Lilithan

🎶Your smile so cold
Yet you warm my heart
Your touch burns my skin
Yet I want more

Your my Luci
My wonderful Luci
May the fire, that burns, my skin
Be put out, by your eyes I look in

I'm your Lili 
Your wonderful Lili
I'll bloom in your touch
And wither while your away🎶

That song plays every time I sleep. It's like a signal that's calling out for someone to save me from my pain. Whether it be the bruises, the bullying, or from myself. My thoughts of my song were interrupted by the screeching of my mother and the sudden crying of my sister.

"LILITHAN GET YOUR USELESS ASS DOWN HERE AND STOP HER CRYING!" It was around 8 in the morning and luckily it was a weekend or I'd have to worry about getting Amali to daycare and getting to school on time. I throw my legs over the bed and rub the gunk from my eyes. I stand up and head to Amali's room which is next to mine.

"Ama baby what's the matter, honey." I see her clinging to the bars of her baby cage known as the crib. Her face is painted with tears and her diaper full. I finally get to her crib I pick her up into a wonderful embrace and her crying slows, I put her on the changing table and grab the baby wipes, diapers, rash cream, and powder. To keep her distracted while I clean her I had her Ellynn her toy elephant she adores.

After her diaper change and change of clothes, we head downstairs. I put Amali in her bouncer and head to the kitchen to see my mother holding a suitcase, she did this on rare occasions when she was fed up with something.

"How long this time." She looked at me and smiles. I've never seen her smile so this was new.

"Don't know. I got a call for a job and it's far so I'm going to be awhile." I was going to ask if she wanted breakfast before she left but she had stopped me in my tracks. "No. I don't. I'll pick something up." I looked at her and when I finally got a good look it was something new. She was wearing Arab clothing. It was weird but I decided not to pry and add bruises to my body.

"Okay then. Be safe." Even if she ignores me and Ama she's still our mother and I want her safe. She smiled again this time it looked sad.

"I will. Take care of your sister and..." She was already out the door and about to close it when she looked back tear welling inside her eyes. "I'm sorry and 'ahbak." She left with that and for some reason, my heart broke, I was supposed to be happy she said words that I've been waiting to hear for years. But something in me knew that that was going to be the last time I heard those words. Before I knew it I was on the floor wailing. I could hear Ama crying in the background, but I couldn't move to go get her.

I stayed sobbing on the floor for about thirty minutes before I got up and took care of Ama and myself. Unfortunately, I couldn't weep for long so I got to work; I cleaned the house, took Ama to the park, and went to a diner. When we finally got home Ama was tired but she and her inner night owl were fighting so while I walked to her crib I sung my song to her.

"🎶Your smile so cold 
Yet you warm my heart
Your touch burns my skin
Yet I want more

Your my Luci 
My wonderful Luci
May the fire, that burns, my skin
Be put out, by your eyes I look in

I'm your Lili
Your wonderful Lili
I'll bloom in your touch
And wither while your away🎶

By the time I finished the second time repeating it she was out like a light.

I walked out of her room after putting her in the crib and looked at my phone to see that I got an email from my Ma. I wish I never opened it.

"Dear son,
I'm so sorry. I really am, I used you and your sister now I'm doing this. In sorry I lied... Well, I did have a job offer but I already accepted it in Arabia. I won't come back I put some money in your account to get you started the rest is up to you. I'm sorry but I'm not strong like you I am weak and I must leave before I lose whatever sanity I have left. I true my am sorry and love you dearly."

I felt like throwing my phone I was confused with emotions I didn't know what to do, but I didn't want to be in my house, this house, where I was neglected, rejected, abused, and now abandoned. I went back into Amali room and gently picked her up grabbing her baby blanket and bag. I walked out the front door and headed to my best friend Blu's place. She lived with her girlfriend Déna, but I need to be with someone if I'm alone... I might do something I can't change.

It's a minute walk to Blu's house, but my mind kept running in circles so it felt like it took forever when I finally got there I rang the doorbell furiously.

"Hold up!! Damnit! I only have two legs!" Blu complained from the other side of the door I couldn't help, but scoff. I heard the locks turn and the door open. "Who in the-" she stopped speaking and took Ama. "Déna get down here." she used a whispered tone, but it was loud enough for Dèna to come downstairs. Not asking questions she took Ama and headed back upstairs I tried to follow but was pulled in the opposite direction and was pushed onto the couch Blu laid down then pulled me on top of her. I laid on her chest for a moment and just laid there until she broke the silence.

"Ya' know. I'd be really turned on if you weren't gay." I giggled at her comment and that little giggle turned into a laugh which in turn turned into crying. I clenched the couch cushion below us and wrapped my right arm around Blu's back and cried, no I sobbed not like in the kitchen. No, I didn't stop crying. All I could repeat was 'Why?' 'Why me?' 'What did I do?' 'Why is it always me?'. Blu rubbed my back and ran her fingers through my hair. She comforted me and didn't say a word like she already knew. Her slow-paced breathing and the thumping of her heart lulled me to sleep. I felt safe and protected.

30 minutes later

Blu

Lilithan has been sleeping for thirty minutes or so, I decided to look into his memories to see what happened, his mother had finally told him she loved him and yet she goes off to Arabia. May the wild animals of Arabia tear her limb from limb. I picked up Lili after sliding from under him and him to our guest bedroom where Amali was. When I went back down I saw my little lover looking madly scrumptious.

"You know I can hear your thoughts right?" She looked back at me with a tiny glare and a shake of her ass. I walked over to her from the stairs and into the kitchen. I wrapped my arms around he waist.

"Of course I know. I'm older." I say smugly.

"Mmhm. How's Lili?" She asked turning around to face me. I laid my head on her shoulder and breathed in her hellishly delicious scent of candy and vanilla.

"I can say he's had plenty of better days. His mom told him she loved him." I paused waiting for her expression. She was just as shocked as I was that small woman packed a punch and released it all to Lili, but never once said he hated her.

"And that's what sent him here broken? The boy looks like the criminals we keep in hell. Lifeless and dull." I simply nodded my head and continued speaking.

"Today she got on a plane to Arabia. She's not coming back this time." She was going to speak but was silent. It seemed like silence was the answer to such a puzzling situation.

"Did he tell you that or did you read his mind?" She looked at me and I just giggled.

"You know him. He doesn't voice how he feels. If I waited for him to tell me what was wrong he would've been waiting another decade." All she did was sigh but I knew she knew I was right.

"So what are we going to do?" I lifted my head from her shoulder and looked her in the eyes.

"To be honest I have no damn idea." I kissed her gently on the lips and began to make some dinner for Lilithan and Amali. 

Three Hours Later 2:50 am

Lilithan

I woke up in the guest bedroom of Blu's house. I've been here so many times, whenever I had a concussion from my mother's beatings, or couldn't be in the house because it was frustrating. I threw my legs over the edge of the bed and trudged over to the door. I opened the door and walked into the hallway I could hear the silent moans over the T.V that was on an infomercial, I continued down the stairs to hear the moans intensify and the infomercial was drowned out. I looked at the couch which was in front of the T.V and saw Dèna with her legs in the air and her naked upper body bending over the arm of the couch. Her hands in her hair and her eyes shut tight with only her mouth being open letting out her moans. 

"I'd  be so turned on if I wasn't gay." Blu popped up from between Dèna's legs and wiped her chin as she smiled.

"Real funny, hun." She looked at Dèna who was blushing like an angry madman. "You might've killed my soul mate." I giggled and went to the kitchen to find something to eat. "Dinner's in the refrigerator. We made Chicken Alfredo and Ama has a bottle in the micro." I gave her a thumbs up from the refrigerator and grabbed the Chicken Alfredo once I found it. I put the plate of Chicken Alfredo into the microwave after taking out Ama's bottle, also like clockwork Ama was crying at 3 in the morning, Blu and Dèna were just cuddling watching a movie until the bell rung. Shameless Blu got up and answered the door in her underwear and bra, luckily it was just her younger twin brother Reed.

Reed looked around until he saw me and rushed over to the kitchen I tried to run upstairs to get Amali for protection but before I could move my ass was grabbed and I was pulled into a bone-crushing hug. "MY BABY BOY!" I was stuck in the arms of a flirtatious bottom. 

"Hey.... Reed. I-I can't breathe." Reed let go but still didn't let me go get Amali. I looked over to Dèna and she nodded her head and went upstairs to get Ama.

"What happened my honey?" I just looked at him I knew he knew and I knew that Blu told him.

"You tell me." I sighed out and headed to the couch after sitting Amali's bottle on the counter. "I know Blu told you and I know you found out what happened Blu... You always know." Blu looked at me and chuckled, once again she pulled me to the couch this time having me sit next to her while Reed sat to the right of me. 

"I really can't keep anything from you huh?" I just looked at her with a duh face.

"Duh, I'm your best friend, but even so I only know you're hiding something from me. I might be weak, but I'm not naive and to be honest, I probably don't want to know. Am I right?" She sighed and ran her milk chocolate hand through her blue curled hair and simply kept the smirk on her face.

"I knew there was a reason I became your friend, you are simply amazing. And no, I could tell you it's more in the fact that you might not believe me." She was relaxed and her carefree attitude was always present, unlike Reed who began to tense up and was staring at his twin cautiously.

"What's up with you Reed?" I knew it had something to do with the secret they were keeping.

"It does have to do with that." I swung my neck from Reed over to Blu. She just gave a cocky smirk and continued. "He's afraid that if we tell you, our father will punish us." I gave her a questioning look. 

"What do you mean?" 

"It's... Complicated to say the least. We have different punishments that most." I was still confused but knew they wouldn't elaborate. "I could elaborate, but it would take forever and unfortunately it's super late. We'll all tell you tomorrow after school, okay?" I huffed in annoyance but was cut off by a yawn. Blu smirked at me while Reed tried to relax.

"I'm going to stay in the second guest room since Lili is here." I glared at Reed and he snicked and headed up the stairs. "Night sissy, night Lili, night Dena." He finally finished the trek up the stairs and we all heard the door close. I looked back to Dena who was completely naked and holding my sister who was drinking from her bottle.

"Hey, Dena." I waved and she gave a sweet smile and walked over to the couch sitting on Blu's lap.

"Hey, love. You know you shouldn't pry into what our secret is, but are you willing to accept it even the consequences?" She never looked at me she looked at Amali the entire time.

"I willing as long as Amali is fine I am willing to suffer through anything." She finally looked at me and smiled a smile that could warm a thousand souls.

"Good. Now, let's watch some movies." I turned my attention to the screen it was now on my favorite movie. Deadpool. Ryan Reynolds could fuck me any day. I heard Blu chuckle and look at me to which I could feel my face burn.

It was about an hour into the movie and had had my eyes closed just listening to the movie. I guess they thought I was sleeping since they began to talk casually and more relaxed. I closed mind so Blu or anyone else couldn't read it and to be on the safe side I thought some things to see if she'd react and when that happened I just listen to the conversation.

"I want another baby!" Déna said in a hushed holler.

"Babe we have five at home. Not that I'm saying I don't enjoy the baby making process, I just don't like being a demon punching bag for you." I kept a straight sleeping face while processing this information. I can't say that I wasn't surprised, but it made sense. I wouldn't call myself an atheist but I just had no full-fledged belief.

"What are you implying dear?" Déna put emphasis on dear and the tone of voice was 'say something I don't like and good luck trying to touch my body'. I laughed inside my head.

"Nothing my sugar demon, just that you become worse than hell torture chamber when you're knocked up." Blu never really knew how to take a hint and with that, she was slapped and Déna went upstairs.

"You seriously need to learn what to say and what not to say." I finally say up and looked at Blu, she gave me sigh and a look hard to understand.

"I know. Want me to explain now or later?" I thought about it for a moment, it was currently 4:20 and we had school at 8.

I did an exaggerated yawn "I don't know I'm feeling kinda sleepy." She glared at me.

"Faggot." She playfully spat out.

"Not much room to talk hun." I used my most cliche gay boy voice and snapped my fingers.

"Mind if we cuddle? I'll be on the couch tonight." She turned to the side to have her back on the left couch arm and stuck one leg out on the couch and the other touch the floor. I crawled over and laid my head on her shoulder she snapped her fingers and a blanket appeared I was amazed.

"Fucking hell." She gave her infamous cocky smirk.

"I know right. Alright down to business. What do you want to know first." I was going to blow her ear off.

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