I lied on my back motionlessly, my bed was stiff and damp with my sweat, it had already been three weeks since Victor's arrival. And as much as I'd hate to admit, but things have gone nowhere but down. The more time he spends here the more my chest swells and heartaches, I feel hot when he teases me with those entrancing eyes of his and that perfect smile of the curve of his perfect lips.

My body tingles at every touch he gives me electricity jolts from my head down to my toes, my lips still tingle from the false kiss he gave me, this feeling was completely unknown to me. I sat up from my comfortable position and grabbed my phone that rested on the dresser, looking at the time I instantly dropped it and scrambled off the bed it was exactly twelve-thirty I was supposed to meet Victor at the rink at eight.

I tossed on some random layers of clothing, slipped on my shoes, and grabbed my gear before running out not bothering to tie the hazardous laces. I was completely out of shape, to say the least, my breathing was short and heavy, sweat poured from my face, my calves already ached. Arriving at the rink I barely made it to the bench before tripping on my laces and falling with the heavy weight of my bag pinning me down, my skates tumbled out the bag along with various bottles of pills and prescriptions.

I groaned and got up on my knees only to see a pair of legs in front of me, I flinched and kept my gaze on the ground. "Yuuri~ you must be clumsy, clumsy enough to even arrive four hours late?" I could hear the smile in his voice. "Hm? What are these?" He picked up a bottle from the ground. "I-it's nothing!" I exclaimed and quickly stood up to snatch the bottle away from him. "I'm sorry Victor...I overslept." In all honesty, I couldn't really sleep, nightmares tortured me and my thoughts kept me awake all night.

I remembered taking a couple of painkillers to put myself to sleep due to the massive headache I received, maybe I had too much? I hadn't even realized I was shaking until Victor took ahold of my hand sending a jolt through my arm. "Yuuri? Are you still planning to train?" He asked. "Y-yes! If it's okay with you." I looked at him. "Of course, but next time you arrive late I will not bother to coach you little piggy." He chuckled as he poked the massive layering of clothing on my body.

I instantly grew self-conscious. "Oh.." I stammered and sat on the bench slipping off my shoes and replacing them with my skates. "I want to see if you've shown any progress. I'll watch." Victor stated. "R-right.." I nodded and walked toward the ice rink while struggling to keep my balance on my skates, I removed the plastic guards and skidded onto the ice, I took a shaky breath and slid on the ice making sure to keep my posture steady and flawless.

Preparing myself for a toe loop I jumped and twirled in the air, I was so painfully close to landing it well until the memory of Victor kissing me popped into my mind, my eyes went wide and a gasp escaped my lips causing me to ruin my landing and falling on my side, by now I was grateful for the layers of clothing. I groaned and got back up on my feet. "Alright, I think that's enough." Victor held a stern look, my heart faltered fearing that I had failed him. "N-no I can do it again!" I exclaimed and retired the event, my heart was pounding against my chest, anxiety invaded my veins and bloodstream.

I only ended up falling again and each time I fell I got right back up and told Victor that I could do it, by my fifth attempt Victor yelled at me to stop with so much sincerity in his furious eyes and voice. "I think it'd be best if you are both physically and mentally prepared before skating." He held up a bottle of my pills in his hand. "Why are you looking at stuff that's not yours!?" I yelled furiously. "I don't need anyone else knowing how messed up I am okay!?"

I sniffed not realizing tears had trailed down my cheeks. "Yuuri I-" "Just please.." I trailed off and took the pill bottle from his hand taking a shaky sigh. "..please don't say anything.." I exited the rink and glumly sat back on the bench slowly untying the laces that I had tied so tight, my feet ached from all the jumps I attempted. I gathered my stuff already about to leave until a firm hand grasped onto my shoulder. "Yuuri.." Victor's husky voice reached my ears. "Leave me alone Victor." I kept my gaze to the ground.

"No..p-please Yuuri listen to me." His voice was trembling, I turned to him wanting to meet his eyes but was instead engulfed with a hug. "I'm so sorry!" He hid his face in the crook of my neck. "I really didn't want to upset you. I thought if I pushed you hard enough you'd gain a bit of confidence...but you're different," he whimpered. "Because you're the only person who's made me so intrigued." I reluctantly wrapped my arms around his toned figure.

A shudder ran through his spine. "I never wanted to hurt you Yuuri, I swear." His tone was anxious. "It's okay Victor I'm not mad at you. Just don't go through stuff without asking permission first." I reassured, he pulled away from the embrace and held my face in his warm hands. "Yuuri..." He trailed off and hesitated. "That kiss from last time, it was wrong of me to do that." A blush dusted over his cheeks. "So if it's okay with you...c-can I kiss you? Really kiss you this time?" He asked.

My eyes went wide. "W-why? What is our relationship?" I looked into his eyes. "You may not know this but..I've loved you since the first time I laid eyes on you." He smiled. "So can I please kiss you?" I rested my hand on top of his own. A long moment of silence dragged on until I finally gathered my courage. "O..okay." I nodded. With a relieved smile he leaned forward and captured my lips in his own, my chest swelled and the kiss suddenly became more heated. His tongue swiped across my bottom lip causing me to gasp which gave him an opportunity to slip his tongue in my mouth.

I whimpered and quickly pushed him away, my cheeks were burning. "Ah I'm sorry, I got a bit carried away." He chuckled nervously. "W-what did you mean by loving me the first time you saw me? I only met you at my last Grand Prix final but we didn't even talk." I frowned at the horrid memory. "What are you saying!? We met at the banquet don't you remember!?" He asked with a worried frown. "Banquet? I..I don't recall." I said with a pitiful sight. "I'm sorry." I apologized to him.

His hands slid back down to his sides, his face held a look of devastation but quickly changed back to the happy joyful smile. "It's fine, let's just focus more on your mental and physical strength little piggy." He poked my side teasingly, I would've been giggling by now if it weren't for the layers of clothes. "Right." I glumly looked down, what was that kiss about then!? Does...does he really love me? I mean it's only been three weeks since he arrived! I groaned at my mental break down and shook the many thoughts from my head.

Leaving the rink Victor and I both ran to Hasetsu castle in which Victor had ordered me to run up and down the many steps. I grew tired easily due to myself neglecting my hollow stomach and the loud growls of pain it emitted made almost impossible to handle. We (mostly I) did a couple of more exercises before heading home when the sun began to set. Dark clouds drifted above us signaling that a storm was sure to arrive. "All the snow will be gone by tomorrow. Oh well, it was really nice to see it here." Victor smiled.

I walked beside him and turned my head away, my fingers rested on my slightly chapped lips. I grew flustered at the kiss I agreed to, my first real kiss. "Victor.." I stopped in my tracks causing him to pause and look at me. "Hm? Is something wrong?" He asked with his brows furrowed in worry. "Th-thank you for giving me my first kiss!" I bowed my head at him, my heart beating a million beats per second. There was a long moment of silence. "Yuuri, I'm so happy I got to be your first!" He ran up to me and crushed me with a tight hug.

Arriving home I was a bit surprised to see that mostly all the lights were off. "Uhm mom, what happened to the lights?" I asked my mother who was setting dinner on the table, an oil lamp rested on the center of the table. "A fuse in the generator and box burned out, your father says he'll fix it in the morning." She explained. "Now don't tell me you're afraid of the dark Yuuri." Victor teased. "I-I'm not!" I stated anxiously.

I decided to take a relaxing bath and skipped dinner, like always, and instead went straight to bed completely ignoring Victor's request for a slumber party. Lying on my bed after hours of failed attempts to find sleep I replayed the memory of the kiss over and over until I couldn't handle it anymore. I was grateful that it distracted me from all the negative thoughts I had but I suddenly remembered that Victor now knew about my anxiety problem. Well, at least he didn't find out about my other problems.

Rolling on my side I pondered about the future and where I would end up if I continued to skate, I was cut short when a sudden clap of thunder startled me. I scrambled off my bed and ran for the light switch only remember that the electricity was no longer working. My fear of the dark and thunder was like a choke hold around my neck, another round of thunder erupted along with a terrifying flash of lightning.

I scurried out of my room and stumbled out into the dark hallway, my family was heavy sleepers, even an earthquake wouldn't have been able to wake them. Whimpers and whines could be heard from Victor's room and then a bit of shuffling before his door creaked open and a frantic Makkachin ran out, he ran passed me with whimpers coming from him.

Victor soon appeared and rubbed his eyes with a tired yawn. "Yuuri? What are you doing up at this hour?" He asked me, my hands trembled on my sides the thunder outside was enough to bring tears to my eyes. "Yuuri?" Victor walked up to me and rested his hand on my shoulder. "Is something wrong?" Oh God, his voice was so...wow. I was almost rid of my worries until I was brought back to reality when the roof shook with thunder and lightning.

I quickly hugged Victor and hid my face in his...his bare chest!? A blush colored my cheeks but fear still racked through my body, I trembled with fear. I felt Victor rest his hand on the back of my head and the other on my waist holding me close. "Is Yuuri afraid of thunder?" He asked I nodded in response feeling ashamed and embarrassed for having Victor to see me like this.

He chuckled and without warning scooped me up into his arms and carried me off to his room, he sat on the edge of his bed and stroked my hair whispering sweet nothings into my ear. "Bad thunder scaring my Yuuri, it's okay though I'll protect you." He whispered soothingly, Makkachin jumped onto the bed and pawed at my back. "You and Makkachin share the same fear, that's cute." He chuckled quietly.

I found myself begin to doze off, after so many months of nightmares and anxiety attacks I finally felt at peace. I felt so happy and relieved feeling like a massive weight was taken away from my chest, finally...I was able to sleep, and the best thing of all was that I was with Victor. My coach, the person...who I might love.