TWT

Chan's POV

I was not ready. I was far from ready but the weekend jist seemed to fly by and it was Monday.

I wasn't ready to face the reality and whole situation between my brother, best friend and girlfriend.

First of all I couldn't believe that she tried to break Yeol and Baekhyuns relationship. She actually went through with that stupid plan.

I was more afraid though to know why she had done it.

I first thought she was doing it for me but I have to to realize that she might have darker intentions by the way Baekhyun talked about her.

But that wasn't the only thing in my plate.

Baekhyun confessed that he had more than friendship feelings for me and I don't know what came over me when I kissed him.

But so many things made sense at that moment.

I didn't hate seeing Yeol with him sorely because I didn't trust my brother. I had feelings for Baek. Even more than I should.

I was jealous of what they had and hated my brother for doing what I was always afraid to do.

But it was too late now. Baekhyun was in love with Yeol and there was no chance for me to ever redeem myself.

I wish I had noticed sooner how he really felt about me. Maybe things would have been different.

I wasn't gay but the truth was it was different with Baek but I was too afraid to admit it.

And now my fears had cost me his love and attention. We could only be friends now because Yeol made it clear he wasn't letting go and had literally stolen Baeks heart.

As soon as I spotted Dara I pulled her into an empty classroom and closed the door.

"What are you...?"

"What the hell were you thinking kissing Yeol. I told you not to do it but you just went ahead and did it" I lashed out. Unable to keep my anger in control.

"I did it for you. I know how you..."

"Just cut the bullshit Dara. Why did you really do it? What's going on between you and my brother. From the day I introduced you two I knew it was a lie that you didn't know him but I didnt question you. But now I see there is more to this shitty situation than your lies" I said cutting her off before she told more lies.

Instead of giving me her usual smile she smirked.

"Fine whatever. You're useless to me now so there is no need to pretend anymore. I have known for a very long time and the only reason I got with you was to use you to get to Yeol. He is mine and I'm going to make sure I get that stupid friend of yours out of the picture even if I have to kill him" she said before she turned to leave but I pulled her back.

"Don't you dare touch Baek" I said in a low dangerous tone as I glared at her.

"I don't even understand what you see in that little twink but I don't care. If you try to stop me dont cry when you get caught in the crossfire" she pulled herself free as she pushed me violently before walking out.

Only after she had left did her words finally settle.

She had used me. She pretended to care about me. Made me fall hard for her only to play my heart like a guitar only to break my strings and leave me broken and unusable.

So from tge day we met it was all just an elaborate plan to get to my brother.

It was never about me. About us. They never was an us. It was just me.

I was the only one who tried, who cared, who fell.

Admitting I had feelings for Baek doesn't mean I never cared for Dara.

I wasn't with her because of her beauty. I genuinely liked her. I could even say as time went by I fell in love with her.

It was real for me but just a game for her. A cruel twisted game that has left me with nothing but a broken heart and confused feelings.

She played me like a soccer ball and as soon as she made a goal she went to celebrate and left me out in the rain.

Did I really mean nothing to her?

The time we spent together. The kisses we shared. I felt so much closer to her when we were intimate but it is clear it was just sex to her. Meaningless sex.

It was all just a sick plan and none of it was real.

None of it was real. If it wasn't real then why do I feel this way.

The memories are so clear. I remember her taste, her touch, her voice.

If I close my eyes I can still see her but when I reach out she disappears. Because she was never real.

The Dara I know was never real but an image used to deceive me with much crueler intentions.

None of it was real. Her love was never real. But mine was real. But meant nothing to her. It was just a step closer to her destination.

I clutched onto my chest trying to subdue the pain I felt but it wasn't helping.

Soon I had my back against the wall as my legs failed me and I slipped to the floor.

Only one word ringing in my head.

Why?

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Chan is depressed. What do we expect since he just found out his girlfriend was using him and never loved him.

What are you comments about all this drama?

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