I know the cover isn't that great but I seriously tried hard lmao T.T

Hi, My name is Courtney , I'm 17 years old... and my life is pretty boring. To resume you my hobbies, they are basically sleeping and being a bad student (is that even a hobby?).

Well, to be honest with you, I do more than just sleeping and having bad grades. I play sports and Im not bad at all, and I read a lot ... Like a lot ; Pick one book- finish it in less than a week and repeat. 

My family is pretty short, and when I say short is literally made up of two people, me and my mum. I dont have siblings and my dad left before I was even born. My mum had to do everything on her own which implied not having a great nor stable economy, moving from city to city with short period of times in between and therefore, loneliness. For me and her, both.

I have never been the curious type of child, sure there had been times in which I asked her who the f was my dad when I was like 5 or 6 years old. But as time went by and comprehension hitted me along with age, I just realized there was nothing to ask about; He wasn't here , he isn't and I can obviously say he will not be. Therefore questions that used to haunt my head like "Why would he leave?" were mostly looking for not needed excuses or explanations for his terrible doings. 

And bad people dont really deserve that kind of attention

If I have to talk about my circle of friends its either too short, fake or just non-existent. As I said before, making friends wasn't something difficult but It was something I tried my best to avoid. Loving people was something that in just months or luckily, a year , would disappear due to me moving away. Sure I stay in contact with those who I really care for but It's just not the same.

I have two friends whom I hang out with in school, their names are Mia and Louisa. They are pretty much introverted and the "invisibles". I used to look for people I genuinely liked, but as time passed by it suddenly started to lose importance. 

Mia and Louisa are the most boring people I have known in my life, they don't like to party nor talk that much, they don't care about boys and are really nerdy. But again, what's the point on even complaining when I will be leaving in... well probably in short.

There's only one person whom I find special and I talk daily to, and that's him...

I met Hoseok via an anonymous app, We couldn't see nor hear each other but that didn't stop us from clicking immediatly. And nearly a month after exchanging messages, talking about each other interests, what we love, what we hate, etc, we exchanged numbers. Which ended up with us getting closer, doing phone calls or face calls almost everyday. 

Therefore like 1 month and a half later, the flirting started, I dont exactly remember how it began but it was related with him admitting that he was stunned when he saw me for the first time, in photos and in the face calls, and that was followed by me admitting that he is very pretty too. Later on compliments and cute messages started being frequent and never overwhelming, always making my heart melt which wasn't something I was used to. 

Then the day came, the day he asked me to be his girlfriend, in a super cute way btw. And I know you might think, Isn't it a bit childish to have an online boyfriend? but to be honest I used to think so too. But hoseok just makes me feel in an awesome way nobody else has ever did. And there was no chance im rejecting someone that makes me feel the way he does, Im not that stupid.

Hoseok is everything I search up in a boy , he is respectful, playful, funny and incredible funny, Someone who never stops making you smile or laugh, but still can talk about serious topics and be an awesome listener and advicer. 

But sadly, not everything sorrounding him is sun and smiles. 

I remember that day perfectly. His crying voice trying hard to breath as he explained him how badly he was being bullied. My heart was torn apart, I have heard him sad, down , and crying a really few times, but that time was different. He was literally suffering and felt lonely and hopeless.

And what was worse was that all I could do was listen...

Because at the end of the day, whatever I said to him that recomforted him and made him smile again, would mean nothing the very next day when he arrived at school. 

And like that, in less than a week everything started to fall down for me. Because Hoseok had removed all his social media accounts and his number was impossible to contact.