I trembled violently as I willed myself to walk forward toward the ice rink, many reporters and press were there flashing their cameras at Victor who leaned against a wall with his arms crossed. He ignored the many questions given to him, I took a deep breath and prepared myself. I walked toward him with my hands at my side tightly balled up into fists, he met my eyes, and for an instant I was able to see pain flash in his eyes I gave him a quick reassuring smile and lowered my gaze to the ground I didn't want to have another break down due to the camera lights and flashes.

As soon as I set my first step on the staircase the reporters were instantly on me, people ran toward me while asking many questions. I forcefully held my gaze up and planted my eyes on Victor, I forced on a cheery smile. "Hi, Victor...you wanted to see me?" I asked innocently. He winced and his hands twitched at his side. "Yuuri." He mumbled. "I...I want to break up with you Yuuri." He choked out the false words felt all too real, and before I knew it I felt myself begin to tremble. "W-what are you saying?" I stammered out. "I'm saying I don't want you anymore." His voice broke slightly. "I no longer love you." I flinched back.

My breath hitched in my throat as I forced out a shaky laugh. "This is a joke right?" I stepped toward him. "Please tell me this is a joke." I grasped onto the sleeve of his shirt. "I..I mean it Yuuri!" He shouted and pulled away from my grasp. "I don't want to see you!" He tried desperately to hide the wavering in his voice. "And that means I'm going back to Russia. I can no longer love....all because of you." He spat causing me to flinch from the sharp pain in my heart.

Tears filled my eyes and trailed down my cheeks I swallowed thickly before parting my dry lips. "I..I hate you too!" I turned on my heel and stomped off as I tried to wipe away my tears I wasn't able to see correctly due to all the lights and flashes from the cameras, and just to make things worse the tears blurred my vision. I stumbled and pushed past the reporters, but I had somehow missed a step while I was descending down the stairs and ended up falling. I scraped my knee in the process and hissed in pain though I was grateful I caught myself just in time.

I quickly stood and hid my limp ignoring the reporters who called out to me but then moved on to Victor. I successfully wiped away my remaining tears and bit my lip when I looked down to examine my knee, the fabric of my pants had torn revealing my bleeding wound. My heart suddenly dropped when I finally realized something, I would not be able to continue this year's skating competition; not only me but for Victor and Yurio as well. I swallowed hard and tried to adjust to the new pain in my chest that made it utterly hard to breathe.

Taking a moment to collect myself and ease my anxiety a bit I took a long breath and exhaled. Feeling a little weight lifting off my shoulders and chest I straightened my posture and limped back home hoping that Yurio was doing okay with Makkachin and my parents.

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I finally made it to my room after trying desperately to walk while trying to hide my limp from Yurio and my parents. I fell onto my bed and curled into a tight ball wincing every now and then when my knee came in contact with anything and throbbed sending spasms of pain through me. I grabbed my pillow and buried my face in the suffocating cushion gritting my teeth when I remembered the 'fight' it felt so real, but the emotions in Victor's eyes reminded me that it was all fake.

I squeeze my eyes shut and focused on steadying my breathing I listened to the seemingly comforting tick of the clock hanging on my wall, and took deep breathes each time five seconds passed. Eventually, I found myself beginning to doze off my heart and breathing slowed to a steady and calm pace, and my anxiety was almost completely gone for now. My bedroom door was shut, but I could still hear the occasional chatter of my parents and guests that were muffled I could also hear girly squeals possibly belonging to Mari or Minako since they both enjoyed watching some weird t.v. drama.

A tired smile tugged at my lips as I imagined them with wide mouths and saucer-sized eyes. I was hugging my pillow by now so I could not suffocate when or if I fell asleep, and because I am a big cuddler when I sleep I literally am at unrest when I can't cuddle. I was so close to sleep now my body felt like it was floating on a cloud, but a sudden slam startled me. I jumped up to a sitting position and frowned when loud footsteps were followed after, they sounded frantic and desperate and seemed to be heading toward my room. "Yuuri!" I instantly recognized the frantic voice.

My bedroom door was slammed open, and there appeared a flushed Victor. He was breathing heavily and his hair and clothes were a mess. "Yuuri." He exhaled and rushed toward me. "Vi-" I was cut off when he engulfed me into a tight hug. "Yuuri I'm so sorry." He started. "I swear I didn't mean any of it." He whimpered, and my heart literally shattered when he began to tremble. "I still love you, I love you so much Yuuri. You're the only person I'll ever love." He reassured with a wavering voice.

I hugged him tightly and ran my hand through his hair carefully undoing the tangles in it. "I'm okay Victor. I know it wasn't true." I said in a soothing tone. "Calm down Vitya, everything is okay I promise." His breathing was quick and unsteady it was starting to worry me. "I'm here, and I will always be here," I reassured with a small smile. He calmed down at my words and slowly steadied his breathing. "I don't want to leave Yuuri." He whispered and squeezed me tight. "It's my fault all of this happened." The self-hatred in his voice was filled with venom.

I quickly pulled away from the embrace and held his face in my hands. "Don't say that!" I warned with a frown. "None of this is your fault." I glared into his eyes. "You did nothing wrong, and I know it." I pressed our foreheads together and closed my eyes. "Victor it'll only be a couple of days remember? Everything will be okay." I dropped my hands. "But Yuuri, are you sure you'll be okay without me? You'll remember to eat and take care of yourself right?" He asked anxiously. "Victor I'll be fine. And yes I promise I'll take care of myself." I smiled to reassure him, his eyes softened. "....okay Yuuri, I trust you to keep that promise." He stated and grabbed my hands to fully examine my lap.

He paled. "I saw you fall, but I didn't think you would get hurt." He kneeled to the ground to take a closer look while biting his lip and then looked up at me. "Does it hurt?" He asked with furrowed brows. "I'm fine," I said rather quickly. "We should at least clean it." He suggested, I quickly shook my head in protest and wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. "I just want to stay with you till the time is up." I buried my face in the crook of his neck and breathed in his scent.

He pulled me closer against his chest and hid his face in my shoulder. "I'm especially going to miss holding you like this." He mumbled and exhaled a shuddered sigh. "You act like it's going to be a lifetime." I giggled and gave him a slight squeeze. "But don't worry, I think like that too." I closed my eyes and focused on his steady heartbeat. "Are you tired Yuuri?" He asked quietly. "No, I'm just at peace. You know when I'm with you like this I completely forget about my worries, and my anxiety just disappears like magic." I sighed and opened my eyes.

I was met with beautiful blue eyes looking right back at me. "Is that really true Yuuri?" He asked hopefully. "Of course it is." I smiled at him. He suddenly pounced on me taking me by surprise and pressed his lips against my own he pressed me against my bed as he continued to kiss me, it was not soft and loving like the others though. This one was hard and desperate like it were to be our last kiss, I could not push him away though I did not want to hurt him. So I reluctantly pulled him in closer deepening the kiss I was able to catch a quick glimpse at his eyes, they were filled with lust.

He pulled away to catch his breath and allowed me to control my breathing as well. "I swear I am not going to be able to control myself some day." He frowned. "And when that happens..." He shook his head and groaned in frustration. "Yuuri you have to stop me!" I flinched at his outburst. "What happens if we do go that far and I end up hurting you?" I instantly flushed red at the thought of actually doing it with Victor, I looked away not wanting him to see how flustered I got at the inappropriate thoughts filling my mind, but I had to answer.

I slowly turned to face him again. "I'll punch you if you go overboard." I half lied, I mean how can I punch him? And...what if I didn't want him to stop? What if I wanted to go overboard? "You better." He demanded and collapsed beside me, I turned on my side to face him and lost myself in his eyes. "What are you thinking about?" I asked curiously he closed his eyes to think for a moment and opened them again. "I'm thinking about how I could learn better self-control." He bit his lip. "Sorry, this may be an awkward thing to talk about right?" I quickly shook my head. "N-no! I'm pretty sure it's normal to talk about things like this. I mean, I'm not even well educated about this stuff." I admitted nervously with a light blush.

He looked up at me with amused eyes.  "Wait Yuuri does that mean..." He trailed off, and I groaned in response. "Not this." I buried my face in his shoulder. "Yes, Victor...I'm a v-virgin okay?" I stammered out embarrassed by my hideous truth, how did we end up talking about this anyway!? He chuckled and pulled me away so that he would be able to fully look at my face. "There's nothing to be embarrassed about." He lifted my chin. "I'm with you now, so that means I'll be able to teach you all the things you don't know about." He leaned forward, our lips mere inches apart. "But only when you're ready." He pulled away leaving me disappointed.

He laughed at my pout. "Okay, okay." He pulled me toward him and pressed our lips together I nearly smiled at the feeling of his lips. For the rest of the morning we mostly stayed in each other's arms sharing loving words and a few kisses, and when the lunch hour came he helped my parents prepare rice balls while I spent time with Yurio, he was reluctant at first trying to avoid social contact with me, but eventually he warmed up and we talked about his life at Russia. I smiled as I looked at him and then at Victor knowing how badly I'll miss them, and knowing that I would certainly, most definitely will not survive without them by my side.

After lunch, all three of us spent time together in the house since it was too risky for Victor and Yurio to be seen, so I helped them pack up for tomorrow. The most painful part for me was seeing how their rooms emptied after taking down all their stuff. "Don't be sad Yuuri," Victor told me after he packed up the rest of his clothes. "We'll all be together before you know it." He smiled at me and pecked my lips before grabbing my hand and dragging me to the living room where Yurio was sitting on the ground leaning against the couch. "About time Katsudon." He huffed.

And so all three of us spent the rest of the afternoon watching movies and talking with each other sharing a few laughs here and there, but when the sunset and the moon rose I was already dozing off leaning against Victor's shoulder trying desperately to keep my eyes open, each second counted and I was not going to waste a single one. Victor quickly noticed me dozing off and chuckled. "We should go to bed now." He suggested I shook my head. "N-no, I'm...not tired," I stated in between a yawn. "But Yurio is already asleep," Victor stated.

I quickly sat up and looked at the other side of Victor to see Yurio also leaning against his shoulder his eyes closed and his chest slowly rising and falling with each breath he took. "...okay I guess it is pretty late," I mumbled in a groggy tone and slowly stood up, Victor not wanting to wake Yurio up decided to just carry him, and it was the most adorable thing I had ever seen. After putting Yurio to bed he dragged me to his room and practically tossed me onto his bed he climbed in and lied down beside me pulling me into his arms, and with a soft kiss exchanged we both fell asleep in each other's arms.

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I tried desperately to hold back my tears as I stood in front of Victor and Yurio who were just about to leave to the airport, I couldn't go with them to say goodbye there so it had to be here at my home. I took a shaky breath and hugged Yurio. "D-don't give Victor a hard time okay? And take care of yourself...please." I whimpered, he hugged me back and nodded. "I promise." He reassured and slowly pulled away from the embrace, I then turned to face Victor who seemed to have tears in his eyes.

I forced a painful smile and rested my hand against his cheek. "You take good care of yourself too okay? I want you to be my happy Victor always." He rested his hand on top of mine. "I promise Yuuri." He mumbled and pulled me into a tight hug squeezing the breath out of me, but that didn't care, because right now it was just all three of us. I pulled Yurio into the hug and we all held each other, this would be our first time parting away from each other. How would it all turn out? Victor had also called Makkachin over and pulled him into the hug as well, and even though he squirmed a bit it was still a love-filled embrace.

Eventually, it was time to go, with a couple of tears shed we all let go....and with a final kiss and hug, Victor and Yurio were gone. And I stayed standing at the front door with Makkachin sitting at my side.