I sighed and leaned against the cold rail of the bridge as I gazed at the ocean with Makkachin sitting beside me, my mind was filled with thoughts of Victor. It's only been a couple of weeks since he's arrived, yet I feel like I've known him all my life, with a shaky sigh I was able to see my breath with the cold air and looked over at Makkachin who was now chasing his short tail. I laughed as he spun in a circle. "Silly puppy, you won't be able to catch it." I crouched down to the ground catching his attention causing him to stop.

His breath also showed in huge white puffs, I giggled and patted his head. "You really do remind me of Vicchan." He turned his head quickly to another direction and barked as a figure walked toward us and ran toward them. I stood as their features became more visible, my heart dropped when I saw his silver hair being blown in every direction due to the wind, the scarf he was wearing fluttered in the wind.

I looked at him staying frozen in place, his eyes went wide as soon as he spotted me and he ran toward me instantly throwing his arms around me. "Yuuri! I was so scared. I couldn't find you at Minako's place or the ice rink. Please don't scare me like that I...I thought something bad happened to you." His body trembled, my heart pounded painfully against my chest, was he really that worried about me? This man...this man is just so precious! what did I do to deserve this moment?

My hands roamed on his toned back, I found myself beginning to caress his trembling spine in an attempt to calm him, a shuddered sigh escaped his lips. "Victor?" I stopped and tried to pull away from the embrace but it only led to him hugging me more tighter. "Victor, what's wrong? You weren't really worried were you?" I asked wearily. I waited for an answer. "Y-you're the only one!" He stammered out breaking the silence. "What?.." I was confused by what he meant.

He hesitantly pulled away from the warm embrace and looked at me with sad eyes. "Yuuri, you're the only person I truly care about." His hands gripped my shoulders. "Yuuri..these past few weeks have been the best weeks of my life. Each day I woke up knowing that I'd be able to see you the whole day and spend time with you." He smiled, I loved his smile, it melted my frozen heart and heated my body.

But I suddenly had my doubt's, Victor was someone famous and loved by billions of people. Me? I was a nobody, a complete and utter failure I was nothing compared to Victor. I pulled away from his grasp and turned my gaze to the ground. "I'm sorry...let's just head back okay?" I suggested and shoved my cold hands into my pockets, I was throwing away such a precious thing right now! My legs moved on their own, I could hear Victors steps behind me.

Say something! Turn around! Kiss him damn it! I mentally cursed at myself feeling my chest boil with anger and guilt. "H-how is Yurio?" I asked breaking the awkward silence between us. "..he was a bit upset." He answered in a monotone voice, I winced at his response. "Victor, if you don't mind, maybe I can talk to him?" I suggested shakily. "Really?" He laughed quietly. "Alright, good luck with that." I could hear the smile in his voice.

I sighed somewhat in relief and gathered up all my courage to prepare myself for the events to come, this was going to be a long night. Because I knew something was way off if Victor really cared then why did he agree to allow Yurio and I to compete against each other over him? Moreover, how did Yurio feel about this? I needed answers to my questions.

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I grit my teeth and knocked on Yurio's room door, there was a thump followed by an annoyed groan before the sound of dragging footsteps were heard. The door swung open revealing a tired looking Yurio with...cute bed hair?

He frowned at me. "What do you want a pig?" He asked angrily. "Hey Yurio, sorry to wake you but I really want to talk to you," I explained with an uneasy shakiness in my voice. "No, I don't want to talk to you." He snapped and was about to close the door, but I quickly stopped it with my arm. "W-wait! Please..please let me talk to you." I begged anxiously and met with his lime green eyes.

He first scowled at me with hatred in his eyes until he gave in and sighed heavily. "Fine." He mumbled and allowed me to enter his room, I beamed happily and entered his room closing the door behind me. The room was a bit empty, some of his clothes were strewn on the ground. "What do you want a pig? I'm tired." He sat on the bed and stifled a long yawn, I sat next to him and took a deep breath.

"Yuri..do you hate me?" I asked nervously twiddling my thumbs, I could feel him go tense beside me he was probably surprised since I used his actual name. "What is this all of a sudden?" He stammered. "Are you upset because of Victor? Are you afraid of him leaving you?" I looked up at him wanting to see his reaction. "I..I don't-why are you asking me stupid questions?" He growled. "What is Victor to you?" I kept on pushing, I needed to know.

He looked away from me almost as if to avoid my gaze. "Is he a lover to you?" I asked with a blush of embarrassment. "W-what!? No way that's gross!" He yelled. "A brother?" I kept on. "No way." He crossed his arms. "...a father figure?" He flinched. I looked at him, he was silent. "..Yuri? Is that what he is to you?" I leaned forward wanting to meet his gaze. He whipped his head toward me, I gasped at the sight, tears filled his eyes. "So what if he is!?" He yelled aloud.

I winced and backed away from him. "Why does it matter to you anyway?" He grumbled as he ferociously tried to wipe away his tears. "I..I don't need him." I could hear the pain in his voice. "I don't need anyone to boss me around. Or to care for me.." I had a sudden urge and without even thinking I pulled him into a hug. He grew tense at first until he came to his senses and tried to push me away. "Let me go you fat pig!" He yelled. "...Yuri, I'm so sorry." I hugged him tighter and hesitantly tangled my fingers in his hair.

He froze at my touch. "...why?" He whispered. "I needed to know, I'm sorry if I hurt you." He calmed down a bit allowing me to embrace him, my hand still in his hair. "...my grandpa used to hug me like this..." He muttered in a slurred voice and leaned his head against my shoulder. "Whenever I was upset he would always be there to comfort me like this...but you're not grandpa." His face was pink from his crying. "Pi-I means Yuuri, please don't tell anyone about this..not even Victor, or..I..I'll kill you!" He threatened.

I quietly laughed. "Don't worry, I won't tell a single person," I promised him, I was still trying to process what was happening. I was hugging Yuri Plisetsky and...I was happy that I was, I felt an urge to want and protect him from harm. It was almost like a motherly instinct, but I just met him not so long ago yet just like Victor I felt like I knew him my whole life, but why did I feel so happy?

I hadn't even realized I dozed off until Yurio's quiet snores reached my ears, I blushed and carefully untangled my hand from his hair before lying him down on the bed placing his head on the pillow and throwing the blanket over him. The door suddenly creaked open revealing Victor peeking into the room. "Wow, you actually tamed the beast." He gasped, I stood and walked up to him. I wanted to tell him how I felt, but I just couldn't. "Victor, Yurio looks up to you. You literally have no idea how much he needs you." I swallowed thickly. "So I don't want to compete against him, I can't do such a thing to him."

I looked up to meet his beautiful eyes that I grew to love so much. "Victor I'm so sorry, I can't let you be my coach. But that's okay, I'll be okay." I said with a steady voice, he frowned at me. "Yuuri, you're not okay." He placed his hand on my cheek and swiped his thumb across it, wiping stray tears that I didn't even know I had. "You're so jumpy and almost every loud thing scares you. I'm afraid to leave you alone because you look like you'll collapse any minute...why do you look so frail?" His eyes held sadness, my heart was heavy.

He pulled me into a loving embrace pressing me against his chest. "Yuuri, I meant everything when I said I care about you. I can never stop caring about you, I can't stay away from you, I'm terrified." I closed my eyes breathing in his scent. "Victor, I don't want to hurt Yurio. I don't want to ruin you either." Everything felt so difficult to handle, I knew I needed Victor.

He helped me with my anxiety, he kept me calm and happy when things went bad. "Then Yurio can stay here, I can coach both of you!" He suggested. "And my public image doesn't matter to me. I don't care about what others say, I want to be here with you." I felt a pang at my chest, he really wanted to stay with me? I looked down with a wobbly smile as tears overflowed and dripped down my cheeks and fell from my chin. "You have no idea what you're doing to me Victor," I mumbled shakily.

He suddenly took hold of my chin and forced me to look up at him. "Yuuri, why are you crying? I promised I'd stay with you." He held a look of worry, his forehead creased with lines of worry and his lips pulled to a small pout. I laughed and tried to wipe my tears away with trembling hands, we were still in Yurio's room and I didn't want to wake him, I sniffed and wiped my nose with the sleeve of my sweater. "I'm..I'm just happy is all.." I stated. "But Victor." He grabbed my hands and wiped away my stray tears. "Yes, Yuuri?" His voice was lower it sent shivers down my spine.

I recollected myself. "What are we?" I finally asked the question that was killing me from the inside, the question that gnawed at my heart and chewed on my mind, there was a long moment of silence and I grew afraid that maybe the question was too much for Victor. Instead, he dragged me out of Yurio's room without uttering a word and pulled me toward his room, I followed without complaining even though I was literally having a heart attack.

He pushed me into his room and followed in suit closing the door behind him, I backed away from him as he approached me, the back of my legs met the bed causing me to lose my balance and fall back onto his bed. I blushed when he climbed onto the bed and hovered above me. "V-Victor..." I looked at him with a fear-filled gaze, something odd clouded his eyes.

His hand caressed my cheek. "Yuuri, what do you think we are?" He asked in a low seductive-like murmur, I swallowed my fear. "A student and coach?..well at least what I thought at first," I answered meekly. "So what do you think we are right now?" He leaned closer to me our faces were mere inches apart I was sure that he could hear my heart beating loudly against my chest.

I stumbled with my words not being able to form a sentence without gurgling a random noise or word. "I-I don't really know." I turned my head away. "Qe kissed, but was it really a real kiss just like you said?" He turned my head back so I could meet his face again, his fingers softly traced my slightly chapped lips. "Do you need a reminder?" He chuckled. "I'd be willing to do it again." He pulled at my bottom lip almost in a teasing way.

My face felt like it was on fire. "I just want to know what it all means," I said nervously, he pulled his hand away from my lips and held the back of my head bringing me even closer to him. "It means..." He trailed off and he pulled my head toward his and...

He kissed me.

This kiss was way more different than the others, his hand supported the back of my neck while the other was firmly on my back, our lips moved in sync. A warm feeling filled my chest and swelled in my heart causing it to overflow and then burst, my hands gripped onto his shoulders. I had closed my eyes, I wasn't ready to really look into Victor's dangerous but beautiful eyes.

I was losing my breath though and I knew that we would eventually have to pull away, once we did we both just looked at each other, our chests heaving with quiet breathless pants. Victor smiled down at me. "It means that...I've fallen for you." He grinned a cheeky grin. "But, it hasn't even been that long since we've met," I stated. "Oh but we did meet before, as children, and as we are now." He protested. "Do you not remembered?" I shook my head no, he frowned suddenly.

I sat up. "You've always been my idol, but now you're here right in front of me and...we just kissed," I mumbled and pressed my fingers against my lips still feeling Victor's lips on my own. He chuckled. "And I just declared my love to you Yuuri." My heart was going crazy, was this all real? Maybe I did die after all? I mean this certainly doesn't look like hell though. "What are you thinking about Yuuri?" Victor asked, tilting his head slightly to the side looking like an adorable puppy.

"I'm just trying to figure out how I died and made it to heaven," I said plainly. "Aww, Yuuri! You're adorable! You think I look like an angel?" Victor squealed and hugged me tightly causing both of us to fall back on the bed. "I never knew you were the flirtatious type.." He sounded tired this time, his head rested against my shoulder. "Well, I can assure you that you are not dead, because my love for you is an undying love." He slurred out, his words almost sounded like garbles.

Eventually, he fell asleep, I was stuck. I was happy though, I was happy to be with Victor he looked so beautiful, his facial features were softer and made him look like a child sleeping under the moonlight. I smiled and ran my hand through his silver hair watching his chest rise and fall with each breath he took. This was real...I had 'The' Victor Nikiforov practically sleeping in my arms and he also declared his undying love for me!!

Honestly...this was both a blessing and a curse, Victor was the blessing, my anxiety and starvation were the curses that could ruin everything in a heartbeat..how in the world could I be in a relationship this grand?