It was the first day. The first day and I was already falling apart I cursed at myself for not being strong enough to withstand this. I was too weak to face this on my own, and I was too pathetic to even try. "Yuuri breakfast is ready hurry up before it gets cold," Mari called from the other side of the closed door. "I'm not hungry I ate a lot last night," I responded with a shakiness in my voice I bit my lip upset with myself for my voice had betrayed me.

There was a loud sigh and then her footsteps slowly disappeared I stayed in my curled position on my bed with my blanket nearly suffocating me, Makkachin was sleeping soundly beside me curled up in a ball like myself; I willed myself to face my life without Victor and Yurio, but just thinking about how lonely and pathetic I would be lowered my confidence. The dull ache in my chest made it harder to breathe so I had to immediately sit up and carefully climbed off my bed. I paced around in my room trying absolutely anything to calm myself down, but I just couldn't.

My heart pounded against my chest with anxiety coursing through my veins and my breathing quickened making each breath sound like desperate gasps I forced myself to stop pacing and instantly sat on the ground pressing my hands against my ears before the horrible voices could arrive. Makkachin's sudden low whine shook me from my thoughts and I turned my attention to him, he was now standing on the bed looking at me with an almost glum expression. His tail wasn't wagging like usual, and that worried me, I slowly stood and trudged toward him. "Makkachin are you sad about Victor leaving too?" I asked wearily.

He barked and hopped off the bed "I'm sorry.." I mumbled and looked down at my bare feet. "I'm not Victor Makka, and I know you love him a lot more." I truly thought I was losing my mind now, I mean I'm seriously telling all my problems to an absolutely adorable, and probably clueless, pup! But as if he understood my distress he jumped on my legs and barked again I looked at him with wide eyes and stared at him for a while before a small smile made its way to my lips.

I kneeled to the ground and was met with a slobbery puppy kiss I laughed and wrapped my arms around his furry figure burying my face in his curly fur. "Thank you Makkachin." I stayed put for a moment enjoying the warm embrace as I fought against tears; after a while, I recollected myself and unwrapped myself from the embrace. "Are you hungry buddy?" I asked curiously to which in response I received a bark. I smiled and stood. "Alright, and hopefully we can go out for a walk." In all honesty, I felt empty, I was at a lost.

I could go skating, but it just wouldn't feel the same without Victor and Yurio. My heart ached once again I bit my lip and ignored the pain taking heavy steps out of my room and toward the kitchen with Makkachin following me by my side, I was greeted by my mother and sister who were cleaning up some dishes from yesterday night. It was the first day of the weekend, the hot springs were always closed on weekends, which gave my family a well-deserved break from all their hard work.

After giving Makkachin his food I grabbed his leash and hooked it on to his collar, his energy returned to him and by now we were jumping excitedly and trying to kiss my face again each time I bent over to pet him. Outside was fresh and the air was clean I took a deep breath to calm my nerves and headed toward a different direction not wanting to pass by the rink in fear that bad thoughts would fill my head again. I kept thinking about Victor though, I missed the feeling of his lips against my own, and I also missed the warmth he shared when we both slept with each other, and how he held me close to his chest.

I winced suddenly as a sharp pain pierced through my heart, I cursed under my breath scolding myself for not paying attention to my surroundings. I had let myself doze off even though I promised myself not to, even Yurio had scolded me and complained about my wandering mind. Makkachin had stopped in his tracks to do his business, I leaned away from him a bit to give him some privacy, some people were walking around the stands where many things were being sold. Children played and ran around with a group of friends, and couples were having dates sharing kisses and embraces I had to quickly look away before the pain in my chest would return again.

When Makkachin was done he looked up at me and then continued on we walked through the plaza of stands I bumped into a few people which caused my anxiety to rise, there was just so many people! So I had no choice but to leave the plaza so that I didn't end up having a panic attack. I looked down at my feet not paying attention to my surroundings, there weren't that many people now, but when I looked back up this time I had to stop in my tracks. Makkachin pulled on the leash demanding that I continued to go forward, but I recognized the person who was walking toward us.

The blonde hair and brown highlights, her light blue eyes cast down. Angela. Her hair was a mess it stuck out in many directions like she didn't even bother to brush it, her makeup was not well done and it looked like she hadn't had a wink of sleep. Though she had dressed decently, fear trickled in my veins I couldn't move, and Makkachin turned his head to look at me and jumped on my legs which had caught Angela's attention from afar. I flinched when our eyes met her eyes were pink and her cheeks were puffy it looked like she was crying non-stop, but the scowl they made its way to her lips was especially for me a look of utter hatred was also given to me and it made my anxiety reach its peak.

I quickly turned away and willed myself to hurriedly get out of her sight, but by now I could hear the clicking of her heels. And just to make things worse Makkachin stopped as soon as he took notice of her presence and turned to face her a low growl emitting from his throat I gripped onto the leash and pulled him forward I did not want to face Angela again, but it was over now, I was too slow.

A hand gripped onto my shoulder long nails dug into it causing a sharp cry to escape my lips, but I still kept Makkachin away. "It was you again wasn't it?" Her voice was filled with hatred. "Turn around now!" She demanded angrily, I couldn't protest against it now so I did as told and was met with her eyes. "You sent him away, didn't you!? I knew you weren't good enough for him." She spat, I just took it all. But why was she still tormenting me? Did she really hate me that much? Why couldn't she just go away? I stayed silent, and as if to answer my questions she said.

"Look you're not important anymore, I'm just going to say this. You caused all of this mess, you should've left Victor and me alone. If it weren't for you none of us would feel this much pain, especially that little brat of yours." My heart stopped and my breath hitched in my throat as I suddenly remembered Yurio's words the day he got into a fight. I was hugging him as he cried and I begged him to tell me who hurt him, but he refused and instead said: "I can't, they said they would hurt you if I told you." I finally understood what he meant. And I finally understood why he acted the way he did in front of Angela.

She was the one who hurt him, and it wasn't senior students that hurt him. I pried her hand off of my shoulder and turned away from her. "I'm glad you're in pain too," I muttered and practically ran away from her dragging Makkachin along with me. I would surely face her wrath again, but it wasn't going to be today. No, not today. But I knew Angela wouldn't rest until she had the last word, and that absolutely terrified me sending shivers down my spine and tremors through my body.

It took me a while to arrive back to my house but I made it, I removed Makkachin's leash and allowed him to run off. My mother met up with me with a soft smile. "Sweetie Victor called while you were out. He seemed a bit worried." My heart somehow managed to leap up to my throat. "Oh? Did he say anything?" I asked anxiously, her kind smile faltered "he told me to tell you that he's sorry for making you wait." The sadness that laced her voice made myself feel sad I grabbed her hand and looked into her eyes forcing a loving smile. "Hey now, there's no need to be sad mom," I stated and wrapped my arms around her.

I hugged her and placed a kiss on her cheek. "Everything is okay," I reassured and slowly pulled away from the loving embrace. "I promise." This time my mother seemed to believe me and her loving smile adorned on her face once again. "Oh! I forgot I had something cooking!" She exclaimed and rushed back to the kitchen. "I'm making steamed meat buns your father's favorite." She explained. "Don't worry I'll tell Mari to set a plate for Vicchan." My heart swelled. "Thanks, mom." With that, I trudged back to my room the events that had just happened were now taking a toll on my mind and body, so the first thing I did before closing my door was crumble to the ground.

I felt horrible for making Victor worry because he also knew I was weak. And I was so dumb for not realizing who was the one that hurt Yurio, Angela was right under my nose how could I not suspect her? My heart ached and my chest heaved with each breath I took, I was so useless, I am useless. Tears blurred my vision, but I wiped them away with trembling hands that I hated so much, I wrapped my arms around myself to stop from trembling and leaned against my bed. I yearned for Victor's embrace and Yurio's snarkiness that always brought a smile to my face, but I made a mistake by thinking about them and my chest ached even more.

I bit my lip hard up to the point where I almost drew blood, for a moment I was interrupted by Makkachin scratching at my door and whimpering and I so wanted to bring him in and hug him, but I couldn't bring myself to move. It lasted for a while until he gave up and ran off somewhere else, I wanted to call Victor back, but I knew that if I did I would end up breaking down like before, and Victor would worry even more. I hugged my legs close to my chest and rested my head against my knees, and for a long while I just stayed there waiting.

Eventually, I began to doze off the sun was still up though it was probably around mid-afternoon since I spent a lot of my time outdoors, I mentally wore myself out. My heart suddenly stopped and my blood ran cold I scrambled up to my feet as fear and anxiety coursed through my veins causing my heart to immediately beat rapidly against my chest. I ran out of my room nearly slipping in the process, I desperately searched for Makkachin with fresh new tears filling my eyes. I ran past the shrine room something had caught my eye as I passed by it, I immediately stopped in my tracks shaking my head side to side to see if I wasn't going crazy.

I reluctantly turned around, and with heavy steps, I trudged toward the room. And when I entered the room the tears overflowed and a choking sob escaped me, I fell to my knees and called for help with desperate pleas ripping through my throat.

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          (Victor's pov)

I sighed heavily as I glumly stared at the phone resting on my lap, I so desperately wanted to talk to my Yuuri and worry filled me it left me utterly restless. I stood from my cold hard bed and threw the phone on the bed deciding to join Yurio at the pool, this hotel was small and quiet which meant no press or cameras which gave me a huge relief.

But my phone suddenly rang I quickly rushed toward the bed and jumped to grab my phone, the caller ID was from Yuuri's place and my heart swelled with overwhelming happiness. I quickly answered with joyful hello, but the other end was quiet. "Ah? Hello? Is this a prank?" I asked with a frown, there was a sniff and then someone answered, it was Mari, Yuuri's sister and she sounded so distressed. "Victor..." Her voice was broken and hoarse, my heart suddenly dropped as a wave of fear raced through my body, and her next words left me speechless. "It's Makkachin." A sob.

"I'm so sorry."