Mubin chewed his lips as he innocently stood still hearing Farrah and the guard man conversing..

"Their's an emergency in the hospital and am a doctor I really need to be there,Mubin is going to escort me and yes please don't tell his parents because we didn't tell them as it is already midnight and we shouldn't disturb their sleep right?,we will be back in maybe an hour or two so please do us a favor and open the door when we knock after we come back okay":Farrah explained as innocent as she could and also with the emergency look on her face..

"Okay Madam":he said opening the door for them..

"But Sir why don't you take a car":he advised..

"No their is no need for that thanks":Farrah jumped in as they walked out..

They went out and Farrah heaved a sigh of relief as she punch Mubin's shoulder lightly..

"See it wasn't that hard to act":she said proudly..

"You lied":he stated..

"Nop it was the truth,don't forget that you are my patient":she said smiling broadly..

Farrah looked at the empty street with the street lights on..

"Mubi it is a free world for us today,we can do whatever we like":she said jumping on the empty street..

"For now we should find a suitable place and I know right,their is a place that I know which have many flowers with a swimming pool at the other side well I think we should go there,I know the guard man so am sure he will let us in":she said smiling..

"You came out all prepared huh?":Mubin said with amusement etched in his voice and Farrah laughed out loud making her laughter echo in the silent streets of Adamawa..

"Yes I did":she answered..

"It is five minutes away":she said smiling..

Mubin just followed her keeping quite,he had alot going on his mind,it has been years but he feels like if he doesn't let it out today then his heart will burst..

Farrah was also silent enjoying the walk,every second she will look at their entwined hands then to the handsome face of Mubin and admire His handsomeness,she didn't know what is going on her head but she is not gonna let it stop because whatever it is she was enjoying it..

"My father Rafiq Talaq was a successful business man,who started from a little business to a big one,success after success then after becoming super rich he decided to search for love and he found my mom Hadiza Abdulkarim,she was from a middle class family and like every other love couple they met randomly then fell in love and got married,they were the cutest couples I have ever known,they loved each other so much,they gave birth to me after two years of marriage and can you imagine they always loved the name Mubin so they decided to name me that,Mama used to call me Bin Bin and Baba used to call me Mu Mu,I hated the name at first because I thought he was calling me Mumu and I will always say Baba am so cute and you are calling me mumu,I loved my parents bond,Mama will always hug Baba when he comes back from work,they will solve a problem quietly,they understand each other so much":he said smiling broadly..

Farrah also smiled at story,it is such a cute one but she is afraid of where it is heading to,she squeezed Mubin's hand affectionately and by Allah Mubin liked no loved the gesture..

"I was 5 years old when Mama gave birth to a baby girl and she was named Mufeedah, I have always been her favorite as she grew up,when am going to school I have to keep hiding so that she will not follow me,we will always play together,ride on our bicycles and so on,Mufeedah tends to get sick occasionally,I don't know what was specifically wrong with her but she is always sick,when she was two she got so sick and she was admitted in the hispital, I used to cry at one corner every time I see how my 2 year old sister is suffering,I was 7 at that time,I loved Mufeedah so much because she was so jovial and loved playing,she loved giggling and small things made her happy,she was discharged and I was so happy even though she was less active and she had become skinny,she was a very chubby girl before,One day when I went to school and after coming back I found Mufeedah lying lifelessly well she was lifeless,Mufeedah was dead,I lost my two yet old sister":his voice broke down at the end and he clutched his eyes closed..

Farrah had tears in her eyes,the fondness he used in referring to his sister made her feel the pain of losing her..

"She was so cute and bubbly":he said smiling..

"Sometimes I used to wonder how my life would have been had it been she didn't die":he said chuckling sadly..

Farrah looked at the gate of the green paradise park..

"Mubi we are here,I will talk to the guard man and come back":she said and he nodded his head..

Mubin stood their remembering his memories with Mufeedah and his parents as a smile carve on his lips..

"Good day Malam Nura":Farrah said smiling..

"Farrah am what are you doing here late at night?":the old man asked in his sleepy voice..

"Am so sorry for disturbing you but we want to have a night picnic with my friend,today is his birthday and am fulfilling his wish,so we will like to use the swimming pool side if you don't mind":she stated and the old man gave her a puzzled look..

"Farrah this is against the rules,I don't want to lose my job":he said smiling apologetically..

"Malam Nura please let us in,no one will know that we came because we will leave in an hour or two":Farrah said with puppy eyes..

"Okay Farrah because it is you":he said after two minutes of thinking..

"Thank you so much,I will forever be indebted to you for this,May God bless you and fulfill all your needs":she said happily and scrambled to where Mubin was standing..

"Let's go":she said getting a hold of his hand as she dragged him in not before thanking Malam Nura again and letting Mubin exchange pleasantries with him..

They went to the swimming pool area and she spread the big scarf as she sat down and Mubin did too and all of them were silent..

They were silent for more than 10 minutes that Farrah nearly thought he wasn't going to talk again..

"Mama and Baba were so sad after her dead but I think it affected me also because she was like my best friend inside the house,after her dead Mama never gave birth again I don't know why but I was the only one with no sibling":he said keeping quite again..

"I was 9 years old, I got into primary four feeling like a big boy,all my friends were mostly 13 years old or 12 years old,they have all been repeating the class,they made me pick interest in riding horses and my parents didn't like the idea,Baba even promised to buy a horse for me when I get into Jss 1 but I couldn't wait,my friends started telling me to steal money from my dad's wallet so that I can give it and ride a horse and that was what I did,I started getting used to doing it and my parents found out,that day I received the beating of my life,punishment after punishment but still I didn't stop":he said with a hard face..

"That faithful dark Sunday we had a horse riding competition and after coming back I met my parents furious faces in the parlor":he said closing his eyes tightly..

"Mubi don't force yourself to say it out,say it when you are ready":Farrah said seeing the way he was opening and closing his eyes..

"It is now or never":he replied..

"Baba was hot tempered so he grabbed me and slapped me so hard on my face,he went to his room and got his gun saying that he is going to kill me because am following bad aids,Baba wasn't in his senses at all so he shot the gun and I missed the bullet,Mama hurried to the room and carry the other gun and came out with it..

"Rafiq keep the gun down":Halima said pointing a gun at him also..

Halima knows that her husband can kill there son in anger because he is clouded by rage now..

"You don't even know how to shoot Halima":Rafiq replied unbothered..

Mubin stood there with his eyes bulged as tears roll down his cheeks,he couldn't believe that he was the reason behind all this..

"Baba I will never do it again,am so sorry":he said truthfully..

"That has always been your line":Ragiq said laughing humorlessly..

"Rafiq don't do something you will regret later":Halima said sobbing..

Rafiq raised his gun aiming at Mubin to shoot him..

Mubin stood there rooted to the spot he was standing..

Halima raised her gun also and before she knew what was happening she have shot her husband Rafiq..

My mom was terrified after that,she stood there for what felt like hours,I sprinted to my father who was lying lifelessly with tears in my eyes..

"I forgive you both":Rafiq said before saying his kalimatush shadah..

My mom regretted ever carrying that gun she kept on repeating this words "I killed my husband" she was on the verge of going crazy,the doctors were called and when they came Baba was already dead"

"I was the reason behind everything,I was the reason why my mom killed my dad,am such a bad son":Mubin said sobbing..

Farrah's mouth was hang open and her hand has flung to her mouth,her eyes have bulged their sockets out,tears were rolling down her eyes,she took a minute to process that Mubin was crying with shoulders slumped,he was crying with his body shaking furiously as tears roll down his eyes..

"Mom was feeling guilty for what she did,she was saying crazy things,she kept on asking me "Mubin he is coming back right?" and all I could do is nod my head,I couldn't help but feel guilty for being the reason behind all the commotion,my father's family left no stone unturned until they took my mom to court and they decided to hang my mom to death"

Mubin couldn't find his words again,his lips stopped moving,his heart was burning and he was feeling a fresh pain once again,he was feeling guilty and regretting all that he did in the past,fresh tears kept on rolling,he had forgotten the last time he cried maybe after he lost his eyes,he had always fought back his tears no matter what the case might be,but today he feels like it is happening once again,everything is rushing back to him,every tears shedded,every pain and agony,every guilt rush and regret,he is going crazy..

Farrah looked at him as he kept on crying,she didn't know what to do to console him,surely her words won't work on him now,he needs absolute silence,she opened the zip of her bag as she bought out a bottle of water and opened it,she moved to where he was sitting down and held his hand..

"Take water":she said as she hand him water with her other hand,he collected it and took a sip of it then kept it aside..

She kept on making circles on his hand and he was quite..

"Maybe those words will be of no use to you Mubi, I surely won't understand the pain you are feeling,I won't tell you that it will be okay because that will be a lie because the damage has already been done but Mubi you need to stop feeling guilty,your mom shot him by mistake,she didn't even know how to shoot so it was surely by mistake,and of course in those ages we tend to follow our friends thinking that we are doing the right thing,Mubi you were young to understand anything at that time":Farrah finished as she slowly pat his back..

Mubin put his hand in his heart smiling sadly..

"Farrah that was just the beginning,wait till the end":he said sadly..

"They wanted to hang my mom Far but she was smiling happily saying that "I will pay for my mistake and I will meet my love,sorry Bin Bin but we will meet soon okay" that was what she said to me,she handed me to Mamitah and told her to take care of me,the day she was going to be hanged came and my father's relatives took me there saying that I should watch the culprit of my dad's death hanged to death,they didn't understand my pain at all,that same person is none other than my mother,the woman who raised me and to top it all she killed my dad in the quest of saving my life,they made me watch it,they put the rope on her neck and removed the chair,she was smiling at first but her smile faded way and she started struggling for air but all to no avail,she died infront of my eyes,both my parents died infront of me,I witnessed my mom shooting my dad to save me and I witnessed my mom being hanged because she killed my dad and all this was because of me,me and only me, I ruined our family":he said crying profusely..

He was shattered and broken..

Farrah looked at him as she slowly thought of how strong he was,he had gone through this and he is still standing and laughing at her jokes..

Mubin was holding her hands as his body shook,all this pain is becoming unbearable for him,he cannot take it anymore..

"After mom's death I was still in a trauma of all that had happened,I will always lock myself inside my room and cry my heart out,I will always miss my parents and then cry because am the reason that they are no more, I used to go for morning jog around our area to refresh my mind and after coming back I used to go to my father's parlor and lie down on the floor thinking about how we used to have fun inside that same parlor,then that day after I went for my jog then went to my father's parlor and lied down,the chandelier fell on me and some pieces of glasses entered both my eyes":he said smiling..

Farrah thought that Mubin was going crazy how could he smile at that..

"I opened my eyes only to see darkness and only darkness everywhere,I cannot see people,read books or watch films,I cannot see anything,I was sad at first but then I realized that it was my punishment for being the reason for my parents death":he said smiling sadly..

Farrah understood why he didn't want this operation,it is because he thinks it is his punishment..

"How do I make him understand that it is not his fault,what is bound to happen must happen":Farrah thought to herself..

Perhaps she will try and make him understand..