Krystal's POV:

I wake up and Shawny is sleeping on my couch. When I remembered what happen last night. Me and Jacob, almost... The shivers go down my spine as I thought of it. Me and Jacob need to break it off. If he could take advantage of me then he could do that again. And what if Shawny wasn't there next time, what would happen? I would've had sex, and not be a perfect virgin. I'm blessed Shawny was there. He is always there when I need him. I decide to get dressed into clothes for the day, after a shower.

I hate being a girl. You get that gross smell. It is not attractive at all. And you smell after like 3 hours. Thanks god that there is perfume when I need it. I turn on the shower and strip of my clothes. I get in the shower adjusting the water to a perfect temperature. I like steaming hot showers. They just feel nice and relax my body so I could just, think. I forgot to turn on my music, dammit,

"Shawny, are you awake!" I yell over the shower.

"You forgot your playlist again?"

"Yeah," he turns on the music and sets it on the counter with the door crack a little so he couldn't see me.

"You should really update your playlist,"

"Shut up Shawny, and get out!"He leaves.

My playlist has a lot of music because my showers are really long. The first song that comes on is sweatshirt. I wish I could drown now, then I remember the mini Alexa on my phone,

"Hey Alexa," I hear the beep,"remove all Jacob Sartorius songs,"

"Deleting,"

I wait as it buffers to the next song. Stan, hell yeah,

My teas gone cold and I'm
wondering why I got out of bed at all
Morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if  I could it would all be grey
But your picture on my wall it reminds me
That's it's not so bad, It's no so bad

My teas gone cold and I'm
wondering why I got out of bed at all
Morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if  I could it would all be grey
But your picture on my wall it reminds me
That's it's not so bad, It's no so bad

Dear Slim,
I wrote you but you still ain't calling
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn
you must not of got um
There's was probably a problem with the post office or something
Sometimes I scribble the address too sloppy when I  jot 'em
But anyways; fuck it, whats been up man
hows your daughter?
My girlfriends pregnant too
Imma 'bout to be a father
If I had a daughter
guess what i'm gonna call her?
Imma name her Bonnie
I read about your uncle Ronnie too
I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself  too
over some bitch that didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday
but I'm your biggest fan
I even have the underground shit you did with Skam
I have a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too
That shit was phat
Anyways I hope you get this man, just to chat
Truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan

My teas gone cold and I'm
wondering why I got out of bed at all
Morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if  I could it would all be grey
But your picture on my wall it reminds me
That's it's not so bad, It's no so bad

Dear Slim,
You still ain't call or wrote
I hope you get the chance
I ain't mad
I just think it's fucked up you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talked to me outside the concert you didn't have to
But you could've signed and autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man
We waited in the blistering cold for four hours and you just said no
That's pretty shit man
Your like his fucking idol
He wants to be just like you, man
He likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad but I just don't like being lied to
Remember in Denver you said if I write to you
you'd write me back
See I am like you
I never knew my father either
he use to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what your saying in your songs
So when I have a shitty day I drift away and put them on
And don't got shit else, so that shit helps when I'm depressed
I even go a tattoo with your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut my wrist to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline
The pain is just a sudden rush for me
See what your saying is real
and I respect you 'cause you tell
My girlfriends jealous because I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I do
No one does
She doesn't know what it was like for people like us growing up
You gotta hit me back
I be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
sincerely Stan
P.s. we should be together too

My teas gone cold and I'm
wondering why I got out of bed at all
Morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if  I could it would all be grey
But your picture on my wall it reminds me
That's it's not so bad, It's no so bad

DEAR MISTER-IM-TO-GOOD-TO-CALL-OR-WRITE-MY-FANS
This is the last package I'll ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no words
I don't deserve it
I know you got my last two letters
I wrote the Address' on them perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you
I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now
I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I just drank a fifth of vodka
Dare my to drive?
You know that song by Phil Collins?
"The air of tonight,"
About that guy who coulda saved that guy from drowning
But didn't, and Phil saw it all on an episode he found him
That's like how this is
You could've rescued me from drowning
It's too late now
I'm on a thousand downers now
I'm drowsy
And all I wanted was a lousy letter
or a call
I hope you know I ripped all your pictures of the wall
I love you,Slim
We could've been together
Think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about
And when you dream
I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
I hope your conscience eats you and you can't breath with out me
See, Slim...
Shut up bitch
I'm trying to talk
Hey, Slim
That's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk
I didn't slit her throat
I just tied he up
See I ain't like you
Because if she suffocates
She'll suffer more
And then she'll die too
Gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot
How 'm I supposes to send this shit out?

My teas gone cold and I'm
wondering why I got out of bed at all
Morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if  I could it would all be grey
But your picture on my wall it reminds me
That's it's not so bad, It's no so bad

Dear Stan,
Sorry I didn't write you sooner
I've just been busy
You said your girlfriends pregnant now
How far along is she?
Look, I'm really glad you would call your daughter that
And here's an autograph for your brother
I wrote it on the starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the concert
I must've missed you
Don't think I did that shit intentionally
Just to diss you 
But what's this shit that you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shits just clowning dogg
come on how fucked up is you
You have some issues Stan
I think you needs some counseling
To keep your ass from jumping of the walls when you get downsome
Ands what's this shit about us meant to be together
That's the kinda shit'll make me want us not to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
Or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter
I just hope it reaches you in time
I think you'll being doing just fine if you relax a little
I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
Why are you so mad
Understand
That I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
I saw this shit on the news
A couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk
but she was pregnant with his kid
And in the car they found a tape
but it didn't say who it was to
Come to think about it
his name was...
It was you
Damn

"Baby girl, your voice is beautiful but watch your language!" I roll my eyes and start washing my hair.

Once I was done washing myself I turned of the shower and slid open the glass door. Goose bumps grow on my body after I come into contact with the cooled air. I wrap my hair in a towel, along with my body. Carefully getting out, my feet coming in contact with the bathroom rug. I stare at myself in the steaming mirror, I grab another towel and wipe off the mirror revealing myself. I wash my face being carefully not to get my towel unwrap from my hair. After washing my face I take off the towel putting it in the laundry been and put my clothes on. I wear white high waisted jeans with a crock top that says baby girl on it.

I left the room and Shawny was no longer on the couch. I go down stairs and make breakfast until Shawny comes down stairs. He sits at the islands, eventually getting back up to set the dishes up,

"Baby Girl, what do you want to drink?"

"Sprite,"I avoid chocolate milk because that's what Jacob liked.

"It there something wrong Krys?"

"Me and Jacob are going to be over and I am avoiding anything that deals with him,"I say putting the food on the plates.

"Your gonna break it off?"He pours the drinks.

"Yeah, Why? Do you think it's the wrong thing to do?"We sit down in our stools.

"No. I just was clarifying."

We eat the rest of breakfast in silence. I get a text from Jacob, after breakfast,

Jacob:Princess, can we hang
Krystal:Yeah
Jacob:I'll be there soon
Krystal:Oki

Shawny was looking over my shoulder and at the text. He nodded in agreement pretty much reading my mind. He knew I was gonna break it off today. We go to the couch and sit on it watching TV. He all the sudden mutes the TV, If you need me I will be here waiting for you," He gave me a sympathetic look. We just feel into an immense stare. Sitting there. Slowly moving close together and I brushed my lips against his. I started like, for real kissing him. I tangle my hands in his hair and he puts his hands on my waist. We weren't thinking right then and there. It felt like the right think to do when it wasn't. We didn't stop until there was a knock on the door. I pull back and quickly walk away. Getting to the door.

Of course Jacob was at the door and I went with him. I was debating on how I should break up with me. I decide to just wait for the perfect time to break it off with him. He takes me to a fancy restaurant and I felt underdressed. We talk most of the time and order food. Eventually, he gets down on one knee,

"Krystal Marie Bennett-Mendes, will you marry me please?" All eyes are on us but I can't say yes.

"No," I act like it's obvious and I don't hesitated.

"No?"

"Jacob, I came here to say that me and you are done," you can hear no sympathy in my voice.

I get up and just leave him there looking like a dumbstruck, fool. How to professionally reject a guy. And I don't feel bad for him either. I walk how, because why not? I remembered all the time me and Jacob spent together. It was like I could breath out him. He pretty much lived with us. Then lately we have been distant. He just came back from Virginia yesterday morning. I haven't sense him for 2 months before yesterday. I saw him on Halloween and then he left the next night. And then he came back for the party. I walk as fast as I can to get home.

I finally reach the front door. Then I remembered where my purse is. I have my phone but not my purse. I call Jacob,

"Jacob can you bring me my purse,"

"Yes," I hear him sniffling and hung up.

"Shawny, Jacob's coming over soo, so answer the door please," I say calling him.

"You forgot your purse, and I want details Krys,"I knew he was talking about the brake up.

"Ok,"I hang up and he opens the door.

I go to the couch and play on my phone 'till I heard the doorbell. I groan and get up walking to the door. I open the door take my purse out of his hand, and shut the door on his face,

"Thanks Jacob,"

"Krystal, can we please talk?"

"There's nothing to talk about Jacob. You took advantage of me and then you asked me to marry you. What the actual fuck Jacob,"

"Please Krystal. Just can I please talk to you. Please," I open the door and let him in.

"Ok you talk I listen,"We sat down on the couch next to each other.

"Yesterday when we like... you know, i didn't mean to go that far Krystal. I wasn't thinking. But you seemed so sad it just seemed to be the right thing to do. I was going to propose today if we did that or not. I'm sorry Princess," His nickname runs through my head 'Princess.' Should I believe him or is this wrong? Did he mean it? Why hasn't he been here for 3 months then decides to pop the question? My head hurts from all this thinking.

"Why? Why did you pop the question? You haven't been here since October?"

A/N:

Here's an update. There you go. I know cliffhanger. But I needed to update. Love you guys

~Krys