Time Line: October 27, 2020

⬆Jazz Jennings playing Benjamin just imagine she has one blue eye the other one is green. Benjamin above⬆️

A/N

I have see some of you guys confuse let me clear up the air.

Number 1. I decide to use Jazz Jennings as the person play Benjamin because like Benjamin she too is trangender and beside she speak out for trangender teens something I admire about her.

Number 2. I change Louis/Logan, the old name for the beta because people were message me that they were confuse with how Louis was bully Benjamin but Benjamin forgve him. First of all the beta has never ever imagin to hurt Benjamin or anyone for that matter. The one bully Benjamin for last few years were Luis and (blanks hyou have to read to find out.) The beta name is Bran now. P.S. if you see any Louis or Logan in any of the chapters in text comment me and let me know so I can change it for the res of the reader to not be confuse.

Numeber 3 I change Bran's wolf from Rex to Titus now so let me know if you see an Rex in any of the chapters so I can correct it.

Number 4 I change Jayson/Jayden name, which is the alpha son, to Jason because when I was type this on google doc/word audo correct alway correct his name to Jason so I decide to leave it like that.

Number 5 Jason's wolf was named Amory I change it to Ajax because I felt it figure his personality better.

Inbox me or comment below if you still confuse on anything.

O by the way I will explain how the mind link and talk works in my story.

"Hey" is a normal coversation.

"Hey" think in his or her mind.

<"Hey"> human talk to their wolf.

<"Hey"> one pack member mind linking the other.

<"Hey"> Mate mind link each other.

****** Benjamin's P.O.V ******

There he is in all his sexy glory. Jason standing on the stage looking confident, courageous, strong and brave gave his speech to the pack having all the attention on him as he spoke. I'd barely listen to his words; I was more in my own thoughts and world. I noticed his features, dark black hair, like a black cat on a Halloween's night, in his sexy mess style, cut short through the back and sides blending into the jagged cut top, that I'm so used to seeing. His light green eyes are like the green of the grass on the rolling prairies with the sun shining overhead and the calm breeze whistling through the trees.

He has a glory to him as the bright sun light shone on him like a spotlight would do on the stage in a theater while a play goes on. His strong cheekbones and jawline was sculpted thoroughly. A bright smile that lights up a room was carved into his face as he spoke to Dusk Fall Pack. The largest pack in Willow Creek, California, USA; the Dusk fall Pack is the second largest pack in the western part of the United State.

He was wearing a dark black skinny jeans. The pants is pair off with a tight dark blue with white button down shirt with long sleeves rolled up to his elbow, turn down collar. You will never see Jason without his long sleeve black leather jacket. To finish off the look he is wearing his black leather boots.

By only one looking at him you would cower in fear because he stands there fearless and confident. If you think that he's already scary, his wolf, Ajax, is something you would die from. Ajax is an all black wolf with his bright green eyes. From his nose-to-tail length between 4.5 and 6ft (1.4 to 1.8m), a height at the shoulder from 26 to 32 inches (66 to 81cm), and weighed about 175lbs (79.3kg), in only muscle and power, the largest wolf in the pack. Well second largest because his father Andrew, our current alpha, beat him in height by 2 inch and weight about 10 lbs.

"Is it so bad to have a huge crush on your soon to be alpha?" I had to wonder because people keep telling me he will never notice me? The truth behind those words cuts my soul deeply, who will notice a boy barely pass 5'0 ft. with skin pale as a ghost, and eyes mix match, one blue and the next one green. My skin is mark up from the years of abuse my body had gotten through. No one will want a broken up boy as a mate. No one would want a broken up defenseless boy who can't even shift to his wolf, who loves to wear dresses, shirks, blouse and makeup; especially not the soon to be alpha of one of the large pack in United State.

"You're all dismissed," Jason strong deep husky voice snapped me out of my thoughts, and I noticed that everyone was starting to leave. So I decided to go home as I see the time on my broken watch. It read 7:30 p.m. I'm in big trouble when I reach home, because I am not allowed to go out of the house after 5:00 p.m. unless it is to buy something for the house or my sisters or my father. Its way past late seen how school let out at 2:40 p.m., it's only a fifty-five minute walk to my house from the school; seen how I life at the edge of the territory, I usually reach my home at around 3:35 p.m.

The meeting took longer than I thought it would, if I knew it would take this long, then I wouldn't have come. I was supposed to go straight home after school to take care of my baby sisters. I got up and started making my way to my house when I bumped into someone.

"Please don't tell me it's Luis." I pray to myself, as I slowly looked up and just my luck, it is him. He is the biggest homophobic jerk I know of well beside my dad that is. Luis Smith is 6'1 taller over my 5'0 film, brown eyes that anyone would say that were beautiful. When I was around twelve or thirteen I use to have a crush on him; before he became my biggest nightmare. His hair is dark brown and style in a buzz cut style with the middle long and the size short.

He's been making my life a living hell ever since he found out about my secrets. He started to make my life hell; because, he found out first of all, I didn't shift on my 13 birthday at the pack ground where everyone who goes through their first shift goes at. But for some reason, or the other, I couldn't do it like every other male wolf does. Female wolves shift on their 14 birthday one year after us guys do, I don't know why that happens, but it is how things work in the supernatural world.

Our world is different from what they show in movies, television shows, in books or novels. When the full moon appears werewolves don't lose control of their wolves. We don't go out hunting and hurt people. We don't have to wait for a full moon to shift to our wolf form; we can do it anytime we want.

Second, he bullies me because I'm gay and a cross dresser. Yes you heard me correctly! I'm a gay and cross dresser werewolf, my family knows that I'm gay and my brothers support me; because, they too are gay and married to their mates, which happen to be the alpha and the beta from our neighboring pack, The Blue Shine Pack.

"Watch where you're going," Luis said with a sick smirk on his face as he pushes me made me land on my back. I was waiting for a kick, or a punch like every other time this happens. However, right before he hit me we heard a voice that makes me shakes in fear and pleasure at the same time.

"What's going on here," Bran husky beta voice reaches my ear as I look up to a man with a blank look on his face. When our eyes met, I saw many emotions go through them before one caught my attention protectiveness in his light blue eyes. He had his dark brown hair in short sides, longer hair with texture on top; it was really hot and sexy. He wore his tight dark blue ripped skinny jeans. Pair up with his jeans he had a tight black shirt in the front was written "TAO OF JEET KUNE DO", that shows all his sexy six pack abs and muscles. To finish off his look he wore his black and blue sneaker.

I have a huge crush on him too. I know it's wrong how you like both of your packs soon to be alpha male and soon to be beta at the same time. But they don't like you in return so why not just give up. But somewhere deep inside me is telling me not to, that they will return my feelings someday. Luis voice broke me from my thoughts.

"Nothing is happening, right Benjamin?" Luis asked me with a look which; that said "mess up and you are dead," had me shake badly. I know when he makes that look that it will hurt me a thousand times worse than what he had a plan for me before. It has me as scared as a mouse.

The fear cause me to shake like I'm been electrified.

****FLASHBACK****

Time line: January 1, 2008

"Hey Grandma! How was your holiday away from us?" My excited six year old self yell old, as I saw my grandma bright blue eyes, when she sat on the red sofa in our living room. She caught me as I jump onto her lap.

"Here love. My holiday was okay, but I miss my cookie monster so much. How you been?" Her caring eyes lock onto mine as a smile took over her face. Her fingers found my ticklish stomach as she starts ticking me tickles me

"Please grandma! Stop, please stop tickling me!" I scream in between bouts of laughter.

After what felt like hours but was ready only half an hour she stop smiling down at me. "I guess I will...........for now." she smiles a mischievous smile with a twinkle in her eyes that hasn't been there since my grandpa passed away a year ago.

"Grandma what is fear," my curiosity got the best of me. I heard Hunter and Eason talking about their fear of father find out they're gay... Why would the father be angry that they are happy?

"Why do you want to know?" She looked into my eyes searching for something.

"I overheard Hunter and Eason saying their fear when father find out they're gay, doesn't gay mean they're happy. And I want to know what fear is?" I eagerly stated. I love to learn new things and experiences unlike other my age who just want to play. I like going to school to learn new things maybe that why I have A+ in all my classes.

"Okay Benjamin, most people have a different view on fear. For most think that fear,

Grips you like a dying man.

On his last breathe with regret to reveal.

It weighs you down like cement, tied to your legs before entering the water.

It drives you crazy like the second hand, running in circles on the clock.

Fear is debilitating like a missing leg preventing you from standing up for yourself.

A war forever waged across the battlefield of life.

Each victory prepares you for the next fight.

Each defeat sends you running in retreat.

Fear is a guest not welcome in your home

Do not let it past the threshold.

Fear is a tenant not paying rent.

Evict it before it tears your building down.

We all have within us the tools to succeed.

Use strength as your hammer, confidence as your nails, constructing your salvation, building your freedom.

Once completed, maintain it you must for fear has no place in your brave new world."

"You understand Ben" grandma sad eyes look down on me as if she is thinking back to a sad chapter in her life.

"Yeah grandma but to you what is fear" my omega curious come out. Omegas are known to be curious to learn new things.

The Ocean by Sally H

"I'm just swimming in my ocean of fears,
Heading towards the deep end.
I never thought it would go so far.
I'm lost in my ocean.
I don't want to be here anymore.

Why is it that my ocean is so full and rapid?
Why me?
Why aren't all the rocks and dirt banned?
If they weren't here, I wouldn't need to swim anymore.
But know; the water is freezing.

There is something sending me deeper and deeper.
Somewhere I feared it would never go.
Someplace that I knew was always there, but would never affect me.
Fish whispering, they know I don't belong here.
They take one look at me and think I'm lost; I'm in the wrong place.

But it's true. I am lost.
Trying to scream but I'm too far down in the ocean for anyone to hear me,
There's some type of power forcing me,
The type of power that should be illegal.
I'm just staring, I can't do anything else.

I can tell my ocean stopped providing water,
But it's never going to evaporate.
How can the water evaporate when the problem will never come right back up?
Nothing's going to change...I'm paralyzed, I can't even blink,
and all I'm thinking is

Why me?

****END OF FLASHBACK****

"You okay?" Bran worried fill voice snapped me from my thoughts. He took one of my hands with his and helps me up. I look around and see that Luis must have leave sometime through my flashback to the time I had to ask my grandma the meaning of fear. Today what she told me is the truth. What fear was to her is the same for me.

"Yes," I blush and look down. "T-Th-Thanks," I shakily added a minute later.

"Why didn't you fight back?" Bran eyes capture glance had me frozen in time. I can detect angry, hate, protectiveness and something else that looks like love, before quickly disappearing. I shake my head I must have image that last one, because there is no way in hell that he can love someone so weak and broken like me.

"I can't," I said annoyed that I can't do anything more for myself.

"Why can't you?" Bran asked as confusion fills his eyes and a sad smile turns his happy face upside down.

"He is too strong," I answer again with a roll of my eyes. It's true, I can't fight him. He had shift, and I hadn't so that make him 10 times stronger than me.

"No he is not," Bran said as if it's a fact. He thinks like that because for him Luis is not so strong but that is because he has his beta strength.

"Yes," I stated painfully. Because I had finally said my fears out loud which makes it so much more real than saying it in my head.

"No," Bran said with a growl as his eye stay focused on my face causing me to blush bright red as a fresh pick tomatoes.

"Yes he has already shift I hadn't yet," I said annoyed that I have to repeat myself again, even I had only said it in my head.

"So...o," Bran said like he is not get why I didn't try harder to protect myself.

"So that make him stronger than me," I said angrily that he doesn't get it and wouldn't just leave me alone. Omegas are naturally the weakest in the pack even weaker than the young teen that just shift.

One side of me was angry that Bran doesn't see that I'm just an omega technology just a human even don I haven't shift yet, I still have the werewolf genre in me making me an omega. While another side of me was happy that the boy I have had a crush on since sixth grade cared for my safety, must mean he feels the same way I do. But then the thought that Bran was only doing his beta duty of looking after his pack member crush that small amount of hope that I had of Bran returning my feeling.

"No it doesn't," Bran said. I don't know why he wants me to fight back so much. Why does he care so much? Could it be no I shake my head to get rid of that thought? He would never want someone like me when he can have any beautiful girl or handsome guy in the pack.

"Lola comes on! We have work that we need to start to do," Jason said looking jealous and sad all at once. I could see a blush form on Bran's cheeks as Jason call his childhood nickname, we came up with when we were like around five.

"Okay," Bran, dreamy eyes told me; I bet all my money; that Bran had a crush on Jason, answers him with a dreamy look in his eyes. I have seen that look for as long as I can remember. It the same exact look I give them every time I see them.

Before turning to me and gives me a small wink before turning around and making his way to Jason, but stops before looking my way. Jason looks my way and I can't help but blush and hide my face away from them. I continued walking to my house. When I reached home I hoped my dad is not there. He is always drunk, and when he is like that he abuses me.

The abuse all started because he still blames me for my mother death, in addition to me not shift yet and last but no less I told him I was gay. Let just say he hates my guts. I don't get it he play the blame game like some preschool children do.

Blame Game by Ann Currin

You're so devoted to all your grudges,

You cherish them like they're a prize;

You hold them with pride on your pedestal

Bursting with bliss as your relationships die.

Next time you frame everyone's mistakes

And hang them right above their head,

You should hang up a mirror as well

And take a good look at yourself instead.

You love to play the blame game

So let's play another round-

What's wrong- are you too ashamed

To turn your finger around?

You're so foolish to expect anybody

To respect a narcissistic point of view;

Within your childish perception the lens

Is solely focused on you, you, you, and you.

Next time you frame everyone's mistakes

And hang them right above their head,

You should hang up a mirror as well

And take a good, long look at yourself instead.

You love to play the blame game

So let's play another round-

What's wrong- are you too ashamed

To turn your finger around?

Yeah, you love to play the blame game

So let's play another round-

What's wrong- are you too ashamed

To turn your finger around?

This poem has a special place in my heart because my mom uses to tell us, me, Hunter, Eason and Angel, this poem every night after a bedtime story. She uses to always say "You are responsible for your life. You can't keep blaming somebody else for your dysfunction. Life is really about moving on." by Oprah Winfrey. She use to life by this quote and poem, if something bad were to happen in her life she never would blame it on other but instill she will try to do the best she can with what life give her. I live by this same mindset but it's hard to do with a dad like mine. I shake my head I'm get off topic here where was I? O yet I was tell you of my dad, will the devil on earth ready. Let continue should we.

My dad, Lucifer, is a big homophobic beside Luis that I know of. I thought he would accept me, but he didn't. He has this hate for gay people that I don't know why or where it came from. Over the last century same sex mates have become common all over the world and supernatural world too. But in the Dusk Fall pack some member still can't get over their homophobic ways that they learn from their parents and grandparents. Which I couldn't get seen how at least two fifth of our pack member are mated to the same sex.

You may be wondering where my mom is, and why isn't she stopping him from abuse me. Will you shouldn't wonder. Bella, my mom's name, died when I was only 8 years old after been attack by a group of rogues and spend ten month in a coma. My unborn sister and brother survived the attack and five months into my mom coma their were born via caesarean section or c-section.

Hunter was 13 at the time when our life change forever. Hunter has my mom's light green eyes but my dad's black hair. He is about 5'9 and his birthday is May 10, 1998. Hunter found his mate when he was sixteen, in the alpha of Blue Shine Knight pack, Blake Knight was twenty at the time that Hunter meet him when they came here with his brother to sign a treaty. Blake has dark brown hair and light blue eyes, he is about 6'3 and has muscle,his birthday is on August 10, 1996, he is good looking and hot but not as hot as Bran and Jason are.

Eason on the other hand was 12 at the time our mom die, so with he and Hunter as the oldest they took it upon themselves to bring in the money and rise us. Eason was born on March 10, 1999 and he is about 5'8 an inch or so shorter than Hunter. Sam Knight, beta from Blue Shine Knight pack was here for a meeting Andrew our current alpha. Sam is Blake younger brother by ten months, because Blake father's beta only had girls Blake choice Sam as his beta. Eason has my mom's brown hair almost blond color and my dad light brown eyes. Where as Sam had grey color eyes and dark brown hair. Sam is about 6'1 and he just turn eighteen onMarch 8, when he learn Eason was his mate.

Let me get back to want I was saying before I started to decriple my brother to you. What happen to my mom is this.

****FLASHBACK****

Time Line: January 2, 2011

"Mama let go on a walk in the woods, please" my small eight out self ask wanting to go out and play and feel the ground at my feet and smell the different scent of nature all around us. Been in the forest is a calm and peaceful feeling. Been a werewolf we love the smell and calm the forest give us as we walk or run in there.

"I don't know if that is a good idea baby" warm bright green eyes that are as green as the forest look so happy at me.

"Please" I made my eyes go big and fill with tears pouring out my lip a little.

"Okay" She said not been able to say no to my sad puppy dog eyes. To this day I can't find anyone who can say no to my sad face. My mom got my shoes on for me as she smiled her happy and fun fill smile that brighten anyone's day, we make our way outside. She changes to her light brown wolf with glowing green eyes. She got down so I could get on her back. She starts to run and the wind picked up. We reach a beautiful waterfall filled with so many different flowers from different colors and size. I got down and she changed back.

"Where are we mama" I happy asked as a spin around looking at every small little thing that my little eyes saw. I love the nature is so quiet and peaceful.

"We are at my secret place no one know of it but you" She with one of the first happy similes I have seen on her face all day, beside the one she give me inside. I saw her belly be a little bigger than normal.

"Mama why is your belly bigger than normal?" My curiosity got the best of me. I know my mama is hiding something. I spend all my time with her so I know when she is hiding something like she knows when I'm hiding something.

"Baby boy you can't tell this to anyone okay?" Her eyes filled with worry and fear of something. I don't know why but I have a feeling I need to follow her advice of no one find out about my mama's secret. Been a big mama's boy at heart I wouldn't break my mama's trust on me not now or ever.

"Yes mama what is it?" I smile a happy smile know my mama trust me enough to know I will never betray her trust by tell anyone her secret.

"Baby you will be a big brother again." She slow said not know how I will react to the news. For a minute or so I was confused before her word recognize in my brain and a smile broke out on my face.

"Ready?" I ask again to make sure I heard correctly and am not just imagine it.

"Yes baby you hear correctly. You will be a big brother in five months." My mama smile a timid and sad smile before it changes to a happy smile. Werewolf pregnancy only last six months for regular wolf; on the other hand, alpha's, beta's and gamma's pregnancy last for four months, whereas for royal wolf pregnancy last three months.

"Yes I will have another brother or sister to play with and help you take care of." I jump up and down excited I will get another sibling to play with. Another family member, who will love me and be kind and caring to me like I will be to them, I can't wait to meet them for the first time. I love all of my siblings, and I will love this new little one too as much as I love my older siblings and as much as I love my younger siblings.

"Well you have both," she stated will a happy smile on her face. When I hear that I stop jumping and my jaw drop to the floor.

"You say you having twin as in a boy and girl" I ask shock, because I never new in either her side or my dad side of the family we had multiply.

"Well yea in your dad side of the family will his dad, your grandfather was a twin, and in my side of the family, my great grandmother was a twin."She said with a sad smile when she thought of her family. When I was younger we use to see her family during the holiday and special celebrations, but the last three years we have been see less and less of them. I don't know why is like my dad is try to ensure we never see my mom family ever again. I shake my small head no way. I'm just over thinking again.

Like I always do these days, I have found myself analysis my dad action more and more, like something in me knew my mom and siblings weren't save. Like my dad isn't my real dad anymore, like is his evil twin or something. "No" I shake my head, that crazy talk or thought. I'm just overwhelmed with the news of new siblings. I love my younger sister and brother but I want a another brother to play with too. Now I'm getting both and I'm super happy about it.

"Benjamin. Benjamin. Are you okay my baby boy?" My mom worried voice broke me from my thoughts. My eyes snap to her worried and sad fill watery eyes, my heart broke see my mom so scared and is that fear and anxious in her eyes. Like she doesn't want to bring my sibling into this world, which I can tell she would love and is happy about her unborn angels/ miracles. Like she fear my father reaction, which is stupid my father was so happy when we found out about Angel and I know he will have the same reaction when he find out about this angels. But something in my gut tells me that my mom has a point.

"Everything will be fine." She didn't look like she believes what she was saying. I let out a sad whimper not like that my happy and full of life mama is looking like if her life was ending now. Then I remember she told me to not tell anyone of her been pregnant which is so unlike her normal self.

"Why can't I tell Hunter, Eason, Conner and Angel about a new siblings we will have?" I ask not get why I have to keep my excitement and happiness of a new siblings is on the way a secret from my father and siblings.

"Because your father doesn't know, yet I will tell them soon okay? Just wait for the perfect time to surprise them." She happy stated but I can see she was still scared of something. Not want my mama to be scared of anything.

"Okay fine." I stated have a happy smile on my face I can't wait to have another sibling again. I can see my word help her because her eyes didn't hold as much fear or panic as before. But I could still see the fear in them like she is scared of what my father will say about the new addition to our family. Not like the look of fear and pain which her eyes show, I came up with the idea to talk about something that makes her happy and looking around again I came up with the best subject in history.

"Thanks for sharing it with me mama" I said and saw how her entire face light up bright like a Christmas tree on Christmas eve. A happy and bright smile light up her face again and her eyes fill with love and content about our topic show through her eyes. I love when mama share thing like this with me it make me feel special like I mean something for her. My dad likes to do things with my older brothers he doesn't like to spend time with me because I don't like to play sport. I would wander play dress up with mama cloths and cook than been in the sun with a ball and do things like hunting or patrolling. We were making our way back when we heard

"RRRRRRRRRRRRRRR," coming from the brush that has my small body shaking with fear, I could feel my heartbeat pick up as fear flow my veins. Four big mean looking gray wolf jump out of the brushes with bright glowing red eyes, which lets me know they rogues. Wolves that become rogues get kick out of their pack because their either broke a rule of their pack or a rule of the supernatural court. There are the exceptions of those rogues that are born into that lifestyle.

Mama turn into her wolf form as she step in front of me to protect me from the scare looking wolf that were looking at me with a mischief look in their eye, like I was a juicy piece of meat to them.

<"Run"> mama agonize voice fills my mind. I was in shock so much, I didn't and couldn't move in fear that if I move they will attack me, and I wouldn't be able to defend myself. At the same time I didn't want to leave my mama and unborn sibling with this dangerous threat that can hurt or kill them in second. It was fours against one which is an unfair advantage they have against us.

<"Benjamin, you need to run to the house now. NOW GET OUT OF HERE!!!!"> Her anxiety fill voice yell at me. I turn to the path we were head and run as fast as my small leg were care me. I make it to the back yard when I saw dad and Hunter heading into the woods.

<"AAAAAAAAAA">I heard before I heard a pain fill howls follow it.

<"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"> was the last think I hear before everything turn dak. The next time I open my eyes and am meet with a white clint as my eyes move around I'm meet with white wall. My ear move to the sound and I see I'm connect to a heart monitor. Looking down I see a needle sticking out of my arm. I glare at it and follow the tube to th IV stand. Releasing a sigh I know I beg Hunter and Eason, they will make me keep it because it's for my health.

"Hunter, Eason why am I here." I ask because I can't understand why I would be lay down on a hospital bed for. I can't remember what happen before I pass out and I'm not sure if that a good thing or not at the moment.

"You and mom were attack by rogue. Mom told you to run and we hear mom holw for back up so we race to where youguy were." Hunter start to explain what happen before I pass out before he had to stop to take a deep breath.

"But before we could get to you a rogue jump on you and bit into your shoulder. You were lose to much blood." Eason take up the explaination after we see that Hunter need a few seconds or a minute to get his feels under control again.

"What happen to mom and the other rogues?" I ask starting to remember what happen before I pass out and I know deep down I know I would not like their answer to my question. But I need to know what happen to my mom and unborn brother and sister.

"Mom did not make we were to late" Hunter started explain "and for the rogues dad kiil all but one manage to get away." Eason finsh the explaination before they eyes fill with tears come down his face when he saw tear come down my face and my body shake they pull me into a hug.

***END OF FLACK BACK ****

My older brothers' Hunter and Easton left the house after finding their mates that's when my life turned into a living hell. I told my dad I was gay and I didn't shift. He also blames me for my mother's death. But to my luck his truck was parked right outside the house. I made my way inside, and up to my room try to be a quiet as a lion on the hurt for his prey. But I step on a lose board that make a loud noise whenever someone step on it. I know my lucky my dad heard and he is on his way to my room now. I can't lock the door because it will make him madder that he is and he will just break it and hurt me worst than he plan to hurt me.

"Where were you bitch?"Lucifer angry yells at me. Fuck I forget to cook dinner for him tonight. I heard he angry footstep run up the stair and down the hallway make its way closer and closer to my door. Before he burst into the doorway with an angry face as I see his eyes are glow a bright red color before change into his wolf yellow color. I can tell my dad everyday is closer and closer to losing his humanity and give into his wolf nature instincts.

"At the pack meet," I said I don't want to lie to him. He will get madder if I don't tell him the truth, and he end up finding out. Let's just say I did it once, and it caused me to be close with my best friend, death, and besides the fact that I can't leave my siblings with him, or they will end up like me or worst off.

"Why were you there? You're not a wolf," my dad said looking disgusted, and disappointed in me.

"Yes I am," I said back feeling something wanting to come out. I know I haven't turn, but that doesn't make me less werewolf than him.

"No you didn't shift so that makes you a weak little human," He yelled at me. I still have the genes in me.

"No," I angrily and stubborn stated at him forget for a second he hate disobedience. Why is he saying something like that? I don't know what I did to make him hate me so much.

"YES," He yells back cheeky genre fill his eyes like a child who getting a new toy to play with.

"NO"!!! I yell at him inscrutable, I can feel something inside me snapped at him.

"Don't yell at me," He hateful and angry yells at me as a roguish look took over his eyes. He started to walk over to me as I take a step back, but hit the wall behind me. While Lucifer makes his way right in front of me so I can't escape, I am trap here. He punches me in the stomach and knocks all the wind out of me. He then sends me flying in the air as I hit the wall opposite to the wall I was at. He starts to kick me, but that's not the worst. I don't know how long after he got up to leave, and came back a couple of minutes later having a pack knife with him.

He started to cut out words on my body, I gave up fighting, and let darkness take over knowing that my siblings are okay, making it easier for me to let go of the pain and go to the place I can always forget it all, all the abuse, all the hate, all the self-hate, I have for myself.

Word Count: 5,650

Edited on July 2, 2019

A/N

Ø  Jayson name was changed to Jason and I will be changing as I edit the story.

Ø  Jayson's wolf Amory was change to Ajax.

Ø  Logan name was changed to Bran and I will be changing as I edit the story.

Ø  Logan's wolf Louis name was changes to Titus.

Question about this chapter?

1.) What are your thoughts on Benjamin lack of self-confidence?

2.) Do you think Benjamin has a chance to be with Jason and Bran or not?

3.) Your thoughts on Benjamin's Father and his hate for his son?

4.) What are you thoughts on Benjamin flash back on his recollection with his grandma and on his recollection on his last day with his mom?