Three years ago

"Y/N" a friend of yours asked "Who are you looking for?"

You could hardly hear anything inside that club. Loud music, alcohol, dancing, darkness, everything was intruding in your senses. It was... sickening.

"What?!"you asked, since you hadn't heard what she asked you.

"ARE YOU LOOKING FOR ANYONE? IF YOU WANNA DANCE, WE CAN GO MEET CUTE GUYS TOGETHER"she yelled and you heard this time.

"I... I'M OKAY, NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE"

"YOU ARE LOOKING AROUND ALL THE TIME. COME ON, STAND UP"

She dragged you with her to the dance floor, despite you trying to get away. You begged for Yuuki's help, but she was busy talking with some other friends.
You were indeed looking around the whole time, but only to find a specific person who promised to appear tonight.

Asano Gakushu.

Yet, he hadn't appeared so far, and that made you feel... lonely.

I have all these friends... why do I have to feel like that? It's not right.

You tried to have fun, but there was no point in it. You could only pretend to do so. It wasn't necessarily Asano's fault, cause it was like this every damn time. All of these people, your friends, something was off. You knew that if you didn't act like them, you would soon lose them. You hated that idea. You hated conflicts, dramas, goodbyes.

But now, it was worse. You needed Asano by your side.

That damn perfect dude... why did he say he would come if he has no intention of showing himself? Well, HUH, I will have fun with other people...

"Guys... Can we dance?"your friend asked two guys dancing alone, and they just nodded, one approaching you and the other your friend.

The music was louder, and also it was pretty hot. The dance just made the temperature worse. You and the guy were dancing to the beat, out of beat, it didn't matter to any of you. You were kind of ignoring the music, since the important was to have fun and forget. Two not so simple things.

You could hear your friend laughing enthusiastically with the other guy, and when she noticed you, she winked at you and then, pushed you. Oh yeah, she pushed you hard enough to fall on your dance partner.

Ever heard of accidental kisses? That's what happened. Your lips smacked on his, closing immediately the distance, and the next moment, both of you pulled away.

Someone kill me...

He touched his lips, obviously surprised.

"I'm sorry, it was an accident" you bluntly said, completely calm, even though inside you were dying from embarrassment. You knew you had to work on your reactions, because they were totally the opposite of what you felt like. At least most of the times.

"Oh.. it's okay then" he murmured, making clear that he didn't want that to happen. His eyes focused behind you for a moment, and then, you felt a hand grabbing yours and forcefully turning you around.

Even in the dark, the purple depths of his eyes were clearly visible. He was so close to you, that with him lowering his head, he had his soft orange bangs touching your forehead. His grip, his eyes, everything was intense.

"Asano..."

"I was a little late... and I'm finding you here with another guy kissing?"he said with low and rough voice. He was probaly the only one you could hear clearly in this loud place.

"Oh... it was an accident. I was just pushed..." you said and he sighed.

He is so angry just with that...

He held you tightly from the shoulders, his face close to yours.

Suddenly, nothing else mattered. All that existed in the world was him.

"Thats the problem... I can't even punch him cause it was not his fault. But you... just asking sorry, explaining so calmly... would you be this calm with anyone kissing you? It really doesn't matter? Then, is it the same if I do it?"

You didn't even manage to blink, and he put his lips on yours, tightening his grip, pulling you closer to him. It was intense, hot, full of feelings that were being passed to you through this little ritual.

Oh no, it was not the same at all. Nothing was "same" with him. With Asano, everything was special.

You had kissed boys before, but nothing was compared to that. Asano... made you feel extraordinary things.

Your whole body was stuck on his, and he easily felt your heart beating faster. Like, super fast.

He broke the kiss and looked at you, panting. He asked again, making you tear up a bit.

"Is it the same?"

You couldn't answer. You couldn't just say a 'no', because it wouldn't be enough.
Instead, you kissed him again. It was probably one of those times that your inner feelings were taking control of your body, ignoring factors like 'embarrassment' and such.

Asano welcomed that pleasant sensation.
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One year later

"Asano, my parents decided to send me to Kunugigaoka Highschool. Isn't it the one you will also go to?"

It was a summer before the beginning of Highschool. Asano and you were at a park, under a tree, lying down on the grass, watching the night sky. Your hand was in his, and he slightly tightened his grip in excitement.
"Really? Then we are really lucky then. Just don't get scared when you see my father as a principal. I have noticed the way you look at him" he said and giggled.

It was like this for a year. You couldn't hang out very often, because Asano was a top student and obviously wanted to keep that position of his, and so was busy with studying. That didn't stop him from giving you lots of affection every time seeing you, though.

You were both enjoying your time together, appreciating it, treasuring it, leading a healthy relationship. Both of you became part on each other's life. A natural and sweet part.

Your love for him was becoming stronger and stronger. You wished to be with him forever.

The next time you met each other though... something was off. He was serious... and gave you a cold stare. He was holding a paper in his hand.

"What's wrong?"you asked him. He sighed at you being clueless.

"When you said that we will be in the same Highschool... I went to ask my father to put us in the same class. But the classes are formed according to the grades."

You frowned. So he was angry because you wouldn't be in the same class? The difference between you and him was indeed huge. He was the top, you were the bottom.

"Don't worry, Asano... we may not be in the same class, but at least we will see each other a lot. We can even go there together."you smiled, but he was not smiling at all.

"That's not what I mean, Y/N... I mean... your grades are..."

He gave you the paper. Your horrible grades were there, probably having taken them from his father's files. You hoped he wouldn't have to see these Ds, Es and Fs.

"I still pass classes though" you tried to joke, but he wasn't in the mood of it. "Asano, what is wrong? I think it is okay with us being in different classes... do you hate it that much?"

"Are you an idiot?"he asked. It was the first time he called you an idiot and he meant it. "All this time... I though you were... I don't know, a top student or something... but this.. it looks like a massacre."

You gasped. So he was... disappointed?

"Why did you think that? I never said what kind of student I am..  why did you assume that I was good?"

"This is how we met! I saw you at the ceremony of the nomination of the top 10 students, holding an award!"he said, gradually losing his temper.

"It was Yuuki's, I went instead of her. It was not my award... But why does that matter? I am a horrible student, so what? Does it change anything?"you asked, not understanding the reason he was like that.

"It does! Y/N... I had noticed that you weren't interested in talking about school and grades, that's why I never asked you about these kinds of things... but finding out like that... Y/N, you are going to be in E- class! The End class, while I will be in A-Class. Do you really see no problem in it?"

You didn't say anything. You lowered your head.

I see no problem. Why do our classes matter? We love each other, don't we?

"You really can't answer? Y/N... I am the top student. I am the principal's son. I have an image to maintain. My girlfriend being an E-class student... it will be devastating."

That pierced your heart. You wondered if words could actually kill someone, because if yes, you would die soon. You felt depression taking over you.

"Asano... what is it that you want to say?"

He seemed annoyed by your questions.

"Lets not meet each other a lot at school, so that rumors won't be spread. That will be until you change class. I hope that you will at least manage to reach B or C class..."

What is this now?

He approached you, and hugged you. His touch was suddenly so... unfamiliar.

"You can study hard for me, right? I need to support my father, and that means that my girlfriend should be close to my level. That's why you have to reach me. If you love me, you will do it, right?"

Back then, you agreed. Just because he said that damn word.

Love.

What was it for him anyway?

After finding about your grades, everything changed. The few times you were hanging out were decreased, because he wanted you to study. When you were with him, he was cold and easily annoyed.

Suddenly, he was able to notice all your mistakes and flaws that he didn't seem to have a problem with before. He was annoyed by your slow answers and weird reactions, by you agreeing with him even though you didn't.. and was gradually finding out the reality of the person he was dating.

Why hadn't he noticed all these before? Because he thought you were a top student. With that, everything on you seemed beautiful to him. He loved all of you because he thought you had already passed that little test of his. He wanted a perfect girlfriend, he thought you were.
You really tried. For him, you tried a lot. But you just couldn't do anything about your problem. You were bound to be a bottom student, so far away from your beloved one.

There were times you would just get sick and tired by your endless lack of sleep to study. Why couldn't you just improve as a student?

At Highschool, you realised no one of your friends had come there. Yuuki and the others had gone to a different one, so you became friends with Yukiko and Kayano from your class. You tried to see E-class as an enemy, like Asano did.. but you just couldn't. All of your classmates were nice and fun, you couldn't find a reason to hate them. And they were the same as you. Not strong students, being judged for that, being bullied for their weak grades by other classes, but having other charms.

As the time passed, you were also able to see Asano's bad traits. But the difference was that you still loved him. You were not driven away from him, you were attracted even more. On the other hand, he wasn't.

There was a student sitting behind you. Akabane Karma. You weren't really talking to each other, but he had hanged out a few times with you and the others. You had noticed that he was an excellent student, at Asano's level, maybe even better. One day, you turned around and looked at him.

"Hey, Akabane... may I ask something?"

"Go ahead"

"Since you are that good of a student.. why are you still here? A-class is where you belong"

He had laughed at that.

"So grades define where we belong? I'm sorry, but there isn't a class that suits me more than this one. Well, this is supposed to be my punishment because of my.. violent behaviour, but I am actually enjoying it. I have no intention of becoming a good kid and leave"

Six months after the beginning of highschool, the space between you and Asano grew even more, despite your tries of being close to him. You just couldn't stop this feeling of love being fired up every time you laid your eyes on him. At the same time, E-class also became a place you were attached to.

None of your previous friends ever tried to contact you again, and the truth was that you knew it would happen. You knew it even the days you were dancing with Yuuki and the others at the clubs, laughing as if it would last forever. You knew that after school, you would never see them again. Because there was nothing real bonding you and them.

And now, Asano was bound to leave your side. But in his case... everything inside you broke down to millions of pieces.

E-class and Hiro were the ones who would put them back together later on.

"Do you... by any chance... have a girlfriend? It's not fair for only you to ask me, you know..."

"Who knows. I will soon have one, I guess."

You cried at that memory. He hadn't made his standards clear back then. If he had, you probably wouldn't have suffered so much. You would have just answered 'I'm sorry, I am not at your level. Date Yuuki, she is what you are looking for.'