Sorry uh tw:cutting, suicidal thoughts [oh yeah], throwing up, mental and physical abuse, unsympathetic! Patton, and just overall bad writing
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"Where am I?" I looked around to see about six people. They all looked the same. I looked over at a mirror on the other side of the room, I looked like them too. 

"Who are you?" I didn't really know. I just went with what I was feeling. "Uh I-I don’t know?" He said instead. "I'm Patton! Morality. This is Virgl, anxiety. Logan, logic. Roman, creativity, and Deceit. He is his name." I waved.

“Depression,” I said dryly.

"What am I doing here?" Logan looked at me. " You said you were... Depression? Yes." I felt wrong. "Yes, you can call me Finn though!" They all looked at me. "Let's get you to Thomas."

They all brought me to who they call Thomas. "Who is this? A new side?" Patton nodded his head. "What do you represent?" I didn't want to say.

 "Depression." I said after a long time of silence.

Thomas frowned. 

"Don't throw me out! I'll be good. I'll keep to myself. My name is Finn but you can call me whatever you want if it will help." I said, panicking. 

"I'm not going to throw you out. You'll stay. I'll get you a room."

It had been a week since I had been put here. It's... Nice? I don't really know what to think about it. It's kinda a place where I can be myself. I still ask if I can do things. I don’t feel as if i'm in this family, i feel like a wet rag someone outs in the floor and only picks me up if i'm needed. Of course, patton breathing down my neck doesn’t help either.

"Hey kiddo" Patton said, smiling sickly. "how are you doing?" 

"I'm fine Patton." It can be more like a forced statement. This Patton guy really gives me the creeps sometimes.

"Alright then. You want to come out for dinner today?" I hadn't done that since I came here.

"Sure Patton. Careful of the cat/cactus (same thing) on your way out." 

Patton shut the door to let me get ready.

I got dressed while being careful of the cuts. "Finn!" 

"Coming"

Once I got down the stairs everyone was surprised to see me. I wasn’t really surprised at their exceptions. I had been in my room for the past week, cutting and-

"Greetings Finn," Logic said, cutting me off from my thoughts

"Hi." I said waving.

"Hey Finn" anxiety said. I raised my head to acknowledge his existence.

"Hello princess." Creativity said. Instead of saying something I just growl. 

"Don't call me that. Ever. Ok? Creativity?" it just struck some nerve.

I subconsciously put my hands on my chest. I didn't like it. Not one bit. Patton came and hugged me. The hug was too tight and made me lose my breath. I just started to cry.

"Shhh. It's ok." patton said from his gut-wrenching hug

"No it's not.” I shouldn’t have said that.

Patton sighed, patting on my head.

We all sat down for dinner. Creativity got less food tonight. He won't starve.

Just as I was just finishing rapping my arm, creativity came into the room. 

"Hello."

"What do you want creativity?" I said that just as he placed his phone down while it was playing some music.

"I don't know how to fix it. But, I can try." He said putting his hand out. I took it and he pulled me up. We started dancing. Creativity got kinda side tracked with the steps.

"Wow. You're fast. Where did you learn to dance like this?" I thought about it for a moment and realized that I didn't actually know.

"I don't know creativity."

"You know you can just call me Roman Right?"

"Alright Roman." I said, trying it on my tongue.

He stopped for a second with his hands on my hips and hand in hand with me. 

"You're a strange one." Then we picked right up.

"You think I didn't already know that? You must be the strange one. Also, coming into my room to dance with me? scandolice." He puffed his cheeks out almost like a pout as we continued to dance.

“Well, I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I said some stuff I didn’t mean. I didn’t understand! But patton explained it to me and now I want to take it back. I'm so sorry.” one tear slipped out of his eye as he continued to apologize. Honestly, all of his tauntings will always haunt me, but I just accepted his apology.

“It’s ok roman. I forgive you.” I tried to say but roman did listen.

“I just don’t know how to fix it. How can I fix it?” I laid my forehead on his.

“You can’t. But I don’t want you to,”I really wanted him to but I can’t just say that to him.”I just wanted you to get used to it. You're difficult but that’s ok. You can’t help it. You're just like this.” he started to sob as I just continued to waltz around my room.

“Shh it’s ok. You just need to breathe. Let’s enjoy this dance. That’s all I want from you.” the dance sped up as he started to cheer up. I laughed and he just started. My cheeks rose in heat as he started and started to laugh with me.

“What? What’s so funny?” 

“That’s your laugh? This is the first time I’ve ever heard you laugh.” my cheeks heated up more [if that was possible]. I tried to cover my face in his chest which was hard considering we were still dancing. The dance slowed until it stopped completely. 

“Thank you for giving me this chance. I really enjoyed it.” I bowed.

“No thank you. I really enjoyed it too. I needed this today.” he nodded and left but not before giving me a red rose. I yelled thank you down the hall before I sat down. I started to smile as I inspected the rose. It’s bright red color shined in the candlelight as it was the only light in my room at the time. The rose looked fresh picked and well nurtured. I stood up and put it in my water cup. I would get some fresh water for it later.

I went downstairs because I smelled FoOd. I walk up to Patton and ask what he’s cooking. “It’s my special pasta. Are you going to eat with us today?” I thought about it and nodded my head. “Sure patton. I look forward to it.” he nodded and I set the table. “Thanks” I sat down and waited to be served. Everyone else came down and Princy said,”Hi prince. How are you feeling?”

“Fine, thanks roman.” everyone’s eyes went wide. Patton had a huge smile on his face.

“Roman! Finn! Oh! I'm so happy. What happened?” I looked at roman and nodded. I could notis Patton's fake happiness was more like annoyance but I let it slide.

“Well, I went into his room and started to ask how I made it up to him. Then we-” I cut him off.

“Then we danced! Evidently I'm really good at it. Who knew?” Patton awed and shot me a disappointed glance.

“You guys! I'm so happy for you! Oh and Finn! Your smile is so cute.'' I looked down and blushed.

“U-uh thanks patton.” I know he didn’t really mean it but I knew it’s better to accept it then fight back. 

“Alright dig in!” I just noticed that while we were talking he was still serving us. I looked down at the plate and noticed I got less, no trouble. I was going to throw it up anyway. 

“Thanks Patton. Looks very filling.” Patton flashed a bright smile. I tried not to open my mouth too much because I have really sharp canines in my mouth. 

“Finn, your canines intrigue me. How are they that sharp?” Well, there goes that plan.

“I don’t know logan. They're just like that and it’s for plot.” Patton had a small grimace. Virgl had a small smile and Roman was surprised that he didn’t notice. Logan was confused and looked round him.

“Take a picture. It’ll last longer.” Everyone looked back at their plates and ate.

After I finished dinner, I went to my room. Nothing was out of the ordinary until I looked to my bed to see a man who had scales on his face and bowler hat. I gave a small yelp and said,”hello. Why are you in my room? My name is Finn. what’s yours?” he responded with, “ not deceit darling.”

“Oh hello!” I said while waving.

“For depression you hide it well. How or why?” he said looking at me with his eyes narrowing, checking his gloved hand like he wasn't interested in the conversation.

“For how. I just mask it and keep it in. for why. I don’t know. It just feels right, but also wrong,” I took a seat,”though still. I may never know.” his perked up,thinking I would just ignore him.He nodded, accepting the answer.

“Ok. I'll leave you alone now.”

“Wait! Could you stay? I would like someone to talk to. It gets lonely here,” the only person that comes in my room to visit is Patton. I don’t like when Patton visits. He looked surprised by my ple but agreed anyway.

“What did you actually want to talk about? Or did you want me to start and you answer because you have no idea what you actually want.” My eyes widen at his words. How did he know?

“Uh. yeah. Can you start?” he nodded.

“What were you doing before thomas?” I thought about it for a couple of seconds. 

“I… I don’t know,” I look him in the eyes,”I don’t know deceit.” deceit nodded.

“Do you want to talk about something in particular?” I nodded my head and tried to speak but my throat felt dry.  

“I can’t? I was trying to express my feelings but I couldn't. Why me?” I almost started to cry but I still can’t. My eyes wouldn’t release them. It was like I physically can’t. Because I physically can’t. Deceit looked at me sympathetically. “Oh so now I can’t cry?” I threw my hands in the air. “This is so fucking rich. Real nice world. You just had to give me this damn job. Didn’t you?” decait looked confused. 

“You okay?” I had to lie.

“Yes, just peachy.” He just sighed and shook his head. 

“You don’t have to lie. I'm not going to say it’s going to be fine because I know it isn’t. You don’t have to lie. I'm here for you. I know you barely know me but I like you. Not in a weird way.  We all like you. Things will shape up. It seems like you can’t tell the truth about your feelings so I'll help you. Ok? Do you want to talk to others? I can help you since they don’t really know about you not being able to tell the truth. I'll help you talk. Would you like that?” I nodded.

“Would you actually do that for me? I mean I would love that! I'm not lying this time. I like your snake eye. I didn’t get to say that before.”

“Oh uh thanks. I can tell if you're lying anyway.” he said pointing at his eye. 

“That’s so cool!” I shook my head, “anyway, you want to go downstairs now? We can tell Patton first.” speak of the devil. Patton knocked on my door saying,”hey Finn. it’s 7:00- deceit? Why are you here?” then I was really confused. He sprung into action and screamed,”deceit?! Get away from him!” I was beyond confused and hid behind deceit.

“Patton he’s fine! He’s not hurting me,” I said. I cringed at my voice breaking. I was squeezing deceit really hard now. I felt like if I kept this up he might suffocate.

“Finn. I..need to..breathe.”

“What? Oh, sorry.”  I let him go but didn’t stop hiding.

“Shh it’s ok don’t cry.” welp, too late. Tears fell out of my eyes and deceit dragged me in front of him. of course now I can cry.

“It’ll be ok. Just breathe.” I gave a dry chuckle.

“What’s funny?” I started to laugh more.

“I don’t know.” I calmed down. At this point everyone had heard Patton scream and were witnessing this.  Deceit started to scratch my hair as I got lured to sleep. But alas, someone had to ruin it. 

“How could you trust him? He’s literally deceit.” I snapped my head up to see who would dare talk about deceit that way. Of course. It was roman.  

“Well actually roman he was going to help me. He’s so nice. A thing you don’t see. You want to know why? Because you don’t care roman! You're so selfish. Always thinking about yourself.” everyone’s eyes widen at my words. Not in a good way this time. 

“I'm sorry. It just slipped. He’s not bad. I just can’t have you talking about him like he’s not here,” I look to deceit.”you ok?” he looked at me, He didn’t look like his normal self. He looked really flabbergasted. He nodded. “Thank you,” he pulled me into a bone crushing hug.

“Yeah no problem buddy.” I said, patting his back. 

“Is he right? Do we make you look like the bad guy?''Patton's head was lowered but when he picked it up I could see snot and tears. “I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it.”

“Oh golly damn. Patton. It’s ok,” I got up and pulled Patton into a hug. He hugged back and cried into my shoulder. I know it  was fake but I couldn’t say anything.

“You did nothing patton. No one is at fault.” I start to rub circles into his back in a soothing motion. I felt him slump in my arms. “Golly damn I'm tired. All this emotion.” I said while tucking Patton in my bed. I really didn’t want him here, but I also didn’t want him getting mad. “When can I catch a break? This has been a weird day. Ok. I have to water Terrence, Jerry, Willoughby, and Jackson. I also have to feed Ethan.” I groaned and stretched, hitting someone in the face. I yelped and turned round. “Golly! I forgot you were here.” it got kind of awkward.Logan left and the rest followed him, all except deceit, who was sitting on the floor.

“Thank you. I just have more questions.” deceit said.

“Shoot.”

"Where did you get that snake? What's their name?" I smiled at his enthusiasm. He had to stop moving around so much or he would knock over some of my plants.

“His name is ethan. I conjured him up. I was getting lonely.” I said sheepishly.

“That’s ok. I'm going to go now. Get some rest.” I nod as he leaves. I water my plants and turn around to see Patton still in my bed. I sigh and lay down on the cold hard floor. I may have a carpet on the other side of the room but it’s the thinnest thing I own. It won’t do anything. I didn’t want to protect Patton from the many things that come into my room at night. My eyes closed into a restless sleep full of nightmares.

~Morning~

“Hey wake up,” I heard someone whisper as I got up from my slumber. I rub my eyes sitting up.

“Oh hi.” I said seeing Patton in front of my face. 

“Why did you sleep on the floor?” I just shrugged my shoulders. I rubbed my eyes more. My eyes start to hurt more so I stop. He looked at me weirdly.

    I saw him getting mad slowly so I braced myself for a slap or kick. Patton slapped me, right on cue.

“Use your words.” Patton hissed out.

“I- you were using my bed so I layed on the floor.” I said, holding my cheek. Patton sighed.

“Get ready and go downstairs.” I nodded and stood up.

I got ready by coaming my red, short hair into a swoop and getting some clothes on. I changed from my black pants, white button up and tie to a more simple, invader zim shirt with a pair of light grey jeans. (What I was wearing when typed)

When I went downstairs, everyone except Patton was shocked to see me in normal clothes. "And here I thought that you were going for the teacher's look. What's invader Zim?" I look at Virgil and shrug my shoulders.

"I just like dressing up more. And my back really likes sleeping on the floor." I said, lacing my words with sarcasm. 

"Ok! Time for breakfast. Everyone sit down please." Patton said after taking his respected seat, right at the head of the table. I take my seat at the right of Patton. Usually Roman would sit next to me but it seems like he wasn't coming down. 

"Where is Roman?" I ask.

"I don't know. Could you go fetch him for me?" Patton said smiling sickly at me. Something about the smile made my stomach twist.

New chapter. Idk what number.

I went upstairs to go get Roman. I hesitated before knocking on his door. I heard some sniffling but nothing else.

"Roman? It's Finn. May I come in?" 

"Uh… uh yeah. Come in, it's unlocked." I opened the door and saw something I don't want to see again. What I saw was a sob/crying Roman, laying on the floor. I fled right to his side.

"Oh golly Roman! Are you ok? What's wrong?" Worry clearly in my voice. I tried to keep quiet so the others wouldn't hear. 

“I don’t know.” he said after a long silence.

“Do you want to go for breakfast? Patton made it.” he shook his head at my words.

“I'm not hungry.” as he said that, his stomach rumbled. I shook my head and got the box of tissues on his desk. I grabbed one of the tissues [box now in the floor], and wiped Roman’s tears away.

Handing Roman a tissue, I said,”you’re nasty. Clean yourself up.” he nodded and grabbed it from me.

“Thanks finn.” I nodded and offered a hand to assist him in getting up. He grabbed it as I led him down the stairs. I stop at his doorway with his pale hand in mine. 

“Do you want to go to breakfast or go to the bathroom to not make you look high?” he let out a small laugh and pointed to the bathroom.

    After he did his business I went downstairs. He never let go of my hand. He said he didn’t want to be alone and holding my hand helped. All I said was just,“ok” [i'm going to collapse from exhaustion]. I didn’t really know what to do, he was just looking at me for a while. I started walking to the kitchen, breakfast was probably close to over. “Come on. I'll make you something if everyone is done.'' Just as I said, everyone was gone, probably in their rooms.

“So? What do you want?” he looked at me with a twinkle in his eyes.

"Pancakes and bacon!" I laughed at his enthusiasm.

"Ok man." I smiled and turned round to the stove. 

         While I was cooking, Roman was trying to guess what I was humming. I also whistled. 

"It was a trick man. It's all MCR.”i said smiling.

      I put two of the pancakes on a plate, along with three pieces of bacon. I placed the plate in front of him. He smiled at me as a thank you. I didn't have anything, I was just messing on my  phone. 

He got up and smiled at me. After clearing his throat he said,”hey finn?” I made a hum as a response. “Do you want to do something?” I looked at him and shrugged my shoulders. 

“I-” He was cut off by him just disappearing. I felt something tugging at me and the floor being pulled from my feet. I screamed and fell on my butt in front of thomas. Still screaming, I said,”yo op tf?” Logan looked confused and tilted his head while everyone else didn’t care. 

“Hey everyone! Me and roman have been talking and we got a video idea with Finn in it.” I shook my head no. I didn’t know what this meant but something told me that I didn’t have the choice. Something stopped me from shaking my head. Instead, I felt myself being completely still. I sighed. 

“You alright finn?” Roman said, bringing everyone’s attention to me.

“Yeah I'm fine.” deceit shook his head. 

“No you're not.” everyone [except me] didn’t like that deceit was here.

“I know.” I sighed. I was thankful someone noticed. I flashed a small smile at him. I looked at Thomas and said,”continue.” he hesitated and nodded.

So practically we were going to have a few lines and Thomas is going to say,”why do I even try?” or something like that. Then I show. I couldn’t do some of the lines. They were too impolite. I liked having manners, it made me sound smart. “Can’t I be nice?” I said, looking at thomas. He said “it didn’t match my character.” I was getting mad. I wanted to be nice. That’s just how I am. I'm nice..at times. “I’d like to be myself.” I said very forcefully. I looked in his eyes and he looked back. His eyes softened. “How do you think you should be?” I looked at him sternly and sat up straight, looking him in the eyes. He was intimidated, even afraid. 

“I think I should be like myself. Kind, sarcastic, a little flirty, and smart. Those are just the things that make me.” he nods. Thank you for the overwhelming feeling of dread. [note sarcasm]

    After he told me that he’ll try, I felt better. A little guilty, but better nonetheless.  

“Thank you Thomas. I’m very happy with your cooperation.“ he nodded and left.  

After Thomas left there was a long silence. Roman broke the silence by saying,”Damn Finn. you're scary.” I snickered. 

“Thanks Roman.” I was scary, wasn’t I? I never like being scary, it’s just something that comes naturally. I laugh slowly. I am scary aren’t I? Patton pulled me out of my thoughts.

“You alright kido?” Patton said with that tone of fake confidence. I turned to him and slowly picked my head up. 

“Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” he looked surprised. “I’m not getting the best vibes from you either.”

Patton chuckled nervously. “None of you actually seem sain to me.” Everyone was looking at me weirdly. I looked back to the floor, laughing. “You’re all in such denial. It’s so cute. You’re all saying you're ok. Such lies.  I feel the sadness and depression practically dripping from your words.” what was I saying? This wasn’t me. Sure, it is all true, they are barely sain. “You're all running around trying not to make anyone upset by lying. You’re all not doing ok. You don’t have to lie about it.” I saw deceit in the corner of my eye.

“Thank you.” I was confused as I looked to deceit. 

“What are you thankful for? I've done so much to win your distrust. WHY DO YOU LOVE ME!?” I was crying. Thankfully I could this time, cry always to make your point look more real and not a counterfeit. I did have no idea why these people are so nice. “YOU SHOULD HATE ME! I’VE DONE NOTHING TO MAKE YOU LIKE ME!” Nothing I've said was a lie. I had been having trouble with the others from day one. I was just making everyone uncomfortable and angry.  I knew this. Why am I so mad? I took a deep breath. Screaming never gets you anywhere in life. 

“Sorry, I-I need a second.” I stormed off to my room. 

When I got to my room, I was crying, sobbing. I couldn’t stop.

[A/N: i’m going to switch to 3 person limited, it’s going to be easier to express a breakdown that way.] 

FInn’s breath quickened as he tried to sit down. Ah yes, a perfect time for a breakdown. Finn could see the shadow of one of the people that he lived with [A/N: lmao almost wrote she. That wouldn’t be progresive. And i oop-]. As the figure came closer Finn started to whimper. “I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I’m sorry-'' Finn was cut off.

“Don’t be sorry. You didn’t express any falsehoods during your “meltdown”. Don’t feel bad,” Ah, Logan. Finn thought. 

“Now I wish I didn't say it.” He turned to Logan, tears in his eyes.

“You made some good comments, I think calling us cute was a little much but to each their own.” all of a sudden, a glass of champagne appeared in Finn’s hand. Finn raised it up and chugged. “Well, now I know to not give you that.'' Finn nodded his head, he didn't want to be an alcoholic, but the ‘drinking away your sorrows’ came with the package. Everything was so amplified. Sounds, negative thoughts, lies about feelings, and just overall addictions. They never helped anyone cope, Finn knew that. He was too smart for this. He just couldn’t help it. The things people around him do, they affect him physically and mentaly.

“I fall into bad habits more than normal people do. I can fall into a deppertion in a second. It doesn’t matter how mad or happy I am, I can just sprawl into a depletion episode. I know what you're going to ask next, what have you been doing? or something around there. I have been cutting, drinking, lying to myself, and throwing up food. You can’t really help it unless you watch me 24/7.'' Finn said everything like he had sent time alone to contemplate.

“Dinner!” Patton shouted from the kitchen.

“Coming” Finn shouted back.

    Everything was quiet and the air was thicc at dinner. Everyone was finishing up and as finn was going to say something, a fart noise came from around the corner. Finn looked up from his plate and looked at some man. He didn’t know who this guy was and no one seemed to notice him yet. “Why are you staring? Am I that hot?” that got everyone's attention.''The name Remus, how bout’ you?”[guess remus makes me go into first person] I smiled and stuck out my hand.

“Finn. I represent depression, what do you represent?”Remus shook my hand.

“Intrusive thoughts, though I much prefer the better creativity.” I shook

 my head.

“That’s not very nice. I think you guys would be equally as good.”

“Remus! The fuck did you run off to this time?” deceit said running down the stairs. “Oh hey finn” i smiled and waved. “Come on remus.” deceit said, grabbing Remus's hand.

“Can I hang out with you guys for a while? If you’re ok with it, of courses.” instead of a verbal answer, deceit grabbed my hand too and pulled me along. I waved to the others and yelled”I'll do the dishes tomorrow to make up for this, sorry.” Then I ran along to keep up with deceit.

“I really like this one Dee.” remus said with a sick smile. I just smiled back.

    “Were we going?” i said while looking around. The walls didn’t seem to exist and the paintings were all gory scenes. I stopped to look at a picture of a person hanging and cut wrists. “I like this one. Who makes these paintings?” remus’s hand shot up really quickly. 

“I really like art. This guy popped into my head one day and I was like,’cool’ so I painted it. Glad you like it.” I laughed.

“You really know your anatomy.  The cuts have a nice shade of red, going to pink and it’s just overall, really good.” he took it off the wall and handed it to me. I shook my head.

“I couldn’t, the wall seems to enjoy the painting, it might get lonely. I really do like it, I would feel guilty.” he thought for a minute and sunk down.

“No one exsept me has said they liked his art. Patton said it was too gory. Thanks for doing that for him” remus rose up behind me and put a hand on my shoulder. Remus pulled me into a hug. I pet his hair. He pulled away. 

“I'll find one for the wall, do you want to help make one?” I just nodded vigorously.

    After painting my masterpiece, it was late.

“I have to go. See you guys...soon.” They hugged me goodbye and I sunk into my room. I noticed all my plants were needing watering, so I did their daily care and went to my bed. When I went into the covers, I noticed the painting from earlier. I smiled and remembered to thank remus later. I fell to the darkness of sleep.

           When I woke, my nose was hit by the smell of pancakes and sausage. I got dressed and went down the stairs. “My, my, Patton, you’ve really outdone yourself this time.” he jumped and smiled at me.

“Thank you.” I smiled and set the table.

    After breakfast, we were all sumond.  I was starting to get used to the rushing air in my ears. The landing, however, not so much. I landed on my ass again. I was on a chair in the corner, that was my spot. “Did you need me for something, thomas?” I really just wanted to get back to my room, to be one with the shadows again.

“Yeah actually.” I noticed that we were all standing differently. Logan, Patton, Roman, Virgl all on one side and me, deceit, and remus on the other. Thomas was in the middle.  

“Before I answer your question, why are we all on different sides of the room?” Thomas looked pained. 

“Light sides,” he said pointing to Logan, Patton, Roman, and Virgl. And hesitated before saying,”dark sides” pointing to my side of the room.

“But Thomas, Finn isn’t a dark side.” I started laughing. Laughing turns to crying as I drop to my knees. I knew what this meant.

I then said,”am I not enough?” Thomas looked away, guilty. “You know what, no. senice i’m going to be called one,” I turned to deceit and Remus,”might as well be one.” I grabbed both of their hands and sank out.

I heard a quick,”no wait-” 

I looked at him and rose up, just a little.”Save it, I know you don’t care.” the tears kept barleing down my face. I sank down, fully this time.

    “Guess i’m staying with you guys.” i said, with a broken smile.  Remus looked excited to have me stay. Deceit looked confused.

“why pick us over them?” I chuckled. they have been seen as the bad guys all their lives.

“why would I want to hang out with the 'light sides'? they don't seem too good. I know they don't like me very much, I'm a disorder. they won't like me no matter what I do. I'll always just be depression.  the stupid boy who was too ubsorbed in his work to care about himself. Just a stupid fucking disorder.” i said, surprisingly keeping it together.

“So, what do you guys like to do round here?” i said, looking round. This house is a complete mess. “You know what, scratch that[i'm ready]. I’m just going to clean, this place is filthy.” deceit smiled sheepishly and pointed to remus.

“It’s his fault.”

“It is my fault! Come on Dee! While he’s cleaning, let's go look at the burning puppys!” I turned round and sighed, getting to work.

    The house was so bad, I had to literally get on hands and knees to clean the dang floor. When I was done, I noticed that it was round the time I usually had dinner. I started to cook. 

    “Boy’s! Dinner!” Remus was down the stairs in 2 seconds, literally barreling down them. Deceit had a more calm approach, calmly walking down the stairs, one step at a time. “Remus! Are you hurt?” i said, quickly going to him.

“Yeah i’m good. Anyway, you said food time?” I nodded and got them both a bowl of what I cooked, chile. 

“Hope you like it, i’m kinda out of practice.” deceit and remus sat down at the table while i set it and set the food down “dig in boys.'' I wasn’t really into eating, so I had a small bowl.

“Finn! This is great, not as good as some ass, but still pretty good. Can we keep him Dee?” deceit sighed. “Remember what we said, no kidnaping people. But if Finn wants to stay then he can,” deceit turned to me,”thank you for dinner.” I smiled at him. 

“It was no problem and remus,”he looked up at me,”I would love to stay.” Remus looked as if he was about to explode. 

“Dee we have another!” Remus said, pounding on the table while chanting,”one of us, one of us,” I chuckled. “And he listens to me! He’s not annoyed at all. This is the best outcome for a new side!”

“Yes remus, i know. This is great. Calm down a bit.” remus nodded in response. 

    I washed all the dishes and told the boys to go to bed. “Where are you going to sleep?”

“I’ll figure something out. I’ll probably crash on the couch. I have something to do tonight anyway.” I waved them off and sank down to Thomas's apartment. 

“Hey thomas.” he looked up at me and started to cry. I got up and sat on his bed and pulled into a hug.

“I’m sorry.” i said finally, breaking the silence. 

“Why are you sorry?”  

“You’re crying, I shouldn't have reacted like that.” he looked at me. 

“Why are you so nice? I literally segregated you from where you belong.” I shook my head.

“I belong there. I’m just a stupid and useless disorder after all!” I said, with a bold, shining smile on my face. “I’m just a waste of space so I get it.,” I put a hand on his shoulder,”don’t feel bad. I think the same thing. You hate me, I'm useless. Just face the facts. Anyway, I am a dark side. I take that title with pride. I’m going to my room to collect my garbage and Remus's beautiful painting. Auf Wiedersehen!” I said waving. Sinking down, I gave Thomas a bittersweet smile and left. 

    I went to my room and got some clothes, shoving them in a duffle bag. I put the bag over my shoulder and got my stuffed corgi and remus’ beautiful painting. I opened the door and looked behind me. This was the last time I would see this room. I went down the stairs to see Patton making cookies. 

“Bye patton. Can you say bye for me to the others?” he nodded and let me leave. 

    When I got to the dark mind palace, I felt at home. I saw the place where the painting was originally, and decided against putting it there. Getting to the couch, I saw that Remus was waiting for me.”welcome home.” I smiled. 

“I had to bring the painting back, I didn't want them to find it and destroy it.” he nodded and pulled out a blanket for me. “Thanks remus.” he was strangely quiet.

"Hey, you ok buddy?" I pulled him into a side hug. He just shrugged his shoulders. 

"I had a nightmare,"he said, looking at me,"I didn't want you to die, so I waited. But you're alive now."  Just then, everything seemed to turn wired. I turned to Remus to see him like a silhouette. He was a deep blue. I looked at my hands to see the same shade of blue in my hands, but as strings. I scooted to Remus and pulled up the corners of his mouth, since that's where the strings connected. His figure was now glowing a light green. I hummed and saw the strings going in two different directions. His mouth strings were a bright yellow, while the other pair that was connected to his eyes seemed a lighter shade of blue. I pulled up his eyelids, it looked like he was smiling. I started to get freaked out. I didn't know how I did this. The fear seemed to make my vision go back to normal. 

"Remus what the FUCK just happened?" 

"I don't know but now I'm like, really really happy." I looked down at my hands.

"Hey Remus, I know this is going to sound crazy but….I think I just made you happy." 

His eyes go wide. “Do you want me to wake up Deceit?” I nodded my head. This was bad. But why was it bad? I just made him happy. I started to panic and hyperventilate. 

I heard Deceit say,”so why did you wake me up?” Remus pointed to me on the floor. I started to focus on my breathing. “Can I touch you?” I quickly shook my head no. I got this. I tried the 4-7-8 method. Slowly but surely, I calmed myself down. I got up and brushed myself off. 

“Ok. I have made a discovery. I can make others happy. I have a theory that I can also make them sad. I have evidence. I don’t have physical proof and i don’t know how it happened. Anyway, all of a sudden, while I was talking to remus, he turned a really dark blue. I looked at my hands and they were blue but they were strings attached to remus. I- this is going to sound weird but, i pulled his mouth to a smile. He seemed to turn a light green, I saw a new string group but they were in his eyes, I pulled his eyes so it looked like he was smiling. Now he was a nice light yellow. Then I got really scared and then everything was normal but remus was smiling and was happy. Now, i don’t know how this happened, but i’m sure we can trigger it somehow. Can someone get sad or something? Like crying sad.”  I was surprised by how fast I rebounded. Deceit seemed shook but snapped out of it and walked to his room to walk back with some kind of stuffed spider. 

“This was Virgil's, it will be sure to make me cry.” i was worried.

“You don’t have to.” he then started to cry. The world then seemed to turn black around deceit’s blue silhouette. I caressed his cheek and did the same thing I did to remus. His figure was now a really bright yellow. I hugged him and everything went back to normal. I was getting really sad. I didn’t know why.  I pulled away and started to cry. 

“Ok, so it seems like, when i do this, i get the negative emotions and the person i do it to get happy. Ok I see.” 

“Is that why you’re crying?” I nodded and layed on the couch. 

“Tired.” I felt a blanket being draped on to me and heard deceit telling remus to go to bed.

    In the morning, I made breakfast and went to thomas. He was still asleep. It was 8 in the morning, so i decided it was ok to wake him.

“Thomas, wake your ass up.” he looked at me sleepy. He perked up.

“Why are you here?” 

“I have powers!”  he looked surprised. 

“What powers?” He said, slightly scared.

“I can make others happy but it affects me horribly!” He looks confused.

“I have powers, I can make sad people really sad or really happy. I think making people sad will make me happy but i know making people happy makes me sad. I will never make anyone sad, scout oath.” i said, half  rambling while holding up three fingers.

“You want breakfast?” i said after a long, uncomfortable silence.

“Yeah sure.” i got up really quickly and started to rummage through the cupboards. I found the pancake mix. It seems i’m making a lot of pancakes. 

“You ok with pancakes?” I scream at thomas.

“Sure!” Thomas responded in a normal voice as he walked into the room.

“Okie okie.” I look at the back of the box and read the directions. I got some milk and eggs. “You better be lucky I'm good at cooking.” he snickered and let me cook.

    When I was done, Thomas's plate had 10 pancakes and I had one. I put the syrup on the table after getting it out of the fridge and checking the expiration date.   I asked Thomas what he wanted to drink, he said water so I went to the kitchen. I got a glass and put water in it. I walked to the island where Thomas was and gave him the water. I sat down and put the napkin in my lap. Time seemed to freeze as I saw Thomas slowly turn blue. I did my thing and noticed that he was sad because I only had one pancake. When everything went back to normal, I explained.

“I’m just going to throw it up later. I'm just going to pick off your plate when you're done. I will also do your dishes.”

“You throw food up?!” I nodded. It was kinda normal to me now.

“It’s not that bad. I  don’t need food in the first place. I just feel drowsy or fatigued. I will use your restroom and clean after myself. I might just clean your whole apartment. Oh and don’t worry, i won’t throw anything out. I'm just going to staritin things up, dust. Things like that. I cleaned the whole dark side's mind palace yesterday and made dinner for them.  I like cooking and cleaning so it was a choice.” 

“You’re really nice.” i laughed.

“That’s how I can be so scary sometimes.” he shook his head and ate. 

    As promised, I threw up and cleaned the whole apartment. Thomas ate all of his pancakes, save for one. I packed it up. You never know. 

    “Thomas, i'm done!” He ran to the living room where I stood. 

“This looks great! Also, we're going to film today,”he looked at his watch,”right now.” on quie, everyone rose up. 

“Ah thomas, you finally listened to me when i told you to clean up!” Logan said, existed his host got something done.

“Actually, that was Finn.” I got out from behind Thomas and waved.

“I must be getting back, remus might have destroyed the place already. No harsh feelings. Bye!” i sank out to the couch in the mind scape.

 Everything was quite, too quiet. The house was clean, too clean. I was worried.  “You guys ok? Hello?” Remus then jumped from behind me. “AH!?” I shouted in fear. I saw it was just remus. He had Ethan's encosher in his hands. 

“While you were out, me and Dee made you a room!” Before I could reply, Remus was dragging me behind him to a door. “We almost got all your shit to this room.” he opened the door. “Welcome home finn.” i was so happy. They accepted me. 

“Thank you! I love it!” The room had a hardwood floor, gray carpet in the middle, bunkbed, bookshelf, and they had found all of my candles. I could see remus put the tank on a desk that I didn't notice before. I did a twirl in the doorway. I walked in and went to the bed. “Why the bunk?” I deadpanned. 

“Why, sleepovers of course. If you'll have us.”

“Remus, we need to finnish, Finn isn’t going to be out long,”he picked up a piece of paper. “We still need to get the plants.” he looked up and saw me. “Oh..this was supposed to be a surprise.”

“Sleepover!” I screamed. “If my room won’t affect you too much.” 

“If we are invited, it won’t hurt us. The room only makes us feel bad if we weren't invited or if we surprised you to so much of an extent.” I nodded slowly.

“Well, you’re always welcome.”i said it with so much genuine joy.

    After the sleepover, things went to normal. I kept waking Thomas up and making him breakfast and taking care of remus. Cleaning, cooking, taking care of a 30 year old that acts like a freaking toddler. It was just how it went. I wasn’t sleeping well, that I know. 

    If we go to where I am now, you can see that I'm laying on my bed, not sleeping for the fourth night in a row. All of a sudden I hear,”why aren’t you asleep yet?” I turn to see a shadow from my doorway. It was hard to see since it was dark.

“This is when the thoughts attack.” he nodded and sat on my bed, drinking some kind of coffee. “My name is finn. What bout’ you?” 

“Remy.” he responded. 

“Ok remy why do you care that i'm not sleeping?” he shook his head.

“I represent sleep, and well, babes you don’t like sleeping do you?”I turned on my side and groaned. 

“You make it seem as if i don’t try.” he sighed and handed me some pills.

“Take them. They’ll help you sleep, you will sleep through all of tomorrow though.” remy explained.

“Everything will be hell without me….you know what? Frick it.” I took the pills dry and layed down again. I felt Remy kiss my temple and leave.

[Remus’s POV in the morning]

I went to finn’s room. Usually he would be up by now, making breakfast and listening to me talk. 

“Hey finn. You alright?” I asked as I opened the door. Dirty thoughts came though until I saw Finn sleeping. I went over to him and tried to wake him up. “Finn, finn, finn, finn, FINN.” nothing. Deceit came in at some point to see me yelling finn’s name. 

“Remus, what’s wrong?” I could see that he was concerned.

“Oh nothing. Finn is sleeping and I'm bored. He won’t wake up either.”deceit’s eyes widened rushed to finn. He put two fingers to his neck.

“Ok. he’s not dead, just sleeping.” Dee took one last look and turned around. “He needs it, let him sleep. It seems we're on our own.” he shrugged and dragged me out the room. 

“Oh boo hoo. But you don’t listen to me like he does, snakey.” I whined. It was true, he didn’t listen to me. Finn on the other hand, did. He laughed with me and gave his opinion in a kind way. Dee just ignors me or tells me to fuck off. Finn also calms me down when I have a tamptrem. I sigh and go to Finn's bed and lay down with him. 

“What are you doing remus?” I stick out my tongue and snuggle under the covers.

“Laying down snakey.” Just then, Finn’s arms snake onto my waist. My mind starts to freak out as I lay back. “Look snakey, I'm the small spoon!” he frowned and turned away. 

    It had been an hour. I'm starting to get bored. I try to get up just to get pushed back down. Finn seems to still be asleep so I lay back down. 

“Hey Finn, are you still asleep?” I look over to see remy. 

“Did you make him keep sleeping? He’s not waking up.”

“Ah, I did do it. He wasn’t sleeping so I told him to and gave him some pills.” I was like ????. Finn just took some pills from someone he didn’t know? Though he knew better. 

“I'm just going to go. He’ll be out for the rest of the day. You k’ with staying with him?” i didn’t really care. I shut my eyes and let sleep take over. 

    After I open my eyes, Finn is still asleep. I roll out of the bed [literally] and make way for the kitchen. I saw deceit staring at a wall while sipping tea. “You alright?” the action made him jump. I walked over to the island. “Hey dee? Did you know it takes salt water 10 minutes to drown you?” he sucked in a breath and put his hands on my shoulders. I got kinda scared.

“Remus,” I sqeeked out a quite yeah while he said,”shut the fuck up, you rat.'' I felt tears prick my eyes and deceit seemed to notice. “Oh no i'm sorry.” he hugged me.

 I heard Finn from behind me say,”What did you do?” Dee's eyes widened. Finn was like my dad. An overprotective gay dad. 

“He told me to shut up!” i said, now crying. 

“Deceit sanders. You know how sensitive remus is to that. How dare you?” After not getting a response, Finn said,“Speak.” Dee's words seemed to get caught in his thought. Everyone knew not to wake Finn up and hurt Remus or he would be on your ass. 

“I-i uh. I don’t know what I wa-wasn’t thinking. You-you’re right.” finn growled. Dee was safe for now, but later, call the lawyer and Jesus because someone is going to hell. 

“Are you ok?” Finn said, checking me over for injuries. 

“Yeah, i'm good.” I responded. Finn frowned. 

“You know better. Your mental health is just as important as your physical. I know telling you to be silent hurts,”he turned to deceit. “Why did you think that was ok?” He kissed my forehead and stood up. Finn may have only been here for two weeks, but I was used to it.

“How could you have the audacity to say that to him?” Just then, behind Finn, the light sides showed up. Patton had a picnic basket and everyone else was confused.

[Finn’s POV~]

Just as I was yelling at deceit for saying that to my child, I heard someone clearing their throat. I turn around with an angry expression. Once I see the light sides, my expression grows into a bright smile. 

“What brings you guys to our little abode?” I said, still mad on the inside.

“Well Finn, we brought you and the dark sides some food. Also, why were you yelling at Deceit?” I shook my head and dodged the question. 

“How nice! Also by the way, I am a “dark” side.” I said with my fingers quoting. 

“You’re not a dark side Finn! You’re too nice to be one of them!” 

“You wouldn’t know nice if it hit you in the face! They have been the nicest people to me! Why do you hate them so much? They’re like family to me!” everyone was shocked by my words. I turned around and helped remus off the floor. I grabbed both of the dark ones hands. 

“They have done so much for me. What about you guys?” I came out of my anger to feel a sharp headache hit my skull. I winced at the pain and walked up to the stairs that branch off to everyone’s rooms and hesitated. “I'm sorry.” then walked up to my room. 

[deceit’s POV~] 

Finn was just yelling at me when the light sides appeared. After Finn said that we were his family, I felt good inside. I mean, it isn’t every day that someone calls you family. After being stuck in a trance, I go after Finn.

“Remus, entertain our guest while I help Finn. make sure they don’t leave because I want Finn to talk to them. Make them coffee or something.” he nodded while I ran up the stairs.

    When I get to Finn’s room, I knock on the door. 

“Come in.” I enter the room to see Finn on the bed with his snake. 

“Hey snakey.” i don’t know if he was talking to me or the snake, but I sat on the bed anyway. 

“Are you doing ok?” I asked. I’m getting concerned, even more so when he starts to giggle. 

“Yeah, it just saddens me when they tell you guys off, you can’t help that you represent lying. Same for remus. He can’t control his thoughts. I think he’s great, just demented.” everything that he said in that moment made me so glad that he noticed. These were the things I've been trying to prove for so long. 

“Let's go back downstairs. I know that’s why you came up here. I won’t let them hurt us anymore.” 

    [Finn’s POV] 

I grabbed deceit’s hand and we went downstairs. 

When I got down the stairs, I saw everyone in a circle on the floor.

“I got them to calm down! Are you proud of me?” he asked while handing me some coffee. I could taste some salt in it but that’s ok. I was glad he was trying.

“Of course buddy,” I ruffled his hair and sat on the floor right next to remus and virgil. “What are we talking about?” 

“Finn… you’re such a dad.” roman said, across from me. 

“Someone has to be, they act like such children sometimes,” I looked at Remus who was pouting. Panicky, I said,”joke, it was a joke!” I took a deep breath.

“So why have you come to our house again?” I noticed deceit standing behind me. I dragged him down to lay his head on my lap. 

“Oh..we just wanted to give you guys some food. Peace offering.” I nodded and ran my fingers through deceit’s hair and felt Remus lay his head on my shoulder.

“Oh ok! But I know your real intentions. I won’t be joining the light sides,” I paused for a moment to breathe and continued. “Also, if you so much as touch my children, you won’t be able to breathe for the rest of your life. Capeesh?” Everyone nodded, exsept patton.  

“Why didn’t you nod patton?” he looked scared. 

“U-uh you know what? No! You can’t leave us like that and be goody-goody with the dark sides! The dark sides don’t deserve your love. We accept you, Finn. They're just pretending to like you and tolerate you.” I tapped deceit and told him to get off of me for a second, did the same to Remus, and stood up. Putting the half drank coffee down, I calmly walked over to Patton. I then slapped Patton, on the face, as hard as I could. It felt so good for him to get a taste of his own medicine.

“I can do what I want. I’m also rather offended that you would say that to me.” I glared daggers at patton and sat back down in the same position as before. Deceit and Remus did the same.

“Anyone eles have something to say about my fucking family?” everyone said no, even patton.

“Good. now leave my house.” everyone except the darker ones sunk out.

“Sorry to go but it is still 10:00 am and I need to go to Thomas.” I sank out, not giving anyone time to speak.

    I appeared in front of Thomas, he was surprised, to say the least. 

“Good you’re alone. Ok, I’m going to tell you something and you have to promise that you won’t get mad.” he nodded, confused. “I slapped Patton.”

“What? Why?” I winsed at how stupid my host really was.

“He was trying to get me to join the light sides again. He was also asked how I could leave them blah blah blah. It gets annoying when someone keeps insulting your family.”

“Insulting your family?” Thomas said. Of course he thinks Patton is the best.

“Thomas, you are really naive. Patton, isn’t the sweet angel you thought he was. Patton was saying that they don’t love, they just tolerate me for pity.” I started to tear up,remembering the conversation. 

Full on crying, I said again,”he said they don’t love me.” I was sobbing and turned from looking at the floor to looking at Thomas. “Do they love me thomas?” the pure desperation in my voice made me feel weak.

[thomas POV~]

Seeing my depression break down right in front of me was a first. I've only seen him at his strongest. The desperation was clear in his voice and it made me scared. I know the dark sides love him, the words just got caught in my throat.  

    I looked at Finn when I collected myself. He was still looking at me, staring. 

“They do love you, of course they do.” he looked me in the eyes, searching for something, his gaze kind of burned through my head. I focused on him again and saw he was looking past me. I turn around to see Patton. I hear Finn sobbing behind me get louder. 

“Hello Finn. Did you come here to warn Thomas about me? You know he will never believe you,” I didn’t miss Patton coming round me and whispering,”slut.” into his ears. Finn started to cry harder, having heard patton. “Do you thomas?” Patton’s smile seemed to be sickly instead of friendly. 

“O-of course I believe him.” Patton frowned at me and scoffed.

“Has he been filling your head with lies?” Patton grabbed Finn’s jaw tightly, making him look at Patton.  Finn flinched and nodded.

“Of course Patton, I’m sorry, it won’t happen again.” Patton’s grip tightened, then let Finn’s go. 

“Will it happen again? You know I hate hurting you, well, tell Thomas you lied to him, pet.” He turned to me, gaze hollow. 

“I lied.” his voice monotone. “I always lie.” his face was devoid of all emotion. 

“See love? Was that so hard?” Finn shook his head and looked at Patton with a dead look.

“I’m sorry.” I could see the tears in Finn’s  eyes, and so did patton. 

“You know what I said about crying, you’re not allowed to cry.” Finn was visibly shaking.

“Yes, of course patton.” Finn’s voice seemed to echo around the room as he spoke. I seemed to be stuck in time, while this was happening. Patton slapped Finn and sunk out. 

 Finn sat there for a minute, and looked at me.

“Goodbye thomas.” he then disappeared. I was surprised when his voice echoed and lingered for a minute. 

[Finn’s POV]

I rose up in the dark boi’s™ house and walked through the main entrance. This was one of the only times that I went outside. I didn’t really feel anything, I’m depression, I’m not supposed to feel anything. 

    I walked up to the front door and knocked. Remus opened the door and pulled me inside. 

“Dee! He’s hollow again.” I saw deceit run into the room, not like I care. 

“I’m...fine, Remus.” My voice monotone, and echoey as it bounced off the walls. 

“Hey Finn?” I turn to deceit and make him flinch by looking at me.

“Yes deceit?” my voice was sharp, my head clear.

“You know it’s ok to feel. Did you and Patton talk again?” he laid a hand on my cheek. I learned into the touch, just to pull back.

“He showed me what I was..doing wrong.” I could hear the concern lacing deceit’s voice, and didn’t care for it. Of course I was doing something wrong, I always do.

“No he wasn’t, he’s lying. You should know that of all people.” he pulled me into an embrace. I sat there, limp on my deceitful child.

“Remus, he’s not listening to me.” Deceit said.

“Let me try. Hey finn, do you want to bake something? Do you want to watch TV?” I shook my head.

“I don’t want to do anything.” I looked up and Deceit and Remus, consern and pity, cleared their faces.

“This is concerning. Ok we know Emile is on our side, maybe he can help us.” I could hear that Deceit was desperate though the sound of his voice.

“Ok, ok, ok. Yes. Summon him.” Remus demanded, I could hear that he was mad. I hate mad people, I hate that I made Remus mad.

“What’s going on?” I could hear Dr. Picani’s soft voice cut through the tension in the room.

“Patton.” Remus said, pointing at me.

“Hello Dr.” I said, looking up. Doc seemed to be surprised when my voice echoed but soon ignored it to focus on me.

“Hey Finn. Did Patton do something again?” he said, slowly walking towards me.

“He didn’t do anything Doc. Just showed me the ill of my way.” I said, simply stating fact.

"Hey, you know what we talked about. He isn't showing you anything good. He's destructive." He pulled me into a hug. I slowly hugged him back and melted into his touch. I still didn't let the tears flow. 

"It's progress." I looked into his eyes, it was apparent that I wasn't allowed to not feel. 

"But doc... Patton said I wasn't supposed to  feel he said I was supposed to be empty.-” Doc was quick to cut me off.

"He lied. Did he hurt you again?" I felt hollow. Patton said I was bad, I needed to have some help. Patton….Patton wouldn't lie. Would he? 

"He slapped me." I said and then immediately added," did Patton lie?" Doc nodded and hugged me again. I could never tell him that I didn't really like to be touched. I hugged him back again and started to cry. 

            Of course, I have talked to Doc about this before. I didn't like it before, I didn't think it was alright. Why was this time different? Why was this wrong? Patton was just telling me what I was doing wrong. Nothing wrong about that. 

"Is he ok now?" I heard Remus ask. 

"For now." Doc sighed. 

"I'm sorry if I'm annoying." I said, sniffling. I was such a nuisance. 

"You're not a nuisance." I shook my head and snuggled into Doc. 

"Wasn't today your day off? Didn't I ruin that?" I always kept close on people's schedules so I could see them when it's most convenient for them.

"It's ok. Everything was getting boring. I was wondering about you anyway. We haven't had a session in weeks!" I winsed. I haven't really been on top of my mental state of late. 

"Ah it's ok! I just missed you. It's nothing to get emotional about." 

"Right, right. No emotions. Just calm. Right Patton?" I smiled at the wall and then dropped it when I realized where I was. 

"Sorry." Deceit came into the room and handed me a glass of water. 

"I didn't feed my snake yesterday." Doc shook his head. 

"It's ok. We don't have to think about that right now.” I nodded and layed on the couch. 

“It’s just...it’s hard. Y’know?” I said, completely forgetting about my fancy dialect.

“Mhm. maybye. You should talk about this with remus and deceit. They love and care for you. You know that, right?” I nod my head. Why would I doubt that?

I sigh,”I will admit, you’re a lot nicer than patton.” he gave a hearty chuckle.

“I need to get back to my house. Take care of yourself, ok?” I nod.

“Thanks for helping me doc.” I said sincerely. 

“No problem. Remember, you’re not a nuisance. Talk about it.” I nod at him and he leaves.

“You doin ok?” I heard remus say from the other side of the couch. 

“Eh. more or less. I'm depression after all.” He nodded and came to my side of the couch and snuggled into my side. I see we’re spooning and I’m trapped. 

Deceit entered the room and sat on the floor below Remus and I. 

“Are you doing ok?” I nodded and saw that he was turned away from me.

“I’m ok.” I said.

“I’d hope so. Seeing you come home like that is scary. All hollow and voice echoing. Scary shit man.” I snuggle back into remus aggressively and mubble an apologie.

“No need to be sorry. I know these things happen.” Remus says, fingers running through my hair.

“You know what Remus? Tell me a fact.” I said in a demanding tone. “Please.” came off softer and less aggressive.

“Gladly. A cell phone has eighteen times the amount of germs than a public toilet.” I nodded and laughed. Of course our host and all of us have one, and it makes me laugh that even though we know how dirty they are, we still use our phones.

“Love it. Hey remus.” he hummed in response. I held Deceit’s hand and said,”don’t change.” I heard a sniffing sound from behind me. I tried my best to see Remus and if something was wrong. Remus pulled me into a death grip. I felt my shirt dampen as I layed on my back to comfort Remus. 

“What’s wrong baby?” I asked remus in a soft way

“Nothing. I’m just surprised. God. it’s been forever since I have heard a compliment.” I gave deceit’s hand a little squeeze and let it go so I can put it on remus’s face. It didn’t go unnoticed that he embraced my hand. His arm has loosened on my hip so I turn to him completely.

“Remus. You know I love you. I’m mama bear. What mom in their right mind would hate their child?” I wiped remus’s tears with my thumb. “You’re just creative with what you say. There is nothing wrong with that...remus.” he looked into my eyes,”you’re perfect.” he cried harder and grabbed me. He picked me up and twirled me around the room, laughing. 

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You're welcome. That was months of work so yeah. Bye bye now.