TRIGGER WARNING: self harm (mentions)

     The trio of boys walked happily hand in hand to Evan's empty house. Connor stole kisses from Evan as they giggled along the path, Jared rolling his eyes but feeling happy for Evan. The cold autumn air blew on the backs of them and Evan shivered. Connor took notice quickly, taking off his sweatshirt to give to Evan. He took it blushing, insisting Connor would get cold but he shook his head. They eventually approached Evan's house, stumbling through the door.

     "So you can put your stuff here... And like, we can go to my room if thats comfortable. I have food and movies and shit..." Evan rambled on. He had never really had a "sleepover" before. As a child he was always to scared that something would happen so he opted out of the situation if invited. 

     "Awesome, I'm gonna go fuck myself in your bathroom."

     "Wha-"

     "He's kidding." Connor shot Jared a sharp glare, wrapping his arms around Evan as they walked up the stairs into his room. Evan collapsed onto the bed, Jared falling in place next to him. The two of them had been friends for ages, and it was nice for them to catch up with each other in the midst of drama. Jared leant his hand comfortably on Evan's shoulder, knowing the spots to avoid. He always tried to be careful around Evan, having been with him through the whole Will ordeal. Evan smiled, playing with the rips on Jared's jeans. Connor stood looking out the window, out of the corner of his eyes seeing Jared and Evan almost cuddling. He picked up the remote to flick on a movie, The Fault in Our Stars turning on.

     "Blehhh... We watched this ages ago, remember Ev?"

     "I-I thought it was cute!" Evan giggled, leaning more into Jared's side. Frowning, Connor sat on the end of the bed. He looked up to Evan, still in his sweatshirt and blushed a little. He tried not to get jealous over the boys friendship. Being careful of where Evan had triggers, he climbed his way up his chest and rested on top of Evan. Evan blushed red, holding his smaller arms around Connor. Connor's arms gripped around Evan tightly, closing his eyes as the movie played in the background. Jared smiled at the boys, picking up his phone to text Rich and Jake. His relationship with them seemed solid but he always felt a bit on the outside.

     "Remember this part? When she writes his eulogy? You were bawling." Jared snickered, looking to Connor to play with his jealousy. He continued to lean his head on Evan, cuddling further into his side. He saw Connor frown again, holding Evan tighter.

     "Well, me and Evan went out on a date over the weekend and it was way cuter than whatever this shit is." Connor almost snapped back, hiding his face in Evan's neck as he blushed. Evan rubbed small circles into Connor's back, trying to reassure him. 

     "Yeah... That was nice." He added cheerily, feeling Jared leave his position.

     "I'm gonna go grab food, want anything?"

     "Chocolate?" Connor's eyes lit up excitedly, Evan smiling at the other boy acting adorable. Jared nodded and trailed downstairs, pulling out his phone to call Rich as he walked.

     "I love you." The words rolled off of Evan's tongue smoothly and Connor was caught by surprise and sat up next to the boy still engulfed in his arms. 

     "I love you too," He started, pulling his arm over Evan's chest. Evan looked at his arms, never seeing them as they were hidden under the sweatshirt. Tears sparked in his eyes as he saw now fading scars along the soft pale skin, some fresh marks around other areas.

     "C-Con?"

     "Fuck, you weren't supposed to see those. Can I have my sweatshirt back? Or like... Just anything to cover my arms?" Connor's voice was sharp, and Evan looked more and more like he was about to cry.

     "Please don't do it. Please... I'll try anything to help you... Y-You can't keep doing it!" Evan exclaimed out, Connor in shock at how confident he sounded. He hid into the side of Evan's neck, resting his lips gently against Evan's neck. His lips left small kisses as tears trailed down his face slowly.

     "I'm not worth it. But don't worry about me, I want to protect you... And if I can't do that..."

     "No... No! Stop... You don't need to do anything for me! Okay? Stop... cutting yourself... Connor... I'm going to call you every single night and make sure you don't! Or every morning. Whenever! P-Please reach out to me if you need it... Don't... Don't be scared of me..." A part of Connor broke seeing the boy choking on his own words as he tried not to cry.

     "I-I'm sorry... I'll never be scared of you... I fucking love you, okay? And I'm going to try to stop. It probably won't work but it's worth a damn try. J-Just... don't hate me if I mess up?"

      "I won't. I promise I won't. We're going to get through this, together. I can't do it without y-you... Don't leave me!" Evan screamed out quietly at the end, collapsing into Connor and whimpering as he took his wrist and laid wet kisses up and down his arm. The tears from Connor's eyes were dropping into Evan's hair and Connor tried to wipe his eyes quickly before he could effect the other anymore.

     "I promise too... I'd rather die. Fuck. I mean, I'm not going to. To die. And we're going to put on the best damn production and it's going to be fucking amazing. You're going to be fucking amazing. Okay?"

     "Okay..." Evan exhaled, trying to get his breath back to normal. He connected his lips to Connor, biting down a little on his lip as he felt tears stream past his mouth. Connor went deeper into the kiss, holding around Evan's back gently. 

     "Woah... I just went for food, if you're gonna bang though I'll leave..." Jared walked in with soda and some chips. Evan shivered in the kiss at the thought of sex, then feeling Connor hug him to his chest tightly.

     "Shut up, did you get my chocolate?" Jared threw a chocolate bar lazily onto the bed, Connor snatching it and opening it quickly. He broke off a piece for himself, then taking another part and holding it up to Evan. Evan opened his mouth as Connor fed him, Jared gagging in the corner. The couple giggled, kissing each other quickly.

     "You gotta stop that... That lovey stuff. It's like, to cute. Stop it." He teased, sitting down on the bed across from the others. The trio watched movies until early in the morning, eventually passing out on each other. Evan slept soundly as Connor cradled him in his arms, their lips just centimeters apart. Evan's arm thrown lazily around Connor's waist, and both of their legs entangled in each other. For a moment, it was okay. 

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a.n: i have no idea what i'm doing