******Benjamin POV ******

**** Four days later after he fainted****

After I woke up on my bed and Rick told me what happen I have been think and Justin finally conflice me to talk with them so that what I'm about to do. I walk up the path to the pack house and knock on the door. It open seconds later to relieve a very sad looking Elda. Her eyes were puff, redded, like she cry for hours, her once happy smile was now turn into a frown.

"Benjamin is that ready you", She asked close to tears.

"Yes its me".  I say and as soon as those words leave my mouth I was pull into the house and into a bones crushing hung. My first though was my pup/pups so I try to pull always but couldn't.

"Elda I can't breath" , I say and she let me go.

"Sorry but I have miss you. Where have you been? Why did you leave? Are you ok? Where are Osiris and Asher? Why haven't you come back? Where are you staying? Where is Rick. How are the boys"? She keep going on I had to put my hand on her mouth to shut her up.

"Clam down! I will answer all your questions", I say some how we end up in the pack house living room and we sit down.

"Ok so answer them", She says seriously. After I had got out of the clinic me and her became super close she became my best friend that I tell her everything and she does too. I alway tell her everything that's happens to me and I know it hurt her that I didn't tell her I was leaving.

"Ok. I was at my mom cabin outside pack lands. Yes I'm ok. The boys are with me. They are ok too. I  had a huge fright with Logan and Jayden and need time to let things cool down. Rick is with us and he end up been Justin's mate.", I say

"So how are things here", I asked having to now what has happen since I leave. And also because I didn't sense my mate here meaning they are out and have been out for awhile now.

"Ok will you see. After you leave everything fall down. We were attack by rouges and wouldn't really 10 members were injury. The pack moms have stop smiling and the pups have stop playing around, laughing and smiling too. They have all miss you, Asher and Osiris even we the moms miss undo too. When you leave Jayden and Logan send the pack trackers to find you all so they can apologize to you for what they did. They told Drew and after Drew knock some sense into them and their parents knock some sense too they get out and look for you so they can beg for your forgiveness. But the trackers can't find you. When ever they return, everyone get happy and even Logan and Jayden get happy too but that soon change when they saying they haven't found you everyone becomes sad and start crying. Jayden and Logan have stop training and they stay lock up in their office. They have stop talking to anyone, stop sleeping and eaten. Everyone is worry for them and you. They have even try to kill themselves." She whisper the last part.

"WHAT". I yell stand up. Why would they do that. I can't lose them. our boys can't lose them. Our unborn pup/pups cant' lose their father went they haven't even meet them yet. 

"What is this"? Elda asked.

I snapped out of my thought to see her holding  one of my pregnant test. I most have trop it when I had jump up from the couch.

"A pregnant test". She say I wasn't yet really to tell anyone about my pregnant yet but it looks like Jayden and Logan wouldn't be the first to find our about this news. She start to sniff it.

"Why does it have your sense all over it". She asked confused.

I sense and took a deep breath. She is my best friend She wouldn't judge me. She have my back. So with that in mind I put  a hand on my non noticeable bump protective and said

" Because it's mine. I'm pregnant".,I say and the next thing I know I pull into a tight hung.

"That amazing I'm so happy for  you". She say once she pull always from the hung

"But wait how is this purpose." She asked confuse written all over her face.

So I start explained everything to her. Everything that Lily and Lamina told me. once I finish she looked amazing.

"WOW"!She say.

"So our pups will be best of friends", She say and put a hand on her stomach too

"What", I asked because its only been three months since they daughter was born.

"Yes Drew end up get me pregnant again since he forget to wear a condom", She say with a brush on her face.

"Your mate now how to keep you round with his pups", I say wink at her cause her face to heat up like a Christmas tree.

"So how far along are you", I asked her.

"About a week and you", She asked me.  I think about when I start to feel sick

"About two weeks", I say

"So you have about two and a half months left", She say.

Werewolf pregnant last six months but if you are pregnant wit a pup/pups with alpha's, beta's or gamma's blood in them it only last three months half the time normal  werewolf pregnant last.

"So you have time to get really. Are you excited"? She asked

"YES very", I say.

And its true I have wish to give Jayden and Logan pup/pups of they own. Pup/pups that will take over for them. For us to start our own family. And we will with Asher, Osiris and this little one/ones on the way.

"Do they know", She asked.

"No I just found out four days ago and we had our fight a week ago beside only you, Rick and Justin know since I found out I had fainted and they found me with the test and put two and two together". I say

"Please don't tell no one I will when I'm really to let the whole pack know about they next further leader"? I say

"Ok when are you going to tell them", She asked me

"I don't know", I say

"What if they call me a freak. Or be disgusted by me by this. There have never been a male pregnants ever in our history." I say

"What if they reject me. Our pup/pups" I added in tear of even think of it.

"That will surely kill me". I say

It true I know I will die if my mate reject me but I don't care what happens to me Is my pup/pups I care about more. What about my pups and unborn pup/pups. They need they fathers in their lives. I can't take care of a five year old, a three year old and new born baby/babies all by myself.

"They would never do that", She try to reassure me but I could see the fear in her eyes of if what I'm saying comes truth.

"How do you know that", I say

"Because they have wanted to have a family since they were pups. They  have wanted to hold they new borns in they arms. I have seen how they would look at Drew want  my kids were born they had that far always look in they eyes and a look of happiness to but it was a mask to hide they pain, sadness and jealousy in there eyes from Drew and me. But I saw though it. They can now have that with you and this new one" She finish say and put here hand on my small bump. "They have wanted to have children with they mates a lots o them.  They will be there for you for Asher, Osiris but most of all for this him/her or them". She added

"Thank I will go tell them", I say with new found conflict she has a point I can't hide my child/children from they fathers and beside they have a right to know the truth and I will not hide that from them. a mate doesn't hide thing from they mates. That against the moon goddess herself.

"They are not here", She say with a sad look on they face

"Where are they", I asked her

"My best guess is that they looking for you they always go early in the morning with the search party. they don't like not been out there search for you.  They only come back at 6 to lock themselves in the office after a fail term to find you to come up with a plan to look for you the following day". She says

"Ok then I will wait for them in our apartment. need to rear link me when they come back". I say

"And don't tell them I'm here and anything about what I told you I want to special them". I added

"Ok", She say and make her way to the kitchen while I make my way up the stair,. Once I reach our floor I put my hand on my stomach and put my next one on the saner and the door open to relieve what I never expect to find the living room in a mess everything throw ever way. The table were stand by one leg. I slowly make my way to our room been careful of the broken glass lay around on the floor. I open the door to relieve that it was in a worst condition than outside.Once beautiful decorated room is trashed. The dresser was stand on no legs. The long mirror by the bathroom is now in little prices on the floor. The closet was open and all the clothes were throw all around the room. I walk over to the night stand to find two knife with my mates blood on them. When did they do this. Was I so blind by angry, hate and pain to see feel that they were hurt themselves. Was I ready so angry that I didn't feel they pain they guilt. Was I so angry to lock always my  bond with them so much so that they pain couldn't have past my locks. I felt my stomach turn I run to he bathroom and over to the toilet to throw up all of yesterday breakfast I was to nerves to eat anything this morning or last night. Once I feel like my stomach was going to jump out my mouth. I flush the toilet and stand up. I walk over to the sink and I took out a new toothbrush and brush my teeth. Once I finish I risk my mouth and use mouthwash. I leave the bathroom and walk over to the and lay down.

"I'm sorry"! I link them before I let sleep take me alway. I was awake by someone try to push into my mind, mi trop the wall and was feel with Elda's voice.

"I'm sorry I was try to get you. They have been back for twenty minutes". Elda link me

"Ok sorry fell asleep with my bock on it to keep them out for the past ten days". I say link her

"Its ok you want me to tell them to go up to the apartment". She asked linking me

"No thank I would special them". I link back

"Ok tell me how its goes you know your more than welcome to stay at my place right". she asked

"I will and I know", I say.

I walk out  of he room, out of the apartment. I try to remember what everyone keep on tell me. They will accept me us. They will accept us.  I keep on tell myself, but the close I get the more what if comes to mind. What if they do the opposite of accept me and reject me. How are they going to react. Would the doubt that he/she or they are their. Would they argue  me of cheat on them and getting pregnant. Would they call me names. Reject mu pup/pups as their own. Reject me us in front of the pack. Would they kick me out of the pack. I know if they do I will go join my brothers'pack. Woulf they not be in the lifes of the boys and pup/pups. I don't care if they call me names or reject me but anyone dare call names or harm my baby/babies I will go mother bear on their ass. I reach the door to their office. I stop to  take some deep breaths to relaixe my heart beat to normal again. The moon goddess now what she is doing

"Yes I do my child". I heard in my head. I unconsciously put my hand on my small bump I open the door without knocking and come tor regret it. I regret come back. Regret take Justin's, Rick's, Lily's and Limaina advice on come back. I wish I never did. I wish I could go back and stop myself  from coming back. I wish I never did. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to never come back to just forget about them.  There stand naked stood both my mates. With only their shirt on. They both had Kristy and Michel  bend over they desk as they thrust into them. Pain shot though my chest and heart as Legend howl in pain and hurt. I had to still myself before I fell on my stomach do to the amount of pain in my chest an heart right know.  I walk backward toward the door but bump into the door cause they head to turn to look at me. they were shock and guilt swim in they eyes. I close my eyes as they pull out of the bitches with a pop sound.

"Baby its not what it looks like". They say try to touch my hand went I pull my hand always from them.

"Don't touch me", I say

"Baby you have to believe me we don't know why we did what we did",Jayden says

"Ye like you believe me when I say I had NEVER CHEAT on you", I say

"Because you what it babes". Kristy and Michel  said

"No we didn't leave now". Jayden yell in his alpha voice for some reason is send shives down my slipe.

"Baby you have to believe us " Logan say in tears

"I can't you have case me too mush pain", I say turn to leave.

"No"I heard when a hand crab my waist I turn sound to see it was Jayden that crap my waist.

"Let me go", I say try to shake my waist free.

"We can't you are our life",They say

"What this", Logan say pull out my pregnant test from my back pack

"A pregnant test. Why do you have one. And why is your scent all over it". Jayden said. I was hope they had miss that but to my bad lucky they haven't

"It's non of your business", I say

"Yes it is", They say

"NO It isn't not when I had cheat you fucking someone else so go back to fucking those sluts of you because I don't want you as my mate I Benjamin reje", I say but got cut off my Jayden alpha voice

"YOU WILL NOT REJECT US WE WILL NOT BREAK OUR BOND AND TELL US"Jayden yell in his alpha voice. I was shaken he had never yell at me beside when Rick had appear

"You what to know I will tell you because I'm pregnant with your pup/pups", I say. They were shook and I took that as my chance to leave I shake his hand away from my waist and run. Once I shift to my wolf and let Legend take me to where his wants to go and he had take me to the board of the Blue shine pack. My brother pack house.

"Why are you here Benjamin where are you mates", Hunter asked

"Hurt", I say and run into his arms crying all the pain in my chest and heart knowing I will have to surfer the pain of them fucking the bitches of sluts they were fucking in they office. I will have to feel them doing it since I can't go over my alpha's commanded even if I wants to I can't you can't break a mate bond only if both mates agree to break it it then has to be broken by the alpha or elders of the pack. Both seen as both my mate don't want to let me go I don't know why they have fun fucking they sluts. So they suppose to be happy I want to have the bond broken so they can claim and Mark those sluts as they new mates.