The warm breath that fogs the cold air between your lips,
I know it won't last forever,
Just like the way it disappear into thin air.

I know your sick of holding on,
So I won't ask you to hold on more,
I won't show what you mean to me,
And make you miserable more.

I know the breath that you take isn't just oxygen,
But the pain and fight that dwells in you.
I won't pretend understand the fear that you fight to exhale.

I won't ask you to stay,
Not when every thud of your heart is just as painful as the next,
Every blink, hard and frightful as the next.
Not when all I offer is words that that compress my emotions,
And promises that I can never fully keep,
Not when I have already lost you in the dark sea,
And all I can see is your hand disappearing below the surface with nothing I could do.

I won't ask you the reason behind your pained smile,
Or the heart you already veiled behind a shroud.
I won't ask you to run miles more before you sleep,
Not with bruises on you feet all round.
But remember my warmth at least when the warmth finally leaves your pyre,
And maybe, I will tell myself I'm fine.

But those are just words again,
I will stay behind for you,
And try not to think of every grain that touched your skin that I loved to see,
And every single breath that I cherished.

I will hold myself in the eyes that you never saw,
And try to walk along your path and breath again.
So that someday when you wake,
I can tell you that you did well.

And hope that when you finally wake,
Its a with a will.
A will to stay awake.

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RIP Jonghyun. You really did well.