Point of View: Virgil, First Person
Timeline: Present Day

All of us decided to wear white.

None of us had talked about it, but when all of us met in the Common Room, that's what all of us had done.

Logan had grabbed Thomas and brought him  and the two of them were sitting wordlessly on the couch.  Logan was wearing a white dress shirt and red vest and tie. Thomas dressed eerily similar, white dress shirt - minus the tie - and black pants.

I was wearing a completely white suit - with a gold vest and red tie.  I had even changed my typical eye shadow, using white instead of black.  I didn't care if it made the puffiness around my eyes easier to see, or the bags underneath them.

I deserved it.

Patton finally showed up, also wearing white and holding massive box.  None of us said anything as we took in each other before heading into the Imagination.

It was only a short walk over to Roman's tree  - the big maple tree that Roman said was his favorite place in the Imagination.  Patton set the box at the base of the tree before letting out a tiny sigh, eyes dark.  He didn't say anything, however, not when he started pulling out the Christmas lights, not even as tears started rolling down his cheeks.

Thomas was full out sobbing, and it was amazing that he was even helpful at all.

I felt the pressure behind my eyes but I didn't release it, I had no right.  I continued taking these tiny breaths as Patton handed me a string of lights and I started wrapping it around the base of the tree.

Logan was emotionless as ever, but I noticed the tiny tremble in his hands as he gently set his hand on Thomas's shoulder, eyes dark as well.  After minute they both came to help me, help me wrap this massive maple tree in tiny lights.

It took hours.

Hours, to wrap every single branch of this massive tree but with all of us we finished until the whole tree looked light it had been hugged by the stars.

Once we finished it was dark out and the lights looked as beautiful as ever.  I felt my throat close up at the sight.  I forced my hands in two fists by my sides and all of us just stared, none of us uttering a single word.

Thomas and Logan were the first to leave, sure that his friends has been worried about him because he hadn't done anything all day.  Patton hung around for a little while after, sniffling.  He waved a hand and tons of tiny electronic candles circled around the bottom of the tree.

We could just done that for the lights, but it... it seemed wrong.  We wanted to do it.

Patton spared me a tiny glance before leaving completely, and then I was alone.

And I finally let myself crumble to pieces.

I sobbed loudly, knees hitting the dirt with a barely audible thud as if the weight of the sky was suddenly on my shoulders.  Now... this was so much more... real, for some reason.  Knowing that this was the result of my actions and that this... this was...

Permanent.  

This was so real and I felt like I could barely breathe.

I suddenly stumbled to my feet, feeling dizzy and faint.  No, no... no, there - there has to be something, this was so wrong, so wrong, wrong, 

And then I was on the edge of the cliff, feet dangling over the side.  What would happen if I -

No, I thought, shaking my head quickly at my internal monologue.  Ro wouldn't have wanted that, no, no.  Don't you dare.  Don't you spend another second even thinking about it.

I wrapped my arms around myself, slowly sliding away from the edge again, until I was at the base of the tree.  Exhausted I finally collapsed against for good, twisting and looking up at the sky.

The stars were extra bright tonight, as if somehow sensing how much I needed to see them tonight.  And the tree looked just as amazing through the branches.

Roman would have loved it.

I closed my eyes, not moving.  If I opened my eyes, then it would be real again.

Still not opening my eyes, I gently waved my hand, summoning a certain object to my hand.

A flower crown.

A purple flower crown.

The one Roman had given me on our first date.

I opened my eyes, letting my tears stream freely.  Holding back a sob, I place the crown at the base of the tree, dropping it quickly before taking a few steps back, staring.

I stared at the tree, the candles, the flower crown, and the sob slipped out.

My knees hit the ground again, and I hugged myself, hating myself more than I ever had.

Somehow I made it to my feet, shoving my hands into my pants pockets as I finally started making my way back to the Mind Palace.

I paused, feeling something in my pocket.

I frowned, confused as I pulled the object out my pocket.

It was a... stone?

I frowned, twisting the tiny stone in my hand in confusion.  But the fact that this stone had somehow appeared in my pocket wasn't the most surprising part.  It was the fact that the stone was... 

Periwinkle?

What the heck?

Brushing the thought aside, I shoved it back in my pocket.  I'd ask Logan about it later.

I waved a hand and teleported back to the Common Room.

And boy, was that a sight.

"Patton," Logan was saying, having not noticing me.  "Please, I swear I never meant for any of this to happen."

Patton had his back to Logan, hands in fists at his sides.  "You - You GOSH you are just so PROUD aren't you? Thinking that the logical answer is always the best one!" Patton nearly screamed, spinning to face Logan.  "That was YOUR CALL that day and even though I fought you on YOU FORCED ME TO STAY.  And there was NOTHING I could do.  And I'm sure that's never occurred to you, that fact that I would have to LIVE with myself with the decision YOU made, the decision YOU decided was best.  And if you had just let me - if you had just let me go - " Patton choked out.  "Then maybe Roman would still be there."

"You don't know that," Logan returned softly.

"But I could've done SOMETHING," Patton screamed, tears running down his cheeks in frustration.  "You don't get it, do you?! You never will! I should have gone -"

"But then it could have been you! And I don't know why you think that I could live with you being in Roman's position! I saved you!"

"AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THAT!  THINKING THAT YOU KNEW WHAT WAS BEST FOR ME!! I CAN MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS LOGAN!! I'D RATHER THAN HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES OF A DECISION THAT WAS YOURS!!!" Patton was screaming at the top of his lungs.  "I WILL NEVER, NEVER FORGIVE YOU!! IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF IT WAS ME, GOD I WISH IT HAD BEEN!!" Patton's voice broke and his hands rose to his hair, gripping it tightly in his hands as he sobbed.

Logan's eyes softened.  "Patton, I - " He reached out his hand to do something, place it on Patton's shoulder, or something like that but Patton backed away with a hiss, eyes glaring at Logan's in some dark emotion.

When Patton spoke his voice was low, and darker than I'd ever heard it.  "Don't you dare even touch me."

Logan stood there, mouth opening and closing, guilt finally hitting him as he was completely silent.

"I hate you, Logan Sanders.  I hate you, and will hate you for as long as I live," Patton spat before storming out and slamming the door to his room behind him, leaving  hollow disappointment ringing through the hallway as Logan collapsed in the nearest chair and dropped his head in his hands.

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Well that was fun :D
Sorry, this was a really hard chapter to write, I really wanted it to be good X3

And boy its has been a week XD
I've been awful in updates, hopefully I'll have the next chapter out today or tomorrow to make up for how long this took (depends on if I move in the next ten seconds to go eat breakfast at 2:34 pm (I woke up at 12 - I legit slept for 12 hours straight oOF)

So yeah, we'll see :)

Oh and that tree is kinda similar to how I pictured how the maple tree would look (somewhat, the maple tree is much bigger, but YEAH X3)