathing softly his chest rose and fell steadily, there was shifting from behind. Victor slowly sat up and yawned I turned to him and pressed my finger against my lips signaling him to be quiet.

He slowly crawled over to me and looked at the sleeping pair on the ground, his eyes went wide and a smile tugged at his lips. "I need a picture." He stated. "Victor no, just leave him be." I protested although I myself would've liked to take a picture too. Victor wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me close. "Hey Yuuri, we can be like a family." He said.

My heart stopped, a family? I smiled at the thought. Maybe a family with Victor and Yurio wouldn't be so bad, even so, I couldn't help but doubt the idea. I was shaken from my thoughts. "Yuuri, we're going to have breakfast," Victor stated. "We're all going to eat together." He smiled, I was terrified now. Would I be able to hold down my food?

I didn't have enough time to protest, Victor quietly pulled me off the bed dragging me along with him. Just by the looks of it, I could tell it was going to be a long morning, but right now my mind was still stuck on one thing...

A family?