******Benjamin POV******

My thoughts are get the best of me. I can't stop thinking about why they did what they did. Are they tried of me already? Are they laughing right now about me even think they want me? That I was even good enough for them. That I mean their standers. That I even have what it take to stand with them in front of the pack. Leading them, keep them safe, looking after this pack. That I'm good enough to be their Luna/beta female. That I was even good enough to be the mom of their pup/pups. That I was even good enough to be their mate for life. That I was even...

"How are you holding up", Hunter asked, snapping me out of my thoughts. It was Rick idea for me to move in with my brother's pack for the safety of the boys and my unborn pup/pups.

"Fine", I say but real I am not. How can you be when you don't know why your mates, the one that would make for you, cheat on you?

"Are you such", He asked looking wronged.

"Yea I'm such", I say.

"I will just be in my room", I say and walk up to my room. My brothers know what had happen between me, Jason, and Bran. When they found out their want to kill them. But lucky they mates were able to conflict them not to; they more like order me to stay with them. If I leave the pack house I have to tell them either they come with me, or Rick or one of their more trusted warriors. I know that I am the white wolf that need to bring peace to the world but how can I when do that when I can't even be the mate my mate wants

<"We are what our mate want">, Legend yell he always say that when I'm double myself

<"If we would good enough for our mate then why did they cheat on us">, I asked him see why would our mate cheat on us if we were everything they wants us to be. Would we good enough for them or was our love making not enough for them. Or did they not like it and want a female as a mate either of us.

<"No they love us">, He said

<"No they don't they show that they don't care about us. We only leave for a week and they move on from us like it was nothing">, I say and block him out.

Why am I ignoring they calls, turning away they visits? I don't know maybe it's the fear of what they explain would be. What if they find realize that I am not good enough for them. I just need time to think. They have tried to apologize many time but each time I reject it. They have send letters and gifts but I just never read them I asked someone to put it in the atelic cause I am not real to read what they write me. I am not real to but those gifts to see pictures of them with their new mate. I know they haven't mate yet but I don't know why. If they would have mated Kristy and Michel if they did I would have feel a shape pain. And beside the fact they have already mark and claim me as Jason, Bran, Titus and Ajax and they haven't let me break the bond between us mean we can't move on with anyone, we can but it would cause pain for the other and beside we wouldn't be able to mark or claim anyone else as our mate unless one of us die see how Jason had order me not to reject them. Reject them would have cause me pain but also at less would have been able to move on and they too but know we can't.

They have call try to come over but with my brother mate Blake been the alpha of the pack denial them enter cause of my request. He would let them pass unless I say so. They have tried to cross over plan of times. It's been a week since I start to stay with my brother and I have started to show a little bit. Why am I ignoring they calls, turning away they visits? I don't know maybe it's the fear of what they explain would be. What if they find relate that I am not good enough for them. The last few days the pup/pups have started to kick crazy.

"AHAHAHA", I yell when a shape pain hit my lower adwoman. My yell must have been loud because it had my brothers ran into the room

"What happen", they asked wronged

"Pain", I say and pass out.

****DREAM****

I was in the clean from the hospital again. Maybe I could get to see my mom and little brother again. Or better yet meet my wolf for the first time. Just as I thought that a snap of someone step on a breach snap me from my thoughts. I look up cross the lake to see a beautiful white wolf appear from the tree line. His eye was a silver as the moon. He make his way over to me and sit down, I sit beside him.

<"Hey there">, I heard in my head

<'Hi">, I say

<"It's great to finally meet you Benjamin">, He smile

<"Same Legend">, I say

<"So how you holding up">, Legend asked and I knew what he meant. He meant how was I hold up with been so far from our mates.

<"Ok how about you">, I asked wronged. He looks sick, with ding eyes and all the light he eyes used to hold are gotten to be replacing with a dark color to it. Seen how its different for the wolf then the human side. For the wolf be away from your mate for long period of time cause heath problem. As for the human side it causes depression and longing to be with your mate. Mated mates are usually never far apart for long. Seen once you mate it's hard to be away from each other. Seen that Jason and Bran had mark and claim us as their mate, as well as we have claim and mark them as ours, and seen how we have been away from them for three weeks now. I have been have shape pain and usually for pregnant mate there have their mate at their side at all time to help with the pups kicking and the pain that come with it. But seen I am not talk with them Legend had been take always most of the pain.

<" Not good at long. We need mate">, He says with hope look

<"I know but I don't think I am really to forgive them for the betray of trust we had together. That day at the waterfall on our first date they promise to always love us, protect us, trust us, make us happy, shielding us from pain, not cause us heartache, not break our heart, but most of all they promise to always be faithful to us. And in one week they broke all those promise and leave me with a broken heart and trust anyone and most of all feeling like we are not good enough. They cause me to start building wall around my heart and soul">, I say at the end all the tears I try to keep in end up come out and rolling down my cheeks.

<"I know and am still mad at Jason and Bran and still hurt by what they did. Built don't you think a least let them explain for Amory and Louie are not to blame and try to stop them"? Legend said and he do have a point they are not to be balm for what they human did and cause I am stay always and reject Jason and Bran try to apologize and explain I am keep them away from each other and that selfish of me to do but I can't help but to think of the what if.

<" I know but I can't help myself. What if I let them explain to me and they say they don't want me as they mate. What if they explain and say they have stop loving us. What if they had seen that they are better off without us? What if they see we are only holding them back? What if they see that they are happier without us? What if they take always our pup/pups to raise them those sluts Kristy and Michel by their size? What are our pup/pups grow up see those sluts as their mama. What if they reject us after take always our pup/pups"> I say finally tell someone about my fears, the reason why I haven't let Jason and Bran talk to me. The reason why I haven't let the near me. The reason why I reject their visits and calls.

<"They wouldn't do that. They love us. They know that we are enough for them. They will explain and we will listen. We will work things out. We are mates and we are together as one. They know they can't be more happier that with us. They know we are the best for them. We are not holding them back opposite we are what make them better. They will NOT take our pup/pups always form us to raise them with anyone else that us. We will be a family together. Our pup/pups will ONLY see us as their mama, Jason as their papa and Bran as their dada. We just have to hear them. It more like I fear that truth. Those are all what if not real."> Legend says sound conflict and I guess he is right. The what if will do nothing but drive me crazy, they make not even happen. The moon goddess would have pair us up if it was mean to be.

<"So why are we here"> I asked

<"Artemis what to talk with you"> He say and at that moment we heard the breeze picked up behind us and I didn't need to turn around to know who had arrive. She wore a silver dress and her bright blue eyes shown with saddest as she saw me. She came towards us and sat beside me.

"Hello again Benjamin" she say

"Hello Artemis" I say but on a fake smile

"I know you are hurting my child I wish that didn't had to happen but it was my doing the emend has someone powerful on their say. I am here to show you what had happen before that but you will have to promise me once you wake up and see your mates again you will let them explain to you what they found out when you leave" She say sound serious and I knew she had nothing to do with what happen let's call it a gut feeling I have that what she will show me will make me happy.

"Ok" I say

"Ok pay close attention" She say. She moves her hands and a mirror appear in front of us. I saw Kristy and Michel stand in a house with another mystery guy but I don't see his face. I could see that they wouldn't in the pack lands they were somewhere I have never seen.

"Are you should this would work" Kristy asked

"Yes this thing will got you guys Jason and Bran and me my white wolf" Mystery guy said, handed Kristy a brown bag

"Once we separate them you take that white wolf far away and we will make such Jason and Bran forget all about him and not come after him" Michel said. Then it turn to another slide this one was in the pack kitchen cause of the b

I see Kristy and Michel with a café cup on the counter and then they move to the fridge. They open the door and pull out what look to beelike beer. They when back to the cup they had put out and fill it with the beer. They then pull out a bag with white power in it and drop the hold bag into the drink. Then they took a straw and turn it until you couldn't see the white power. The slide change and we were now in front of the door to Jason and Bran office. Kristy and Michel knock on the door

"Go way", I heard Jason and Bran yell out. They sound sad, tried and in pain.

"We have news on Benjamin ", Kristy and Michel said with a small wink to each other. I heard foot step run to the door and it open to relive. A tried and red face Jason and Bran. It look like they haven't had a good sleep in year then I remember Elda telling me they haven't sleep, eat or rest since I leave.

"What is it", Jason and Bran asked

"Just drink this and we will tell you", Kristy and Michel said

"MM I don't think so tell us", Jason and Bran said looking impatient at the half naked sluts.

"Just drink it", they say with what suppose to look like a sexy smirk but end up been like a smile of the devil himself

"Fine", Jason and Bran say and drink it. The next thing that happen they are kissing the sluts. It stop right there.

"so know you have half the truth of what real happen to know the next half talk with your mates when you wait up", She say and everything turn black as the night.

****** Hunter POV ******

"Blake I'm wronged for Benjamin you know as much as I know that he need his mate with him thronging his pregnant", Blake says

"I know but he doesn't want them here and beside what would you do if I ever cheat on me you. You wouldn't want to see me either would you", I say and when I didn't answer he continue "See so let him come to the decision when he wants to talk with them". I say

"But it's too danger especial see how he is mate to not an alpha nor a beta but both a alpha and a beat to the strongest pack in the USA", Blake say

"And beside the fact I have be doing research on the legend of the white wolf and I have come up with the fact if the white wolf is pregnant and always from his mate for more than four days straight the pup/pups start to kick like crazy and it could be dangerous for both the pup/pups life as well as the life of the white wolf". Blake say

"What are you saying", I asked scared for my younger brother heath.

"That if he stay always from his mate any longer he could risk not only his health and life as well as hiss pup/pups heath/heaths and life/lives", He say. He was about to say more when we hears a loud scream coming from upstairs

"AHAHAHAH", It sounded like Benjamin and we run into his room to see him hold his low stomach and we see tears coming down his eyes. We run over to him

"What happen", we asked wronged

"Pain", He says and passes out.

"What happen", I asked shock.

"Let get him to the doctor", Blake say and he pick him up and run to the pack clinic

"We need help", he yell as the door open the doctor run over and take Benjamin from Blake arm and run into a room.

"Now what", I asked.

"We wait and see", Blake say and he pull me to his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and the tears start to flow freely.

***THREE HOURS LATER***

Right after we arrive, Eason and Sam had arrived too. The doors open and the doctor walk out

"How is my brother", I and Eason asked wronged when we see his fearful face.

"He is endangeruos of losing his life and well as his pups life", Doctor A say.

"What happen", I asked.

"The pups are kicking his rips hard that they had broke two rips one of the rip had punch his lung. His body and wolf are trying to heal but with the pups continue movements are not helping Benjamin case", He say.

"What pups", we say shock.

"Yes as in four. I have done all I can do it all up to the moon goddess now. But I give him a 25% chance in make it for the next hour. He is in a bad state", He say and walk out.

"I can't lose my baby brother", I and Eason say scared.

"No you well not", Blake and Sam say.

"Do you want to go in", He asked.

"Yes", Eason say.

"How about you Hunter", Blake asked.

"Yes", I say.

"Ok" He says.

"Do you want to come in with me", I asked not knowing if I can hand see my baby brother in that bed fighting for his life as well as his pups life.

"No thank", He say.

"Why not I need you", I say.

"How about you Sam", Eason asked.

"Sorry baby but I'm not going either", Sam say.

"But can't you guys can't see we need you there with us cause our baby brother its almost dying", we say.

"We are going to get the two person who can save his life as well as his pup's life", Blake says.

"Wait don't tell me you will go get Jason and Bran", we say angry and happy all at once. We are angry cause this is they fat if they didn't do that shit our brother wouldn't be fighting for his life as well as his pups lives again. One too many time he has been in a bed fight for his life. But we are happy because they can calm the pups down so Legend can heal Benjamin broke rips and lung.

"They need to be here the pirogue is true Benjamin hasn't been with his mate in two week. They pups are scent that they papa and dada are not close to them. If we let them come they can explain why all of that happen. They need a chance to explain thing don't they. And don't say they don't because we all know something is fish here". Sam says.

"We have now them our whole life and we know they would never do anything to hurt Benjamin their mate. They have dreamed of find they mates since they first learn about mate. Please you want your brother to be ok. Right", Blake asked with and knowing look.

"Yes. But..." We say.

"Don't they", Blake asked again.

"Yes", we say knowing that if we ever did something like that we would want to be able to explain to them what had happen. And if they did that we would want to know why they did it.

"Ok I will go and get them", He say and leave I walk into the room

******Blake POV ******

We run outside know that if I call them would take too long and maybe they are not even in the office. We run outside and run to the board knowing full well they would be there.

A/N

Edited: July 3, 2019

Word count: 3,259

Question

1.) Do you think Hunter and Eason have a reason to be angry at Jason and Bran?

2.) Do you think Benjmain has a right to not wanting to see his mates?

3.) Or do you think he is acting like a baby?

4.) What will happen next?

5.) Do you think Blake did the right thing by run to inform Jason and Bran about what is going on?