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“Whoa buddy, you’re getting strong. Don’t drop me please.” I smiled and ruffled his hair. Remus pulled me into a bear hug and dragged deceit into the hug too.

    I sigh. That was a month ago. That was when I was happy. Before Patton took over. 

We were happy. We were one happy family. I finally got Remus happy, Deceit to talk about his feelings, everything was amazing. Even I was happy. It just all seems so distant now. You’d be surprised how much things can change in a month.  Patton spread his abuse. First it was Deceit. I didn’t notice because he’s a master liar. I did, however, notice that he wasn’t himself but when I asked he just pushed me away.

Second was Remus. I noticed right away with him. He couldn’t lie for his soul. So when he’s quiet all day and doesn’t talk to me, I know something’s wrong. I remember that one day when he was curled up in his bed. He wouldn’t respond to me when I tried to talk to him. I felt like I did something wrong until I noticed that deceit became more cuddly and didn't want to go to his room. I also saw that Patton didn’t really come to me anymore to blow off some steam. 

Third was roman. I knew his pride was fragile and needed constant reassurance. So when Roman came to me limping and crying, I was more than concerned. I still hear him sobbing sometimes. 

Fourth was Virgil. He would always come down to talk to me about his anxiety once a week so when he came with a black eye and a bloody nose I rushed to his side. I still think about how he cried to me about Patton punching him and calling him things I don’t even want to repeat. 

The last was Logan. When he came to me, he seemed fine, kinda off, but fine all the same. I dragged him into the dark sides mind palace and asked why he was here. He just sat there and stared at me. I still feel the raw emotion he gave off when he hugged me. 

Everything was crashing down on me. No one was able to do their respected jobs, I mean, Patton could but I think he enjoyed watching me run round both mind palaces, completing the jobs of my friends who seemed to be virtually empty.

It all went to hell when Thomas summoned me. He said that everyone wasn’t really doing a good job and I just started to silently cry as I finished some work for deceit. The work never ended.

“Are you ok? Everyone seems to not be giving in much effort of late.” I just sat there crying. I don’t think it made it better when he noticed that I had a piece of clothing from everyone on. Their clothes made the job easier to do as some of the items I was wearing gave me the ability to connect to Thomas. I was wearing one of Logan's ties, Virgil's old hoodie round my shoulders, a red sash that cuts into green, and deceit’s hat.

“I don’t have the time right now Thomas. I’m really trying, if I keep doing all this work, you can function like a normal human being.” I turn up to Thomas who looks surprised.  

“I-it’s fine. It doesn’t matter how I feel. I just need to get this done so you can live. Nothing else matters right now.” he tried to put a hand on my shoulder which I flinched away from. I watched Thomas frown.  

“What do you need? Some metal dilemma? I-I can squeeze in some time for that. Shouldn’t you be having lunch for your mom?” I heard the voices of my friends in my head. 

(Maybe you should give up)

(This isn't worth it)

(What does Thomas do for you?)

(Let's give up and sleep)

“Shut up!” I scream. I look up to Thomas who looks terrified. 

“No no no! Don’t be scared. I just had to take up all the jobs from my comrades. The work never ends. I didn’t know how much work goes into making sure you’re breathing. Sorry if you’re not feeling as anxious as usual. Virgil’s job is really difficult. I can’t get a second to do anything right now.” I say, scribing down the lies that everyone was telling themselves right now for deceit. 

“When was the last time you slept?” Thomas asked. I stopped everything to think. 

“I-I don’t know. Everyone’s job is really hard. I have to keep going. I can’t st-stop now.” he shook his head and took deceit’s hat off. I could feel the wait of every lie come off me. I hummed in satisfaction. He pulled virgil’s hoodie off. I started to feel calm again. He started to pull off logic’s tie off when I stopped him. 

“You could literally stop breathing if I take this off.” every fiber of my being in that moment told me to rest, to take it off. I gripped the sash and tie tightly, not taking them off. 

“I can’t take them off, I have a job to do.” I thought for a minute,”like a creative thought.” I said impersonating Roman perfectly. 

“Perhaps some logically thinking about a deadline coming up.” my impersonation of Logan just slipped out.

 “Maybe you want to talk about your feelings about your anxiety but are too ashamed by the social appearance of men so you don’t want to be called soft or a simp.” it wasn’t hard to do virgil’s voice flawlessly.

 “Maybe you need to lie to someone and don’t have any ideas. I can help with that.” I made deceit’s voice soft like when he talked to me. 

“Maybe you need an idea that’s more adult.” I put a hand on Thomas's shoulder while talking like remus.

“Or you want to be a while b-hole and want to watch depression run round and do everyone’s job.” I didn’t even  bother to change my voice for patton. 

“Or maybe you need to talk to me about some complex feelings. I’ll always be here for you. I may be your depression, and I'm bad at it, but I still love you. In a platonic way.” I took away all of the clothes and put them back on. The responsibility crashed down on my shoulders as soon as everything was applied. 

“I’m...I’m sorry thomas. I have jobs to do.” I saw the guilt swallowing him whole.

[thomas’s pov~]

I swallowed. I felt a twinge of motivation but ignored it. I went after Finn, sinking out of my apartment, and to my mind scape. I saw Finn rushing round the house in a panic. I look all over and see Patton on the couch, smirking at Finn’s petite figure running round the house trying to get everyone's job done. [I’m not short but I am shorter than Thomas] I walk up to finn. 

“What do you need? I need to start doing rounds.” I was about to speak when I saw Finn looking at something else. I saw Virgil walking down the stairs. I turned back to Finn just as he was rushing to him.

“Hey baby. Why are you up? Are you hungry? Thirsty?” Virgil didn’t speak but Finn pulled him into a hug. When Finn let go of vigil, he dragged him to the island. I then heard Finn scream,”DINNER.” Patton goes to his room, but not without tripping Roman down the stairs which Finn rushed over and pulled him up. I shot a glare at Patton and walked to the island. 

“Everyone’s eating. If you like it or not.” I heard everyone groan. 

“Ah Thomas! Are you joining us?” I nodded. I hadn’t eaten so why not. 

“Everyone sit. It'll be done shortly. Please talk to each other without arguing.” Finn then plated six dishes and served us. I look at my sides and just see hollow shells of what they used to be. The only person that looked normal was Finn, who wasn’t eating.

“How was today Roman?” I noticed roman flinching. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.” he quickly added. 

“I-it wasn’t a good d-day. My nose hurts.” Finn listened closely.

“I'll take a look when everything is off that plate. You do look great today!" Roman nodded. 

“Logan,” Logan looked up at him. “How about you? How was your day?” Logan just shook his head and stretched his arm to Finn’s. Finn grabbed his hand and traced circles into it. 

“Not so good? It’s ok. You can talk to me when you feel comfortable.” Logan nodded and Finn put Logan’s hand on a stress ball that he got from his pocket.  

“Virgil? Are you ok to talk right now?” virgil nodded and looked Finn in the eye. 

“It’s ok right now. I just feel bad that you’re doing our jobs.” I saw a tear fall down Finn's face but was wiped away quickly and was replaced with a small smile. 

“It’s ok. I don’t mind.” Virgil nodded and started to eat.

“Remus, how about you?” Finn handed remus a stress ball. 

“It’s bad. Really bad. But I think it’s passing. Everything is just bad. Can I have a hug?” Finn got up and walked to remus, asked permission, and hugged my creativity. He released Remus and walked back to his chair. 

“Learn anything new today?” Finn asked remus. He picked up and said yeah but he’ll tell finn later. 

“Dee. how was today? Good, empty, or bad?” deceit put his thumb up and pointed it sideways.

“Do you need anything?” deceit shook his head no and ate. 

“Thomas, anything happened today?” I shook my head. 

“Ok that’s fine. Can you go to bed after this? Cuz’ I need to do the dishes and it’s easier to keep you breathing and give you a dream. Do you want a dream tonight?” I’ve never been asked if I wanted a dream before. 

“Uh. Sure?”  he nodded and closed his eyes. He looked so concentrated I thought he might poop himself. All of a sudden, all of the dishes disappeared and were clean and put away. 

“Wow. that was cool.” Finn nodded. 

"I'm tired." He said quickly before he fell on his face asleep.

"Maybe I should do that too." And just as I said that my eyes closed and my body relaxed.

[Finn’s pov and dream time]

I didn’t have any ideas for a dream so I just conjoined me and thomas’ dream. 

“Hey thomas!” I greeted him. We were in a pitch black room with a table.  

“Oh hey. You look like yourself now” Looking at myself, all I saw was a grey turtleneck sweater and black pants. 

“Well, this is a dream. We can talk if you want. But let’s sit first.” I pulled out thomas’ chair and sat him down. I sat down at the other side of the table. 

“I would like to know what is going on.” I nodded and started to explain. 

“Well, Patton has changed. Not in a good way. He decided that I wasn’t fun anymore. You’d think this is a good thing but he started to go after the others. As you have seen, they are not themselves. The best I can do is do their jobs and help them the best I can. Most of them don’t want to talk. Virgil panics when anyone touches him except for me, Logan gets mad when you say he has emotions, Roman’s pride is too bruised, Remus will only talk to me; dinner was the first time he’s talked out loud in a while, Deceit won’t talk at all and tries to rip out his scales, and Patton continues to hurt everyone. I can’t get to remy or doc for some reason and my sanity is being plucked away from me. This is the first time I have slept in a while.” I said everything that has happened this month.

“Why can't they do their jobs?” I look at him weird

“Thomas, they each showed up at my door. One by one, I watched my friends cry and latch on to me desperately. They can’t take care of themselves anymore, how do you think they can take care of you? I know I'm doing a bad job, I'm trying. I really am. The only times I sleep are filled with thoughts about everyone coming to me. The only time I get a break from working is to cook and clean. I can only do this for so long. I’m going to crack eventually. They can barely eat, I can’t sit round and watch them die slowly like this.” I start to cry. “None of us can do this anymore.” Thomas is just silent. 

“It’s just hard. Patton won’t leave them alone and it makes them worse. The only thing that’s good that’s been happening is that I haven't cut. That’s it. I’m not eating and I'm just so exhausted.” I feel like I'm being woken up, shaken round. “Someone needs me. Have a good dream from the stockpile.” 

[out of dream]

I open my eyes to see remus. 

“Hey buddy. What’s wrong?” he makes a sigh that means hug. I wrap my arms around him. 

“Why are you crying?” Remus asks in a small voice. 

“Oh..that. I'm fine, just a little shaken up.” I look at my alarm clock. 

“Thomas is going to be asleep for a little longer. Did you want to talk?” he shook his head and took my hand. Remus quickly took my hand and went downstairs to the living room. I look around to see everyone sitting on the couch. Remus taps my shoulder and signals me to bend down. 

“We all talked and thought that you needed a break so we put together a movie night. Patton’s here too. Said something about being sorry. I don’t trust him. None of us do. We just put together a fun little movie night. I made the popcorn without burning it.” I smile at remus and pat his head. 

“Good job man,” I  turn to the others,”thanks for putting this together.” 

    During the first movie, Logan took his tie back and put it on. He also sits right next to me.

While sitting back down from putting on the next movie, Virgil took back his hoodie and also sat down next to me. 

While voting for the next movie roman took the sash and broke it in two. He gave me the green one with a strong smile and put on his red one. He leaned his head on my right knee in front of logan.

Deceit paused the movie that was playing and took off his glove. 

“To finalise me becoming deceit again, i would like you all to know my name.” dee took a deep breath in,”my name is Janus.” I blinked.

“Janus. Well, I for one, love it. Welcome to the family Janus.'' I said as Jan took his hat and laid his head in my lap. I heard Roman snicker. I turn to look at him. 

“What’s so funny Ro?” we didn’t need this right now.

“Janus? What are you? Some middle school librarian?” it took everything to not slap roman right now. 

“Roman. How would you like it if I insulted your name? You’d be offended, right? So please. Shut up. We don’t need this right now.” I feel insulted that he would say that about Jan. 

“I think Janus is a nice name, rolls off the tongue.” I said running my fingers through Janus’ hair.

“Is it ok if I call you Jan or Jani?” Janus smiled up at me.

“I don’t mind.” I smiled back, I would deal with Roman later.

Remus didn’t take back his job tonight.

    Roman was always a tough cookie, he didn’t like his brother, I don't think he was particularly fond of me, and he was quick to judge. He wasn’t all bad but you had to get to know him first to see that. But what struck me as strange is that he only said anything negative about Janus’ name. I've been told stories of before, stories that hide things in the little details.  I was always a person to listen. 

    Roman had it coming. No, I didn't kill him. That would sadden Remus too much. I did however, make sure he would never say anything mean again. And no, I didn't hurt Roman in any way. I just sat him down and talked it out. I tried to get him to apologize to Janus, but to no avail, Roman had always been persistent. 

    Creativity is making me mad. After Patton apologized, he just turned into what Patton was. He’s so frustrating. I want to rip my hair out.

    Everyone was weary of patton for a while.  Evidently, he felt guilty and was mad at himself for doing that. Course, that sprouted an argument but he’s on thin ice. Creativity is still being an ass to janus.

    I don't like he can be like this and be excused by the others. He did something wrong. He should have to pay, and he will. In the words of Thomas,"karma's a very fair person." It'll catch up with him one day, trust you me...that day will come sooner than you think.

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That took a while huh? Almost 3,000 words this time.