I glumly stared at a sleeping Yurio, his head resting on top of my lap as he breathed steadily. I sighed longingly and softly ran my hand through his hair. "I'm sorry Yurio. None of this would have happened if it weren't for me." I remembered when he was harsh at first and acted cruelly to me at my last competition.

But I had long since forgiven him because I knew he was putting up a barrier between himself and others so that he wouldn't get hurt, I understood what he was doing. What he was possibly going through. I carefully moved his head off of my lap and onto a pillow before standing and threw the blanket over him, I tiptoed out of the room, wincing at the thump my cast made, with Makkachin following after me and ever so quietly shut the door.

The sun was still up, it was around three thirty in the afternoon, I frowned when there was no longer the quiet chatter between Victor and Angela. I had an odd feeling about Angela, the vibe she gave off was intimidating and horrifying. Makkachin whined and ran through the kitchen and toward the front door. I followed after him and stopped at the kitchen, there was a note on the table that read.

Yuuri,
I've decided to take Angela out for a while we haven't seen each other for years so I hope you understand. 
                             yours truly, Victor.

I grimaced at the note and let it slip from my hand. "Yours truly? I've lost you Victor..why is it now that you've decided to change?" I shook my head. "We were going to be a couple..weren't we?" I looked toward Makkachin who was scratching at the front door, it pained me to see him like that. I called him over, he didn't respond. He kept on whining and whimpering. "Want to take a walk?" I asked, his ears perked up and his head shot toward me.

He barked and practically jumped toward me, I went to my room to grab his leash and wrote a quick note to Yurio if he were to wake up while I was away. Makkachin was excitedly jumping on me. "Calm down boy." I laughed and latched the hook of the leash to his collar, he ran back toward the door pulling me along with him. I yelped at his quick pace, not being able to fully follow after him due to my cast, and opened the front door where I was blinded by the sunlight and dragged away by Makkachin's strength I barely had time to close the door and let my eyes adjust to the sudden change of lighting.

I tripped and stumbled as Makkachin continued to run. "M-Makka slow down!" I called out to him, it was no use though he ignored me like earlier and continued on, my breathing became uneven and my heart hammered against my ribcage, my ankle began to hurt again. I passed by the docks and quickly greeted the man who always fished there, I wondered where Makkachin would take me curious if he had a certain place to go to. Eventually, I smelled sea water in the air and was met with the clear sandy ground. "Wait!" I yelped and lost my footing as soon as I stepped foot on the sand.

I fell and ended up releasing Makkachin in the process, I quickly looked up with wide eyes. "Makkachin!" He kept on running, but he seemed excited. I let out a sigh of relief when he ran toward a flock of seagulls, the birds flew and cawed from the excited pup, I got up to my feet and dusted myself off of the sand. "He ran all the way over here for birds?" I asked myself, but then I remembered Victor telling me once that the beach reminded him of his home. Did Makkachin miss his home?

Moreover, did Victor or Yurio miss their home? I honestly felt guilty knowing that I was the possible reason for the ache in their hearts, the reason why Yurio got in trouble at school, and also the reason why things aren't going so well. My phone vibrated in my pocket I honestly didn't want to see what it was, but curiosity got the better of me and I took it out from my pocket, Phichit was calling me, my best friend.

I answered the call and was met with loud yelling. "Yuuuurrriii!" I winced and held the phone away from my ear. "Less shouting please?" I said and reluctantly brought the phone to my ear. "What's up?" I asked as Makkachin ran back toward me. "Did you see the pictures!? Who the hell is ruining my ship!? Who's that woman with your man!?" He yelled with a hint of anger and annoyance. My heart dropped. "Pictures?..what are you talking about?" I asked anxiously. "The pictures online duh! Supposedly the press got pictures of them too." He claimed.

I gritted my teeth. "U-uhm..sorry Phichit, but I..I need to go." I stammered and abruptly ended the call before he could protest. My hands were trembling and I nearly dropped my phone, I shoved it back into my pocket and lowered back down on the ground hugging my knees close to my chest, Makkachin jumped on me, but I was in an odd mood. I felt lost. My heart was absolutely heavy, I wanted to tear it out. It made it difficult to breathe.

I glanced at Makkachin who sat beside me with his tongue sticking out, I forced a small smile and patted his head. "You always stay the same," I mumbled, warm tears suddenly trailed down my cheeks. I panicked and quickly tried to wipe them away. "No..no stop!" A sudden throbbing pain pulsated from my heart and spread throughout my body. "Please no..." I clutched at my chest and tried to control my uneven breathing.

I tugged at my hair and shut my eyes, I quietly counted to myself and forced myself to stand. "Makkachin." I reopened my eyes hating myself for even thinking about my request. "Let's go find Victor." I grabbed his leash that lied on the ground and wrapped it around my hand so I wouldn't fall again. There was a dull pain in my chest, I wiped away my remaining tears, pushing back the pain I held within myself and took a deep breath.

As I walked away from the sandy surface with Makkachin following close behind I wondered where Victor would be, where would he take his best friend? Would it be somewhere he loved? I suddenly stopped in my tracks..he did love skating...and he met Angela at his rink...

My heart was definitely having a bad day today, I was pretty sure this was going to kill me. I was pulled back into reality when Makkachin whined and walked forward, I walked at a slow pace despite Makkachin's excited and fast pace. My ankle ached a little from the running and dragging, I wanted to take the cast off though it was annoying me already. I wanted to get back onto the ice, I needed to.

Eventually, after what seemed like hours we both made it to the ice castle, I instantly stopped and debated on whether or not I should go in or not. I mean was there a good reason to even go? Wouldn't I be interrupting their time to catch up? The more I thought and pondered the more anxious I became. I wanted to see Victor, I wanted things to be better. But my dreams didn't matter. I had to only think about Yurio and Victor, I have to think about what makes them happy...

My mind was jumbled up, I groaned and bit my bottom lip tightening the rope of Makkachin's leash around my hand up to the point where I nearly stopped the circulation in my hand, I instantly stopped and loosened the grip. "I can do this," I told myself and forced myself to take a step. And with that one step I grimaced and once again began overthinking, I really needed to pull myself together.

Thanks to Makkachin he helped me with that by whining and then bolted off up the stairs. I nearly tripped and fell due to how fast and frantically he was going. As soon as we made it to the top I opened the door and unlatched the leash from his collar. He instantly bolted to the small observation office where Yuuko was catching her breath. "Hey Yuuko, are you okay?" I walked up to her, she straightened her posture and fixed her hair. "Y-Yuuri! Ah, thank goodness!" She smiled in relief.

I gave her a confused look. "Did something happen?" I asked. "Yeah! So many reporters were here! There was a huge crowd a couple of hours ago, where in the world were you!?" She asked bewildered "I..was at the beach with Makkachin." I scratched the back of my neck. "He was a bit restless at home so I decided to take him out," I explained. Yuuko gave me a pitiful smile and bent down to pet Makkachin. "...looks like Makkachin wasn't the only one who needed some fresh air." She stated, I flinched and quickly looked away.

I suddenly heard laughter echo from the rink. "Oh..right," I muttered. "Victor is here right? With Angela." My heart was clenched with pain. "Yuuri what happened? I thought you and Victor were already a couple." She said it took me a while to answer. I needed time to think and process. "Yeah...I thought so too." I muttered softly and sighed almost glumly. "I just wanted to see Victor, do you think you can watch Makkachin for a bit." I gave her an almost pleading look. She giggled. "Sure go ahead, win back your man!" She threw her fist in the air. "I'll try." I forced a weary smile and turned toward the doors that lead to the rink.

My throat tightened and I almost forgot how to breathe, I feared for his reaction. I could always turn back, what if he were to get upset? Although I guess we are still technically a 'couple' right? But...

Why is it now that I suddenly feel out of place? I know what we are, but now I even doubted that. I rested my hand against the doors and I took deep breaths. "I can..and I will do this." I forced myself to stay strong even though I was literally breaking inside, that didn't matter though. I didn't matter. I pushed the doors open and was hit with a gush of cold air, I recognized the sound of skates gliding across the ice and giggling.

I brought my attention to the rink, Victor and Angela were at the center, Victor was holding Angela's hand, she was a bit wobbly on her feet and didn't seem to have her balance right. I trudged toward the rink but instantly stopped when Angela squealed and suddenly slipped bringing Victor down with her. They both landed with a small thump, Victor hovered above Angela, they both stared into each other's eyes. I was frozen in place as I watched Angela wrap her arms around Victor's neck, and then...

She pulled him into a kiss.

My heart hammered dangerously hard against my chest and my blood went cold. Why wasn't Victor doing anything!? Was he enjoying it? Had he fallen in love with Angela already? I was trembling now, Victor pulled away after so long and looked back down at Angela. They were silent for a while and then they laughed as if it were a joke, Angela still had her arms around his neck even after he helped her up by practically lifting her up.

I just couldn't believe what I saw, I..I couldn't breathe... I can't breathe! I fell to my knees and nearly clawed at my neck, my throat was tight I tried desperately to catch my breath. Finally, I coughed and wheezed, with trembling legs, I quickly stood back up.  I had mistakenly caught Victor's and Angela's attention, I stared at Victor as his eyes went wide. "Y-Yuuri!?" I winced as he spoke my name and ran away from the rink toward the bathrooms. "Wait Yuuri!" I heard him yell out to me, I tripped and opened the bathroom door with my shoulder almost ending up on the ground.

Tears blurred my vision, I ran to the last stall and locked myself in. The last stall was always the biggest so it gave me a little room to try and calm myself, I still wheezed and coughed, my heart was still hammering. I couldn't save myself this time, I was too deep now. Any minute and I was sure I would pass out, the bathroom door opened, a new wave of panic came over me.n"Yuuri! Yuuri where are you!?" I quickly recognized Victor's voice.

I clamped my mouth shut and tried to even out my breathing, it didn't work. My wheezing became worse as did my coughing, I stumbled back and pressed my back against the stall wall, Victor was in front of the stall now, I could see his shoes. There was a frantic knock. "Yuuri please open the door." He pleaded anxiously, more tears gushed from my eyes, my heart was literally going to break my ribs. I coughed harshly still trying so desperately to catch my breath. Victor tried everything to get me to open up. "Yuuri please let me help you!" Desperation filled his frantic voice.

I trembled and slid to the ground as the edges of my vision went blurry, suddenly Victor was on his knees. The door had a wide opening on the bottom allowing Victor to crawl inside, I pressed myself even more against the wall, but I was cornered I had no place to escape. Victor quickly brought me into his arms. "Yuuri please calm down!" He rubbed my back, I flinched at his loud voice and panicked even more.

Victor cursed to himself and quickly apologized before settling me onto his lap and held me close to his chest, I trembled and tried to focus on my breathing. I grasped onto Victor's shirt. "V-Victor.." I stammered, "yes Yuuri?" He asked quietly. "...do you still need me with you?..or am I not good enough?" A sob threatened to escape my lips, he stayed silent.

I shut my eyes knowing that this would probably be the last time I would be held like this. "If so then..I-I want to end our relationship. And just continue to be your student." I quickly ended it like that, my whole world shattered and broke. Victor still remained silent.

I escaped his grasp and ran out of the stall before he could say anything. "Sorry Victor I need time alone, please don't bother me..I'm sorry." I left the bathroom and nearly bumped into Angela, and I swore as I passed by her I saw a smirk on her glossed lips followed by a silent giggle.