The sand beneath my feet was whiter than snow,

So at odds with the dark waves that rushed to meet it.

The shimmering waves was a mask of the monster beneath the dove,

Or the haunting comfort that lay just beyond it.

The dark empty night sky reminded me of the sea's monstrous depth,

A ground or a pit,

I did not know.

The sapphire waves which rushed past,

Eager to meet the shore, 

Its only serendipity.

The foam was white as a mermaid's soul,

But the tears that stained were not a mermaid's pearl.

The sea with its darkness beckoned me,

The sound of the sea,

A siren's call.

The clouds far above reminded me of the angels I would never meet,

And the darkness beyond it,

Reminded me of the monsters those were waiting for me.

The waves rushed to and fro,

Beckoning me into its arms,

Much more welcoming than the air that I now breathed.

The cold that bit into my skin, 

Came with a warmth that I never felt before,

No epiphany could make me stay,

The answer to my relentless questions were me,

So I let myself go.

I let myself fall.

******************