"All that I ever wanted, I never got but
somehow life always provided what I needed instead."

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Chapter 12: Baby, I've been lost.

"What the hell?!"

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"Why do you have a baby?" Niall asked still surprised at Eileen holding a tiny human in between her chest and arms.

"Niall..." she said just that, like he was supposed to read between the lines of the situation but he was still confused as to where that child had come from.

"What?"

"Niall..." She looked deeply into his eyes and even then Niall was clueless. "He's your son."

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Louis didn't know how long he could go pacing and pulling hairs. He was stressed and he needed a cigarette.

Why the fuck did she keep calling? Louis was desperate to smoke so he'd forget about getting fired, and now this shit, plus Harry had left and that couldn't seem to leave Louis' head.

So he sneakily grabbed one and lit it in the small balcony they had, begging for Zayn not to find out.
But he wasn't lucky on that subject.

Not even his first drag in and... "Where is Louis?" Zayn's voice was heard.

"I think he went to the balcony, love." Liam answered making Louie curse under his breath.

"Caught on the act, Louis Tomlinson. What do you have to say for yourself?" Zayn said with the smirk as he walked into the balcony, closing the door behind him.

"You are in a good mood." Louie commented a in bored untruthful tone, dragging from the cigarette after. "I'm sorry, I know you are on a thin line but I needed a smoke."

"It's fine." Zayn reassured leaning agains the wall, right by Louis' side. "So... couldn't help but notice Harry's things are gone?"

Louie rolled his eyes, and dragged the longest breath he could from the cigarette. His shoulder relaxed and even though he didn't really wanna talk about Harry that much, he felt calmer.

He took the little piece of paper Harry had left him, from his jacket's pocket and handed it to Zayn not even looking at his reaction.

Just dragging from the cigarette that was about to end, in pure silence.

"You know, I never told you this... but a few years ago- I hooked up with this boy and we weren't really that compatible but he was hot and we remained friends. We kind of balanced each other out. Until one day, he pushed me away and I was so weak that I fell back into my addiction like a maniac and then my mom kicked me out- well, you know that part! And... I never saw Harry again. That was before I found him naked in my kitchen giving you heart ey-"

"Wait? You two had sex?" Louie scrunched his face making Zayn's eyes roll.

"That is what you took from that story?"

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" Louie turned to give Zayn a scold but he was stopped by his best friend's hand pressed on his shoulder.

"Louie, Harry is someone who keeps to himself and hides all the tim-"

"So what? I should just give him up?" Louis answered in a bitter tone.

"No! You should go after him and insist cuz it's not gonna be easy."

Louie looked into Zayn's eyes with curiousity. Was he actually rooting for his 'oponent'? Louie thought Zayn hated Harry.

A ringtone alarmed the two boys, Louie immediately realising it was his phone. He took it out of his jeans' back pocket and both boys looked at the screen.

"This is the third time today." Louis' tone was completly different. Like something inpenatrable, a sorrow locked away that Zayn couldn't help reflecting over.

"Pick up, Louie. Maybe it's important."

"I couldn't be bothered." Louis shrugged and leaned his head back, appearing to be calm and collected.

"Don't you think that if Lottie is calling you maybe it's important? Maybe it's something bad? Something terrible? I know that you are on bad terms but she is your sister, you're family."

"Where do you think I can find Harry?"

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"He's mine.... I'm a father? I- I have... I have a son?" Eillen sat on the sofa, breastfeading. Niall was lightly uncomfortable with that and just in plain shock. Like he couldn't pronounce words correctly and his brain couldn't finish thought.

He roamed around the room in large steps, scratching his scalp and then stopping to think, but eventually walking from one side to the other again and again.

"Wait! Is this why you left?" He freezed, finally being able to take some type of conclusion and looking Eileen in her eyes.

She nodded, her eyes glistened with water before she looked away, a tear strolling down her fluffly tinted cheek.

"Why? Why would you do that?" Niall screamed trying to get her attention, startling the baby who started crying.

"It's just-" her eyes got filled with tears, making her voice crack. She took a hand to her face, wiping a tear away trying to compose herself. It was like everything was falling on her shoulder all over again. She got up and went further inside the house to put the baby to sleep.

When she came back she seemed more collected, she sat on the couch and smiled as Niall, who still held a confused expression sat next to her, cautiously, as if his whole world had been shaken.

"We were fighting so much, I actually thought we were gonna break up." She started talking but didn't last much before her voice cracked. "When I found out I just- I didn't want to abort it and I know about your dreams and aspirations and I didn't wanna force you to have it... But... everyone kept telling me that you should know."

Niall had tear filled eyes as well. He felt his chest tighten.

"I know I'll regret leaving you always but... I may not regret telling you, you have a son."

"You went through this all alone."

"I had my family."

"I wasn't there. I- I wasn't there- for any of it."

"I'm sorry."

"I don't know whether to forgive you or be mad at you."

"It's all confusing to me too."

"Is it?" Niall snapped and got up. "Is it really?" He asked louder.

"Niall..." There she went with her calming voice calling his name soothingly. It did nothing for him.

"Don't 'Niall..' me! You left. You really think I would've sent you to abort this baby if that wasn't what you wanted? When have I ever disrespected your wishes? I respected you! Always. Fuck. I loved you. I didn't care about my other dreams. You were my dream, Eileen. All these months of wondering why you skipped town and you come back with a new human that you and I made and I didn't even know of it. Can you understand why I am mad?"

"I wasn't thinking."

"You had months to come back, okay? Months. This is not something you can rule off as 'I wasn't thinking.' Cuz what? You weren't thinking for nine months? My dad died, Eileen. My dad died! I was alone. All I wanted was for you to come back." Eileen closed her eyes after he said that. It was like an intoxicating feeling released inside her.

"I'm sorry." She said with her eyes closed still, and tears rolling down her face. "Tell me what to do and I'll do it. I'll do anything to try to fix this."

"You can't. I want to be his father, but you can't fix this."

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Niall walked out of Eileen's apartment with his jacket in hand. "Maybe he could spent the weekend with me." Niall said as they reached the lobby.

"Okay. Yeah, sure." Eileen looked at the ground avoiding Niall's blue gaze.

"I'll swing by to pick him up?" Niall proposed as he reached for the door.

"That works." She mumbled hearably, before watching as Niall's body flexed as he opened the door and started to step out.

Until hesitantly turned back around. "By the way, what did you name him?"

"Umm- haha..." A smile lit her face in surprise. "Bobby. After your father."

And then he smiled. He was ready to walk out.

"Niall..." Eileen called. And that time the way she said had a different ring to it. Regret, maybe. He turned around to look at her brown eyes. "I am sorry." She said.

"I know." He nodded unconsciously, for way too long because a gut feeling was starting to eat him up inside that he had forgotten to do something and he didn't want to leave without getting it. "Eileen..."

And their gazes met intensely. It was there and then Niall knew what he had forgotten.

So without thinking twice he grabbed her by the hips, quickly pulling her to be pressed against him before their lips collided in a heated kiss that made Niall's broken heart somehow heal.

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QUESTION #1: Were you surprised Niall is a father? What do you think of it?

QUESTION #2: Why did Zayn suddenly encouraged Louie to go after Harry? And no it's not Liam, or not only Liam... that is too easy.

QUESTION #3: Are you surprised that Zayn and Harry hooked up and kept it from Louie?

QUESTION #4: Why is Lottie calling Louie? Any guesses about what she wants?

QUESTION #5: Why did Niall feel like he had to kiss Eileen? Why did he do it?

A/N: Heyah! Short chapter but I was so excited about this one. The adventure is starting to really take off. I can't wait for all there is still to come!!!!

See you next time!